it's so hard to be all nostalgic over this year because so much has happened to be nostalgic about.
so i when i want to remember more about 'o9 i'll just stalk everyone else's blogs.
but it's a fresh new decade so my biggest new year resolution is to have fresh new start.
i mean, a lot, & i mean a LOT of great, fun & amazing things have happened over the year but there's also been a few ups & downs & yeah, in-between crap.
so, i just want to start anew with no past judgements/grudges/whatever.
i hear the fireworks starting already but i'm at home [not at a korean hotel like in 'o8] & i still love it.
last year, i prayed that 'o9 would be fufilling & great & that i'd have a lot of great times.
more than what i asked for came true & i really want to give all i've done in the past year to God & just thank him for it.
if he can see my heart, then he can see my blog , :)
we went to manly beach today & it was so peaceful & beautiful. so much more than gary beach even though that was a tonne of fun. 8)
now outside this room, sarah, james & heesoo are watching 'mary poppins' & heesoo [who's 4, from korea & doesn't know eng] is asking sarah & james about it every 5 seconds.
i'm hoping to stay up till midnight & FULLY blog about everything i remember in 'o9 & wish for in '1o. so fingers crossed that i can keep awake till then.

x.

hahaha direct, factory, outlet ♥♥
yessss it's lame but it was fun.
but as soon as we got there, we hit the food court & by the time, we got to the actual shopping, well yeaah i wanted to go straight to every shop but then sarah said that she wanted to go to the bathroom so i had to PAINFULLY walk past every shop & ignore it until we reached the restrooms. torture much.
& then we looked around in a random cutlery shop because mum & grandma wanted to.
but it was fun all the same.
malcolm in the middle & james's house
heesoo reading her learning-korean book & me feeling accomplished because i had the korean vocab of at least over a 4yr old even though i'm 10yrs older [?], alice in wonderland, sashimi, sarah thinking potato was onion, heesoo & me building blocks, sarah on wii & COMPLETELY distracted, basketballbasketballbasketball, james throwing a tennis ball to china practically, james = dave7

love the beach :)
we stopped after like 1 & a half hours of driving on this amazing cliff place & we watched parachutes/hang gliders & i took 257074305704732875827658962 photos. haha :)
we finally got to go to the actual beach which was the nice warm type of beach with a heap of sand & blue waters with no grey sky & no rock pools.
it wasn't that crowded so mum, dad & heesoo's parents set up the chairs & umbrellas while me, sarah & heesoo ran on the sand & played.
grandma & grandpa came with a huge parasol, more chairs, sandwiches [the ONLY sandwiches i think are yuuum] & watermelon.
we just sat on deck chairs, me & sarah were dripping & covered in sand while heesoo was still playing in the sand at our feet.
for drinks, we had water, water, water, lemon, lime & bitters, water, water, coke, water, water. haha.
everyone ate, talked & laughed. a really fun time.

then we went to strathfield for dinner with heesoo's family. gam-ja tang [heesoo's dad's favourite], bosum [my favourite], soon-deh [it was chilli & soooo nice]. i forgot what the restaurant was called but it was the typical korean place with NIIICE food. we bumped into a few people from church eating there, they'd come back from church camp [miriam's family & hee-jin's family].
then we went to "hello happy" which was sarah's absolute favourite cake shop. she bought her usual strawberry start & i bought sweet potato cake even though i don't eat it. i just bought it because it was a minicake in the shape of a bear's head; so damn cuuuuute 8)
then heesoo's mum bought heesoo strawberry ice cream [her fave] from this place called "gelatissimo". me & sarah were amazed, like absolutely amazed, that there was a flavour called "popcorn ice cream". hehe. & there were pretty cakes & biscuits in the shape of ice creams.

such a great day. x3

just had dinner [sarah's beside me eating purple grapes]
so anyway, i want to dedicate this whole post to darling dinner.
dinner was so freaking niceeeeee ! it was at home but it was so so so delicious [maybe even better than the restaurants we've been to].
okay, sarah's pestering me to type up what we ate. ohh & she's laughing hysterically & DROPPED A GRAPE [good, she picked it up].
okay. well when we went out to eastwood, mum & me went to the fish shop to buy sashimi [we bought kingfish & salmon].
so we had that [with soy sauce & chilli sauce] but it was so gourmet with the lemon [which i bought with dad at woolworths] & everything.
mum cooked up udong which [as sarah says] is japanese noodles.
now she just screamed at me that udong sounds like dugong & everyone will think we're weird people who eat dugongs. yuck, she spit in my face.
anyways, back to the point.
so that was the japanese part of dinner.
now for the greek part. dad bought delicious red leicester cheese [yes, i was just loserish enough to look up the name on google] from woolworths & mum put jatz [yeah sorry, i put 'jets' before & sarah was just like "IT'S JATZ, IT'S JATZ; what're you doing?!?!?! IT'S JATZ!"] biscuits with it.
mum also put a massive sidedish of purple grapes.
me & sarah had yet another stupid arguement before dinner which involved her pegging a chess piece at my face & me threatening to whip her with her denim vest [it's $30 !!; $30 for a sleeveless half vest !!! but it's awesome ; according to sarah].
anyway, the point is that we wouldn't speak to each other so we didn't end up choosing a dvd to watch during dinner which MEANT that this dinner was special because there wasn't a tv blaring in the background & the food was full exotic/gourmet.
lalalala, sarah was crazy a few minutes ago but she's quiet,, wait, i think she's still kind of drunk now [once she saw this part, she started singing a weird drunk song]. & she's still singing now.
the end. hehe, shut up sarah.

sarah went to her friend, nicole's, house for the whole day so i could pretty much do anything i wanted.
haha which meant i did nothing. absolutely nothing. i read a little but i got so bored, because you know, i just happen to get bored of boring stuff.
at around 1, me, mum & dad went to eastwood & it was another great day. like i always feel so lucky when i go out with my family; hahaha lasting childhood memories; check!
we went to torin which is a sushi restaurant & it was really nice.
i had a sashimi set, mum had sushi+udong & dad had al-tung [korean spelling sucks].
dad was about to hedo-bab [again sucky koren spelling] but we had to share everything so apparently, as dad says, he made a 'sacrifice'.
it was yummy with the potato salad as a side dish & the chilli soup for the al-tung was so delicious.
we were going to go to the cafe but we were all full & it was crowded so we went to the korean grocery store & stocked up on everything [ingredients for noodles for sarah; momilgugsu].
mum bought her usual 호두 ice cream but she made me carry it because she said that it was embarrassing for a grown woman to walk around the streets eating ice cream. so funny, but we walked around & i threatened to eat it & pointed out that dad goes around eating rum&raisin ice cream & chocolate & everything. hehe.
we went to the fish shop to buy sashimi for dinner & it was fully empty but the decorations were cute like fishnets with plastic crabs, sharps & prawns caught in them.
we went back home & i fbed for like an hour. then me & dad went to woolworths & we bought so much stuff we didn't need [like lemon, lime & bitters, leicester red cheese, hand sanitiser ; hehe]. it was pretty fun grocery shopping because dad said the only way to make mum not ask him to go grocery shopping again was to buy everything we didn't need & mum didn't want.
but dad made me carry the heavy bags #_____# hehe but it was very fun 8)
when we got home, mum was out picking sarah up from nicole's house so we watched 'scent of a woman'. dad said it was a really good movie & the main actor was his favourite.
it was a fantastic movie but not like the best but it might go on my top movies list :)
the main character [colonel slade] was so awesome, like he kept yelling but he was kind of wise in a way. he acted really rich but he lived in like a cabin.
the other guy was pretty good too but fully like pale private school random.

church was fun, like all the kids joined the adult sermon so we just listened to the translations on the radio because we all suck at korean :)
then people graduated & I MEAN graduated; like from kindy to yr12
the kindies moved up to yu-nyon-bu [baaah, fail korean], yr3s moved up to cho-dong-bu [failER korean], yr6s move up to huk-seng-bu [omg, not even going to say anything] & yr12s either went up to chong-nyon-bu or adult service. whatever.
the kids were cute but the yr12s were all like wearing suits & so damn serious, hehe but that's ok.
after church, i skipped violin & we went to the koala wildlife park in castle hill with heesoo & her family. i stalked everyone with my camera [which is pink, gosh so high] & we fed kangaroos & acted like wannabe bindi-irwins, so lame but it was pretty fun.
mum didn't go but she went to castle towers for the sales but only ended up buying towels.
we went back home & just ate jjs, watched happily never after II with heesoo & went through ALL the videos & photos i took over the past few days.
it's so hard to keep a four yr old girl who can only speak korean entertained; i mean it was shockingly difficult to make her sit still or be quiet. but she was pretty funny.
for dinner, we went to milone's [across the road from baulkham hills stockland mall] for like 5 meals [all italian, i loveeee risotto] & creme brulee & chocolate cake. yummmm 8)
it was so nice but the creme brulee was like way too creamy but i guess that's kind of the point.
& heesoo didn't even get to start the chocolate cake [which was like fully huge & full of icing] because she was so busy eating the ice cream [which was only a side dish]. she was punished by her mum before so she was like crying but then got better after eating a few scoops of vanilla ice cream, haha.
i forgot to bring my camera but i borrowed their camera & took some anyway.
now me & sarah just ran [her, 2km & me, 3km].

i'll post pics up soon; mum, dad, sarah, auntie, james, heesoo's family & me went to darling harbour.
mum, auntie & heesoo's mum went to the boxing day sales while the rest of us roamed around the shopping centre.
sarah chose these dangly cross earrings for $6 in this amazing asian jewellry shop [i love jewellry shops] .



before that we stopped at a news agency for no particular reason & there were these name tag definition things that themed dinosaurs. e.g. i was gracerotops & apparently i have the nicest spikes in town ;)
there was like jamesosaurus & other pretty dinosaur names [uhh yeaaah,, pretty]
& we stopped by at a cafe to have drinks [fruit punch, iced tea, coffee, juice & lemon lime bitter which is dad's favourite, he had it last time].
somewhere along the way, we visited the british lolly shop & spanish doll shop (Y)
i kept stalking everyone with a camera & they all got annoyed at me, hehe :)
but like i said, i need to PRESERVE THE MEMORY. in otherwords, follow everyone around with a camera.



we met up with mum, auntie & heesoo's mum to have lunch in china town. it was so crowded but we managed to get a table & i was the only one who didn't have noodle soup,,yeaaaaaah, crispy chicken ftw x3 baah, i'm such a loser.
we let heesoo's family & auntie ride in the monorail & me, mum, dad, sarah & james walked to the centre of darling harbour. hahaha we still got there first.
so we waited for them. i started taking luvos with mum & sarah & james were watching this guy who juggles swords, has a whip & a toy koala/dog. he's always there everyday but he always says like "when i was in LA or america or france or blahblahblah" as if he's been to all those places.
i pointed this out & mum was just like "he's just a show off" very loudly & matter-of-factly.
we took MARIO HAT luvos all car trip back home.



we had barbeque for dinner & grandpa [he had eye surgery so he was wearing sunglasses the whole time], grandma, auntie, uncle, james, heesoo & her family all came.
we watched cinderella III to keep heesoo entertained but she got bored so we watched alvin & the chipmunks during dinner & james was explaining everything that was happening the whole time. he had to basically translate all the english into korean for heesoo because i suck at korean.
we just played games & ate cake :)
james & heesoo were playing a card game where you had to find 2 cards & match them together. james let heesoo win & was fully like "heesoo no-mo-jal-ha-neh!" & she was giggling the whole time,
hehe so naturally, me & sarah are planning their wedding despite the 5yr age difference & heesoo's still practically a baby.
auntie made heesoo call james 'mo-tchin song-jin obaah' ; so cuteeeeee 8)
but afterwards, we got kind of tired so we just ran a bit while watching click [which was MAJORLY BORING] @____@
we joined mum who was watching tv upstairs.
then mum flicked to a random channel on tv & it was a spanish movie with penelope cruz [her boyfriend tries to rape her daughter & he gets killed but then penelope like stashes away the body & crap]. we only watched 10 min of it & sarah got scared so we stopped watching; but i think foreign movies/dramas are WAY better than aussie ones. please; i mean bold & the beautiful ? =/ hahahah so funny.
damn, i loveee the city. ♥



everyone went on fb & managed to say merry christmas to EVERYONE; crazy people
heesoo & her family came from korea in the morning. she's grown so much since the last time i saw her in korea [she was 3 & we were staying at their house].
we'd seen her parents before in like 2004 when heesoo wasn't even born yet.
then again in 2007 where heesoo was like 2 & could barely talk.
then again at christmas last year [2008/2009] where she was 3.
we went to botanical gardens which was fun but then me & sarah got into this massive arguement that started with me saying that my feet hurt.
we just walked around & i took a billion photos around the harbour. we walked up & down the opera house & around the streets to look for something to eat but everything was either closed or too expensive.
we walked to mcdonalds because pretty much everything was closed for the public holiday & dad made me order the food.
but i was stupid & ordered everything as a meal so we ended up with a few burgers, chicken nuggets & a tonne tonne tonne of chips. mum & sarah both had chicken nuggets, dad & heesoo's dad both had big macs, heesoo's mum had a quarter pounder, heesoo just ate whatever & i had a fillet'o' fish [?] burger.
we didn't finish the chips ofc but we managed.
mum & dad went to get the 2 cars from the botanic gardens carpark so the rest of us waited in the lobby of the four seasons hotel. me & sarah argued like way more there & i ignored her & looked at the christmas ornaments set up. so pretty; like there was a whole village of gingerbread houses covered in white icing [snow].
on the car trip on the way home, heesoo's mum gave me a bracelet & sarah a diary with a treasure chest picture which can open up & there are coloured beads under the flap as treasure.

mum & dad came & we visited syndey uni [the uni my dad went to] for no particular reason & it looked like a castle. but there wasn't much to do EXCEPT think that it looked like a castle but dad pointed out where he used to do his exams & it hit me that people like SUFFER there.
then we visited ruse for no particular reason either & my dad was about to show everyone around & i was like "uhh no, i go here everyday, i don't need to know. spare me;" so i stayed in the car with mum & sarah & heesoo sleeping on my lap. they came back after a few minutes because there wasn't much to see.
for dinner watched the wild because it was pretty much the only korean kids movie i had & cinderella III [which wasn't korean but it was alright] to keep heesoo interested. ofc she got bored & we played with barbies & littlest pet shop [all sarah's toys, i swear]. :)







now the carols are on on dad's record player, the light is dim,
dad is showing photos of when he was young & talking about how he used to go carol singing when it was snowing in korea & how he had a crush on this girl who played mary in his church play & how HE played herod; haha, mum is talking to him while sitting up on the sofa & sarah is sitting there with a towel wrapped around her head. it just finally feels like Christmas.
i love my family.
dad has a choir solo for church & so now mum is trying to convince sarah to play it on the piano.
i'm going to go join in now, in Christmas with my family.
merry christmas, happy birthday Jesus ! :)

MIRACLE ON 34TH STREET; my first time watching it . it's sweet.

at lunch, sarah got this random craving to watch a sad movie so we turned to titanic.
i'm so sick of people dying while sad violin music plays & rich people get saved. i mean, like, it happens all the time. nah, jokes. it's a pretty good movie.
then we went to castle towers at 3-3:30 ish because the cleaners were coming to clean our house & we had to go out.
but mum just went to hcf & me & sarah were majorly bored so we just kind of went around diva but we didn't buy anything.
then we went to video ezy & the cheesecake shop .
from video ezy, we borrowed penelope, barbie diaries [omg such a bad movie, disgraces barbie hahaha], click, relative strangers, happily never after II & children of the silk road [mum's choice]. we bought zebra cake.
we went home & rested, i had some cake & we all watched penelope.
then for dinner [rice, egg, chilli squid], we watched barbie diaries which was, tbh, terrible.
i didn't run but sarah did & we were all trying to get into the christmas-eve spirit. :)

christmas carols on dad's record player, i was reading 'my big birkett', christmas tree lit up, sarah taking a shower from running 2km, dad rearranged the sofa chairs,
mum was enjoying the fan & she put it my way but then she was like "just until i get back". haha, that's so mum ;)
HEE SOO COMING FROM KOREA TOMORROW :)

i swear i was fully determined to hardcore study this holidays but nothing's happened; like i don't do anything all day & my parents aren't even forcing me.
good thing or bad ? :S

anyway, grandma & grandpa picked me & sarah up at 2:30 to take us to towers for christmas shopping. hehe we all went crazy, who knew shopping with grandparents could be that much fun ?
grandpa left because, i don't know, he usually doesn't join in whenever we do any outings.
so as soon as we got on the 2nd floor at towers, we saw a stand selling jewellry.
like the shop keeper was asian & she tried to speak korean but she wasn't korean. there were so many sets of necklaces & earrings.
i'd seen so much in korea last christmas so whenever i see jewellry, i'm less excited, like immune =/
but they were really pretty. sarah chose a stone/marble cross on string as a necklace.
i chose kind of the same only it was a pink/black heart with earrings on string & the second one i chose was a detailed flower on sterling silver chain set with earrings.
it was $10 for 3 sets so it was a good price, gosh i felt so asian thinking that.
but i swear that was only the first 10 min of it.
whenever we go shopping with mum, she usually judges/thinks really carefully before buying but grandpa bought whatever she wanted. she spent so much on us.
we went to valleygirl & sarah bought a $30 denim vest & i bought $15 shirt, we kept looking around still while grandma was at the counter.
then sarah just had to get hungry so we went to sushi world as always but i wasn't that hungry so i just stole half her water. :)
then we went to giordano's & the girl who worked there knew my grandma which was sort of strange but it's prob because she goes there a lot. grandpa turned up, probably because grandma hadn't answered his calls like 3 times.
i chose a grey-white striped singlet; but it took ages to try them on. it's not my fault, who knew i was size small ? :S
oh my gosh, then sarah got hungry AGAIN. so we went back to the food court & had chinese food teehee x3
this time i ate. sarah had a few springrolls, i had 4 currypuffs & grandma & grandpa both had cheeseburger meals from maccas. it just hit me that it's usually the other way around, like the kids are supposed to want burgers but the curry puffs were yummy.
grandpa was suddenly impulsive & was like "let's watch a movie!"
ofc, he meant like another day but i was naturally more impulsive, & i just assumed he meant like now.
so i raced off to the cinemas to check the times & avatar was on at 5:45 [half an hour later] so it was a pretty good time.
i didn't exactly want to watch avatar [not exactly the type of movie that interests me] but sarah had seen the previews & she was desperate, i swear, like even to the point of bribing me.
but then grandma called mum & dad to check if it was alright but dad said to watch it next week as a family & that we had to go out to eat so we couldn't. i'm definitely looking forward to watch it now because we NEVER watch movies as a family because dad has to work a lot but he's got 2 weeks of holidays when christmas starts.
so instead, we shopped. we went to uncle petes & bought 2 tiny figure plastic dogs which were so cute, me & sarah got one each. & grandma kept talking about how they had beautiful faces so she bought them for us. $5 each.
we got home & got ready for dinner. dad was watching a tampoline/basketball game called slamball. hahaha so funny, whoever invented had no life.
then we went to bonga in eastwood. we ate bosum & soondooboojighe;
me & sarah ran a little. it was funnnn day.

pathetic tv shows. swimming. massive fight over a paper hat. ned kelly's the reason. nothing ever makes sense.
end of story.

mum, sarah & i went to castle towers but we cbb to park so we parked at castle mall & walked to la colonial [omg, viet food again ㅠ____ㅠ]
it was nice though, like mum just shared off our plates, sarah had beef soup & i had crispy chicken & tomato rice. so normal.
we went in & tried to buy stuff but we go out to the shops way too much so we didn't have much to buy. i bought 3 pairs of diva earrings, 2 studs [x3] & 1 pair of hoops.
we went to pots avenue to buy a present for sarah's piano teacher & her tutor [danny]. they just bought sweet smelling scent diffusers which pretty much make the room smell like lavender & roses. it was like a jar of perfume with sticks in them which spread the scent.
i loved this scent called 'bamboo & white tea", sooo nice :)
so we bought 2 big ones for the piano teacher & tutor, & a small one for ourselves.
i was so tired afterwards; we went home & just hung out i think.
i was watching the last episode [47th ] of rainbow romance.
i always get sad when i get to the end of tv series or whatever, it makes me depressed that it's over but then again, i'm pretty stupid to think that these things last forever.

dad found this site where you have to write in 25 words or less which penelope cruz movie you like best & why. if you win, you get 2 tickets to spain. mum tried to write something but then gave up & bribed me to write it for her.
i was like laughing the whole time & trying to be serious but in the end, i just wrote random crap. like sahara was adventurous & mysterious -blahblahblah- TAKE ME WITH YOU TO SPAIN PENELOPE!!!
hahaha, mum was like 'uhhm, great job' but she was laughing then she submitted it but then regretted the last part a bit. x3
i just ran a bit more & watched the VERY last part of rainbow romance.

i don't think i'm that optimistic but i have a lot of happy things in my life i should be & am grateful for.
the christmas celebrations at church were today & it all went awesome, magical, pretty,, whatever, fill in the blanks.
we practised a bit for the hiphop dance,
& then put on the gold bands on our wrists, gold crown in our hair, gold lightening bolt thing on our trackpants & gold wings on our shoes. so much gold :)
we straightened our hair but i hate my hair out, it gets in the way like all the time.
so i tied it to the side very subtly [but i wasn't so good at being subtle so everyone figured it out]
i had to be mary at the same time so i just put a purplish cloth over & took it off when i had to dance.

so it's basically like this.

1st wise man comes & gives the gift of gold
-hiphop dance comes on-
2nd wise man gives gift of frankincense
-rap comes on- [so gangsta or wannabe gangsta 8)]
3rd wise man gives gift of myrrh
-everyone comes up & sings 'so you would come' & 'Jesus Messiah'-

the little kids were so cute when they did their dance/play/song; i have to find videos of them sometime.
but we were last to go on so as soon as we finished, the pastor got a cake & then everyone sang "noelle" & happy birthday for Jesus.

everyone [like the whole church, with adults & everyone] went down to eat.

yeah then a few people started teasing me because i dropped the babyborn doll [who was supposed to be Jesus] on stage & i almost lost the doll before. i'd be such a good mother, haha.
but the doll was kind of freaky, it has one pink eye & one purple eye [it totally has my eyes pssh :)].
it was christine's doll & lisa wrapped it up in a taekwondo shirt.

the barbeque after was funny,
my sister, james & lisa all shook my coke because they were being annoying
& then sarah shook it again..WHEN IT WAS OPEN ; so i was like half mad at her but half laughing because she spilt it all over herself.
she looked so confused and surprised & her face expression was hilarious.
then daebii started scaring everyone [especially the yr6 & yr5s] by going "when you get to high school, it's magical with magical creatures. there's spy code on this leaf; i'm actually a spy" & then he acted all drunk.
sarah, april & ashley just called insults.
then we started speculating on how similar ara & duri look [they're cousins] because they've got the same dirty look [haha grimace].
i tried to do it but then it didn't work out, & a bunch of people tried to do it but same result. the grimace must be genetic, @____@
we went to strathfield so that adorable cake shop "hello happy" because my sister [being the younger one] went all grumpy after church & said "I WANT A STRAWBERRY TART >("
& my mum & dad never want to disappoint so we drove out all the way to strathfield, bought a fruit tart for me & a strawberry one for sarah, bought a $30 wine to give to this really old caucasian doctor [someone my dad knows].
watched rainbow romance & i cbb to run so i just got bored & ate my fruit tart. x3

