i think i'm safe, no one reads this anymore. but who cares if they do, mehh, i just need to write.

eng enrich was the first one for the whole yr & it was sort of random . i came like 15min late because of traffic & they were all doing this survey about what they'd like to do in eng enrich & what our strengths are. i found it hard to answer any of them; & jess, ant & lulu were being random with johnmayer & bashing up the piece of paper because we couldn't think of our strengths ..hahaha
got maths mark back today [yeah well parts A & E] & it made me quite depressed tbh,
i know it shouldn't get to me but i'd just hoped for so much better than that
it made me realise how great friends are because some of them were trying to cheer me up very nicely even though there was pretty much no hope in me believing them
so thank you, ily guys (:
ohh & high resolves today, bludgy, fun, a tad boring at the end.
like i was asking mark for the time every 5 minutes [EXACTLY; idk how i did it LOL] like 3 times but because i was so impatient for it to finish.

for dinner, after sarah's piano, we went to pancakes on the rocks [the last time we went was before we went to america & korea]. & i gotta say, i still love that place even if it makes me fat LOL x3
sarah stole half my ribs while i stole half of dad's nachos. mum was the only one not stealing & she was eating pancakes very quietly while me & sarah ate everything really loudly, hahah.
it tasted soo nice & yeaah well everything was delicious. we sort of ran out of conversation, but we go out to eat once or twice every week so i feel so lucky to have a childhood like this.
i know i sound retarded but i could never wish for better parents or a better family at any time, than the ones i have now.
& it's not just a "i feel happy now so i'll say this" thing.
i honestly feel so lucky to have a family like mine & always always so scared that i'll lose them one day.
seriously, i'm a paranoid loser but i get so scared if they leave the house & are like 10 minutes late from when they're supposed to come home
i miss them for selfish reasons like i won't be able to live without them.
i can never say it to them or show them enough, i take things for granted i reckon.
dad's in his room, mum's on the computer & sarah's treadmilling right now.
we have family time a LOT & it's even comforting to have them in a 10m radius of me
goshh, i love my friends but i literally couldn't live without my family.
i'm not embarrassed to say it; my parents are my best friends,
obviously i have other best friends to be crazy with & have fun with, to have those moments where everyone cares about everyone & you get that warm feeling that people are all together in highschool
i like those moments when the whole class stands up for one person against the teacher or people you never really considered that close to you gives you something to trust or have hope in, just because you know them. it's just nice to have that huge group of friends, flexible to have anyone in it
don't get me wrong, that stuff is incredible
but i could never trust anyone as much as my sister or parents,

end of story

grace (:

i think i'm safe, no one reads this anymore. but who cares if they do, mehh, i just need to write.

eng enrich was the first one for the whole yr & it was sort of random . i came like 15min late because of traffic & they were all doing this survey about what they'd like to do in eng enrich & what our strengths are. i found it hard to answer any of them; & jess, ant & lulu were being random with johnmayer & bashing up the piece of paper because we couldn't think of our strengths ..hahaha
got maths mark back today [yeah well parts A & E] & it made me quite depressed tbh,
i know it shouldn't get to me but i'd just hoped for so much better than that
it made me realise how great friends are because some of them were trying to cheer me up very nicely even though there was pretty much no hope in me believing them
so thank you, ily guys (:
ohh & high resolves today, bludgy, fun, a tad boring at the end.
like i was asking mark for the time every 5 minutes [EXACTLY; idk how i did it LOL] like 3 times but because i was so impatient for it to finish.

for dinner, after sarah's piano, we went to pancakes on the rocks [the last time we went was before we went to america & korea]. & i gotta say, i still love that place even if it makes me fat LOL x3
sarah stole half my ribs while i stole half of dad's nachos. mum was the only one not stealing & she was eating pancakes very quietly while me & sarah ate everything really loudly, hahah.
it tasted soo nice & yeaah well everything was delicious. we sort of ran out of conversation, but we go out to eat once or twice every week so i feel so lucky to have a childhood like this.
i know i sound retarded but i could never wish for better parents or a better family at any time, than the ones i have now.
& it's not just a "i feel happy now so i'll say this" thing.
i honestly feel so lucky to have a family like mine & always always so scared that i'll lose them one day.
seriously, i'm a paranoid loser but i get so scared if they leave the house & are like 10 minutes late from when they're supposed to come home
i miss them for selfish reasons like i won't be able to live without them.
i can never say it to them or show them enough, i take things for granted i reckon.
dad's in his room, mum's on the computer & sarah's treadmilling right now.
we have family time a LOT & it's even comforting to have them in a 10m radius of me
goshh, i love my friends but i literally couldn't live without my family.
i'm not embarrassed to say it; my parents are my best friends,
obviously i have other best friends to be crazy with & have fun with, to have those moments where everyone cares about everyone & you get that warm feeling that people are all together in highschool
i like those moments when the whole class stands up for one person against the teacher or people you never really considered that close to you gives you something to trust or have hope in, just because you know them. it's just nice to have that huge group of friends, flexible to have anyone in it
don't get me wrong, that stuff is incredible
but i could never trust anyone as much as my sister or parents,

end of story

grace (: