But every time something discourages me or gives that sinking feeling, it feels like I'm going to turn around and walk back the way I came. I need to know not to squirm out of things, to keep put, to be up for anything at any time,to hold fast even when it hurts to be there. I've always been proud of never having cried on anyone's shoulder in any sense and I've always tried to be the good energy. I need to smile more & tell others it's okay rather than fishing for encouragement or self-esteem boosts from others lately. I need to be there when it counts. I need to grow up.

It's something that I think a lot these days but I think having it down somewhere will help me put it into action.

But every time something discourages me or gives that sinking feeling, it feels like I'm going to turn around and walk back the way I came. I need to know not to squirm out of things, to keep put, to be up for anything at any time,to hold fast even when it hurts to be there. I've always been proud of never having cried on anyone's shoulder in any sense and I've always tried to be the good energy. I need to smile more & tell others it's okay rather than fishing for encouragement or self-esteem boosts from others lately. I need to be there when it counts. I need to grow up.

It's something that I think a lot these days but I think having it down somewhere will help me put it into action.