woke up, breakfast feasted on biscuits, ham, grapes & cheese.
sarah went to college [james an] & then we picked her up for yum cha
afterwards we went to eastwood to get an eye check up.
my eyes were pretty much the same because my growth is slowing down but sarah's got a little bit worse. so i just kept my glasses but contact lenses & sarah's getting new lenses into her old frames.
we went home & just kind of hung out, being bored, playing games :)
then dad picked us up, dropped mum & sarah off at a funeral/memorial service & dropped me off at church at 5 [because JD told us to meet early].
but most of the leaders were still in service so we just played mafia. so funny.
like the first game, i put my head up to ask a question & then saw the mafia accidentally hehe so i died.
then the second game, i was mafia & got out because of judy's awesome reason 8)
hehe apparently i was "chewing gum sussly"
so we practised the dance on the grass & then got bored so we stretched & took photos instead.
then jdsn & junhee came & we practised properly a little bit but then we all out kimbab [probably not spelt properly] & a few people had ramen. esther & christine were both too sick/tired to eat anything. esther can't eat seaweed & christine had a headache. not so sure.

we did a huge group practise & mum came to watch at around 8 because she came from the funeral.
we saw the kindergarten/preschool's skit & song, primary [years 1-3]'s dance, primary [years 4-6] song, primary [years 1-6] dance to 'joyful, joyful' & then the high school's skit, dance, rap & song.
i think that was all. but it was fun.

problem was that it was so distracting from work which is actually good for me, but i don't know, i need to catch up these holidays.

yeah so yr8 [church] went to watch paranormal activity at parramatta.
when we were eating lunch [me & esther had 4 springrolls each, the guys had like 10 plates each], celia & emily bumped into us.
then we went in at 1 & watched it.
it was pretty much like this.
joohwan wasn't scared at all, samuel was hiding behind joohwan most of the movie, jay & tommy were half scared, daebii was holding onto tommy's leg & esther & me were covering our eyes with our jackets. dammit, my jacket was see through #____#
anyway, it was like a home/horror video & it didn't get scary till the very end but still alright
like when katie was possessed by the demon, it was pretty freaky.
but most of it was quite dodgy. hahah & angela [i know this by facebook] thought that when katie through micah's body at the camera, she was throwing a pillow. LOL :)
but mostly, it was a pretty ok day. x]]

afterwards, i met them all again at church for christmas celebration practice.
we were all pretty confused [especially me because i started learning the dance last sunday & the rappers because they'd only started practising too]. it went pretty well though. so tired.

loved the morning. slept in & mum got us maccas for breakfast :)
but sarah had this major tantrum & kept yelling that she hated mum & me
but then everything was ok i guess.
i majorly cleaned up my room, stuffed up my diary with silver/gold marker & fixed it with bling & black permanent marker. :)
i love the feeling of getting everything i don't need chucked out & making everything neat & organised.
perfectionist; guilty.
but it's usually just me making a big deal out of everything & fussing over them without actually fixing them up properly. yeah, nowhere near perfect actually.
i finished reading "feeling sorry for celia" & helped my sister clean up her room which was so messy because she doesn't clean it up every month but like every millenium.
we had omelette for dinner & watched "because i said so" [really not a good movie but it's alright; kind of boring tbh].
both sarah & i ran a bit. the end.

far out; what a long title.

anyway, today was the last day. sad.sad.sad.
but it didn't really feel like the last day because it was pretty ordinary, like any other day.
it wasn't special. it wasn't anything.
first assembly where mr khoury [dressed up in a dodgy santa costume] came on the john deere tractor & gave presents to whoever's name was called out from a draw. priceless. hahaha.
we had carol services first period, the songs were OK but the sermon was like 5 minutes because people who weren't Christian were there & we had to respect all religions or something.
then pe which was fun because we pretty much bludged & could do whatever we wanted. so we played basketball & one bounce [as in me, suren, emily, ceci, rachel & robyn] while margaret & joyce took photos randomly. :)
maths was alright but we weren't allowed to gatecrash 8K's party even though they crashed ours. it's because alder is mega strict 8) ok, not really. but he doesn't usually let us do much.
so we played a game.
& you would think it would be a fun game because it's the last day & all that but,,
NO, it's a lame maths game. i was bored. like really bored. but people fully got a kick out of it because they're true rusians.
alder wrote a table full of random numbers & then he wrote the rule "(first number) x (second number) + or - (third number) = (whatever number he chooses)". so he wrote a number & we had to find 3 numbers in a row [across, down, backward, forwards, diagonally] that resulted in the number he wrote.
ofc, i never got the answer because i wasn't even paying attention. but a whole bunch of people were enthusiastic & getting it like every time. ughh.
eng was even bludgier. mcfadyen didn't even turn up so, as a sub, we got chewer [ok, that's definitely NOT how you spell the name but it's not like i stalk his fb or anything so aka. the guy shaped like a pear that no one likes].
we watched this movie called "big fish"
which reminded me of the "big fish, little fish, box, box, push, push" dance thing that works to any song.
so me & suren were like "big fish, little fish, box, box, push, push" to the song from titanic, "my heart will go on". kind of lame but like you can expect any better ? seriously !
lunch, we had focus party, so we combined with the guys focus group & had a huge game of mafia while eating chips & sour worms. funn 8)
pssh but we only got through 1 game because celia was a really confused police/investigator, jess & angela [who were both civ] always looked like a mafia for some reason..
we had a period of science with khoury who got one of those word puzzles from the newspaper & wrote it on the board. there were 9 letters [3 by 3] & we had to make words [of more than 4 letters] from them. we had to find 27 of them.
& we also had to make a big word out of all 9 letters. we came up with 'gladiator' as the big word & then we came up tonnes of 4-letter ones. we missed quite a few but whatever; we're accomplished. :)

the last period was reports & everyone was hyperventilating.
i'm actually pretty pleased with my report, like not as bad as a i thought.
i'll run through the stuff i remember because i'm not sad enough to get my report from upstairs & record all the ranks here.

eng- 11/120 [i really don't know how i got that @___@]
math- 47/120
sci- 13/120 [dammit, i was aiming for top 10]
history- 33/120
geo- 11/30
tec- 87/120 [HAHAHA; like i expect any better]
va- 4/20
ag- 30/120 [? not sure, i think somewhere around there]
french- 9/30 [so proud of myself; i suck at french]
music- 28/120 [whatever]

oh my gosh, but it turns out.. i'm sad enough to remember my ranks anyway. #___#

after school, i went with sarah to watch new moon & everyone's watched it already. but she had orthodontist [across the road from castle towers] so i walked to the movies & met georgia [yr7] there.
so we uhhm PATIENTLY waited for sarah [ok, tbh, we were like complaining every 5 sec & calling her every 3 sec] hehe.
but then we were geniuses right, so we just told the ticket guy that an asian girl called sarah was coming so we went in first.
the previews hadn't finished anyway & i saw my mum & my sister on the other side of the cinema which was kind of funny.

but before the movie even started, georgia like killed her coke can by twisting the little uhhm, lid corkscrew thing & then i killed it even more by pulling it off. hahah so funny. so it ended up being me jabbing scissors into the metal but we got it in the end & georgia didn't die of thirst. :)

then sarah finally came after like the first scene where bella was a grandma in her mirror which i got kind of confused at but then i got it because i remember reading the book.
yeah so somewhere in the middle, sarah & georgia kept arguing about whether jacob & bella were going to kiss.
& whenever they came near to kissing [which was like 5 times], sarah was like "omg, omg, they're going to kiss"
& georgia was like "no, they don't, they don't"
sarah kept getting owned because they didn't kiss but came close to it a few times [like when the phone rang]. hehe sarah's so funny.
when edward was about to leave bella, bella was like "i'm coming"
& sarah fully jumped to it & practically yelled "that's what she said"
yeah. well, i was kind of slow but i got it before georgia !

ok, the actual movie wasn't that bad. but i'm not like a twilight junkie.

i just don't see why people are like "twilight sucks, it sucks, edward's gay, jacob's gay, bella's gay, they're all gay. they should all go die in their gayness & while they're gay they-,,blahblahblah-"
i mean, like i get so sick of it.
but i also get sick of people who go all "omgosh, did you see that split millisecond where jacob looked at bella, SO CUTE. team edward, team jacob. bella should die so i can have a chance with edward. i wish i was alice,,-blahblahblah-"

so yeah, my tiny rant over the fans & haters.

then sarah came over to my house to watch the rest of mean girls which she didn't watch for the whole year since my party. SHAMEFUL. hehe, dw, she finished it in the end & even started a bit of 'devil wears prada' while eating chicken & feta pizza [my favourite x3]
then she left.
then i went & threw out most of my books from this year so i could get more organised for next year & i cleaned up parts of my room.

then it hit me that it was end of yr8 but i still felt sort of empty.
what's wrong with me ?
it feels like i haven't had any proper emotion for like months now.

i'll probably do everything i can to improve myself [especially in the academic part] over the holidays & fail miserably.

like i'll make a list of new year resolutions when new year comes but most of it has something to do with me being more organised, prepared, less stressed, collected & less crazy .

sand was everywhere. salty water was everywhere.
i like looking at the ocean but not being knocked over by the waves every few seconds.
i was fully shivering & then we went into the lagoon which was so warm & calm & nice
& i was just enjoying it & sleeping on the board when it was my turn to paddle it.
catherine [who couldn't swim, suck xP] found some seaweed/algae thing & told emily that if she ate it, she could breathe underwater. hahahah; inspired by barbie fairytopia ofc :)
so emily kind of ate it, not sure, but i'm pretty sure she put it to her mouth. so gullible.
i hated. repeat. HATED the changerooms. it was like an indoor beach, there was sand & dirty water everywhere [even on the benches where we were supposed to put our clothes].
the showers like shot cold water at us so it stung our skin & there were no doors anywhere.
but everyone eventually came out alive & changed & a little less sandy or salty.
& then we all started complaining about the changerooms & showers.
ofc, we had to complain to the guys because they were especially ignorant of the TRIALS & SUFFERING we had to go through .

but it pretty much went like this.

us-oh my gosh, there was so much water & mould
guys- we didn't get change rooms, we had to change OUTSIDE
us- & the showers didn't have doors & our clothes kept falling so everything's wet
guys- WE didn't get change rooms
us- & there's sand everywhere, ew
guys- WE DIDN'T GET CHANGEROOMS

& it went on like for quite a while, haha sorry ? :)

i never began a post with the title beginning with the letter q so here it is :)
james was awake apparently ages before me & sarah so dad came to wake up sarah so james wouldn't be so bored.
but i was like 'meh' & just kind of tried to fall back asleep while not really.
then we had breakfast which was so big because usually, we don't eat that much for breakfast.
like we had prawns, oysters & auntie [james's mum] came to give us fried chicken.
so it was like massive. & during breakfast, sarah & james teamed up against me in chess but i still won despite mum giving me bad advice [that made me lose like 3 royals]. haha; love you, mum.
sarah, james & dad left for church earlier because sarah has choir & james wants to play at church with his friends.
as usual, mum & me left later because we take ages to get ready, plus we're slow so we don't really want to go church early for no good reason.
yeah & we went to church [it was bible sunday] & when i got there, nayomi & esther were like 'hi, mary' & i was like 'wtf, my name isn't mary,,'
but then it turned out that while i was at iscf houseparty & missed church, people were organising the skit/play for the church christmas celebrations & ofc nobody volunteered or wanted to be mary so naturally, i got dumped with it.
haha but i'm not complaining, i don't really care but seriously, that was really like "since when ? when did this happen ? why am i sudddenly Jesus's mother ?" like.
jdsn was interviewed & it was so sweet when he talked about his wife [junhee songseng; my teacher last year].
because they're going to korea next year & it was kind of like a half-goodbye interview/prayer.
after that, we went to bible study & daebii brought the time capsule [which was actually a container for storing food] & we're going to open in 4 years which is kind of a scary thought because, tbh, i don't want to be that old.
i wish i could just sort of stay in the present, where i am now but somehow, everything becomes the past. that sucks.
i just wrote a kind of simple corny note, saying not to give up no matter what & turn to God when things get tough. i also wrote about loving your family [bros & sisters in Christ included].
it got kind of late but we made it to the main room where everyone was & we practised 2 songs that we were going to do ["so you would come" & "Jesus Messiah"].
we went up to church to eat lunch, only i didn't eat because i don't really like the meals at church. i saw my grandparents & then my mum to ask if i could skip violin to practise the dance for hiphop dance for christmas celebrations.
then some of us went back to telopea public school [which is the main room the youth group uses] to practise the dance & rap.
maddie & me had to learn the dance off nayomi. we were so lost because neither of us were there last week. we're doing the dance to "You are good" & it's part of the skit so i have to change from the mary costume into white shirt & trackpants as soon as the song goes on. ughh, i'm too lazy for that =/
but we took a rest & ate ice blocks.
& i asked a kind of stupid question, . ok, i asked a really stupid question. i asked if ice blocks melt.
which, at the time, seemed like a reasonable thing to ask. because, honestly, how many people have seen blocks of ice melt that quickly ? sure, ice cream melts but that's because it's already kind of sloppy & messy. but ice blocks are fully, like, hard to bite on & they're frozen 8)
so, i asked it.
& everyone was like "omg, are you serious ?" as if i asked something as stupid as "do ice creams melt ?".
seriously, in my opinion, ice blocks & ice creams are vastly different, thank you very much.
one melts & the other doesn't. i'm positive.
yeah so we just kind of sat there, eating our non-meltable invincible ice blocks, & watched the rappers. which had all the guys & judy & joanne.
i'm not sure what the rap is because we didn't get to hear it but i think it's a parody for "run this town" by rihanna, kanye west & jayZ. they were trying to be all gangsta & everything & failed. but they were pretty funny to watch; their gangsta poses & hardcore hand movements were quite awesome.
but they ended up sitting in a circle & reading out the rap slowly so they could get the hang of it. because when they tried to do it altogether & people had to rap, everyone got confused.
while they were all being confused, me & maddie tried to run through the dance again & got even more confused than the rappers. @___@
anyway, that was church.
then we came home & dad was random again & said "let's go out for mocktails !" :)
at dinner, we watched this korean movie [can't remember the name; something like "crazy something"] about this guy who likes a girl in high school but she gets cancer & dies. & then it goes back to the future where he's engaged to someone like 10yrs younger who was the little girl delivering the love notes between the guy & the girl. which is a bit pedo-ish but i guess age difference is better when you're older ? still, 10 yrs is kind of a lot.
haha anyway, so after dinner, we went to this restaurant/bar in baulkham hills but it was too loud & mum had a migraine so we left.
then we went to a bar in a hotel in norwest [like near the sydney ice arena] but they said we had to drink/eat outside the bar because me & sarah are under 18 yrs. but the chairs outside the bar didn't have tables so we left again.
we just kind of went on a drive, looking at the christmas lights on people's houses.
then when we came home, sarah made us all mocktails by mixing pineapple & apple juice together. she even put a cherry & grape on the side of the cup. it was so nice. probably better than if we had gone out for it. i even took photos of them, haha.
so it was a good night anyway. i had to pack for the beach [deewhy/long reef] tomorrow.

went to castle towers with mum & dad. bought a valleygirl diary, a pretty but professional looking 2010 diary and kind of went like everywhere i think.
we picked sarah up from college & went to morning glory at castle mall to buy 2 gift packages [one was $10 & the other $15]
sarah wanted viet food [la coloniel] as usual but i got so sick of it that i practically begged her to eat at GPK & in return, i owe her a week of slavery. as in, i have to be her slave until next saturday.
it was so annoying when we were there, because she kept going "hold your tongue, let go, hold your tongue, let go. pick this up. don't eat yet. eat. don't eat. eat".
& i know i'm not supposed to return her immaturity but i couldn't help it & tried arguing myself out of slavery. i mean, slavery's illegal, right ? it's morally indecent for me to be my little sister's slave.
so we got home & we both pretty much forgot about the deal. i wanted to watch 'miss gold digger' [korean movie] & sarah wanted to watch anything else but what i wanted. in the end, dad chose 'the bucket list' which is about 2 old men who are about to die who make this list of crazy things they want to do before they die [which is in like 6-12 months]. we only watched halfway until we all got bored of it & ditched it.
for dinner, we had a christmas party with church gooyok [haha pretty sure that's not how you spell it but whatever] people & we just watched TV [the first time i watched the show, WIPEOUT].
it was kind of funny in a totally lame & unfunny way. basically, people just try to do this water obstacle course & fall over, get bashed up, slip & embarrass themselves to try & win $50,000. there was this guy & he was fully like "i'm doing this for my son, maximus to show him never to give up...the tough gets going...", & ofc he failed & gave up which would've been WAY embarrassing for him & his son.
the whole time, lisa kept confusing people by saying she was school captain & then saying she wasn't. [even though we're not all entirely sure, i'm pretty sure she's 1 of the 6 school captains for jasper road ps]. congrats lisa x3
we had lots of great food & we all watched jason & ian play chess while we ate cherries & watermelon. ian won while grace [his sister] tried to help both of them at the same time.
it was time for presents so esther's dad dressed up as santa & april dressed as santa's little helper/elf/whatever you call it. & they just gave presents out to everyone.
when it was time for the parents to give the kids presents, my auntie couldn't make it but james came anyway.
james [my cousin] got so pissed when he got 3 science encyclopedias & was fully like "this is a nightmare". such a drama queen. haha but a funny one.
then ashley, april & sarah [basically sarah & her friends] made people zombies by making us close our eyes & count to twenty. then they'd shake our arms & make us count to 10. then they'd shake our arms & make us count to 5. & they did this like 20, 10, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. after that you had to keep saying "come to my grave & kill me" repetitively. your arms automatically go up slowly like a zombie. & it worked ! try it ;)
james didn't want to go back home so he slept over at our house. sarah & him played chess while i ignored both of them & read "feeling sorry for celia" by jaclyn moriarty. it's pretty good but i think i like "finding cassie crazy better". & ofc, i like sarah dessen's books better.
yeah so i had to clean up my room so sarah could sleep with me because james had to sleep in sarah's room even though he kept complaining. such a hyperactive kid. but personally, i think he's just scared of the dark so he kept taking any excuse to come in. anyway, he settled down eventually.
pretty good day .
:)

yesterday; we went to the bandalism concert [yeah, they'd only be learning for like 2 terms so they pretty much sucked but they were alright]
& guitar people [us] did nothing except watch & try not to laugh, hehe x3
because everyone else can't laugh at us failing guitar since they don't get to listen to us paly.
we practised 'fabulous' at recess because mr wong screamed at us at music.
cbb to rant about it.
but he kept going on about how he was 'not pleased at all, blahblahblah. you were bludging when you KNEW what you were supposed to do. see me all at lunch. i'll be taking the roll then. you had 4 WEEKS to practise & you did nothing. blahblahblah. i can't do anything about 8K but i'll own 8A. blahblahblah'.
yeah so all the girls got together [while angela came along to be the audience] & we worked out the fail singing & choreo for like the first verse & chorus.
then we did it at lunch, major embarrassment. a few frontlawn girls & yr7s [thanks jayne & brendan] came to watch when it was clearly going to scar them for life.
but we got off because the guys [who were supposed to sing 'bet on it'] hummed tunelessly to it & even shouted when they weren't supposed to sing anyway [tang]. :) hahaha ty, for making us look good.
after school, i had no life so i trailed mum to strathfield for her dentist appointment. we dropped sarah off at pre-uni/cs education & it took us like 45 min to get to strathfield.
i was so bored. there wasn't even anyone interesting to talk to.
there was a girl about 10 who was carrying a baby & like taking care of it & all that. [her mum came out & only paid attention to the baby instead of the girl; maybe it's her stepmum?]
then there was a caucasian dude [like maybe 30 yrs?] who looked really uncomfortable in a fully asian dentist place.
so i ended up reading. & not even a magazine. a book. a real book. @___@ finding cassie crazy.
mum came out after about half an hour & we roamed around doing nothing, we considered going into like a billion shops & a restaurant ["beauty & the beast"] but we just cbb.
then we came home.
that's the most interesting thing that happened. wonderful. really.
i went to my mum's dentist appointment.
crazy.
ohh & we got hungry jacks on the way home.
the first time i had the whopper instead of the junior whopper. but after the burger, i was so full. i think i should just stick with the junior one, it's smaller.
but i reckon i just get full really easily.
i don't remember anything else. ohh except when i made a fully blown list of everything exciting i was going to do in the holidays [& stuff i wanted mum to do for me ofc.]
tbh, none of them are that exciting & there are only like 5 stuff but meh, good enough ;)

#1 shopping [like for everything]
#2 clean up everything for next year
#3 hairdressers, desperately
#4 watch a billion movies & get fat with tonnes of food
#5 try & not die of boredom

i'll probably do everything except #5 x3

alright, because i get so caught up in talking about every tiny thing that happened in my day [& i usually leave out details anyway],
i need to make a list of 10 things to rant about.
a LOT of people rant in their blogs &, personally, i think they do it too much so i thought i'd leave it up to them but then i thought of myself in like a billion years [aka, when i'm like 20 or 30 or something] & i wonder "what the hell pissed me off ? & why was i such an annoying kid with no problems ?".
so yeah, to avoid me thinking that, i'm going to make a list of 10 things.
even though i probably won't come up with 10 & i'll probably get offtrack by the time i reach #3 or something, i'll try to rant hehe :).

okaaaaaay.
10 THINGS THAT ANNOY/IRRITATE/INFURIATE/EXASPERATE/AGGRAVATE/
UPSET/BOTHER/ANGER/FRUSTRATE/DISPLEASE/PROVOKE/
INCENSE/NARK/CRAZILY DRIVE ME CRAZY

[& yeah, i didn't think up all those words, i looked it up on the online thesaurus to make the title more interesting than '10 THINGS THAT PISS ME OFF'. which, now, that i think about it, would make a WAY more simpler title,,]

#1 - annoyingly pro people with big egos or annoyingly unpro people with bigger egos [yeah, big egos in general]
#2 - public bathrooms/showers
#3 - hypocrites [even though i am one]
#4 - agriculture; & everything about it
#5 - dickheads, fakes, ignorant retards, boring people & sluts [haha self explanatory]
#6 - people who make a big deal out of almost everything [yeah, i'm a hypocrite]
#7 - so-corny-that-it-hurts movie endings
#8 - when i spend like 3 days on something [yeah like a certain essay] & i accidentally delete it
#9 - when i can't finish something i say i'll start [like this list for instance]
#10 - anything that sucks pretty much & i haven't covered :)

when me & catherine argued about whether 'x3' was a face/smilie or a heart, i was convinced it was a smilie.
& i still am, btw, but since i'm lazy & it's convenient, i'll use it as a heart.
so yeah, loved todaaay.
8L & 8T ditched us & went to deewhy beach while we were stuck & waiting to go for next monday.
i thought it would be a crap day since it's thursday b & thursday b's pretty much suck tbh.
i'm like dying for holidays to come, so uhhm let's see :)
first 2 periods of ag were beyond gay, like we went down to the farm while pronger showed us hay baling machines & it was so hot.
then we had to walk through the fields which had long itchy grass which was fine for the guys who had trousers but for us, i mean we were wearing dresses ! so they were laughing at us while we were dying from itchiness, heat & the effort in not trying to step in cow/sheep poo.
yeah so after we had scripture where phil kind of didn't turn up so we joined the non-scripture people in the library & did nothing but read WHO mags ;D
maths & french was all like, blahblahblah. i mean, we watched 'mr bean's holiday' in FRENCH & we made a list of 'top movies' & planned a party for tomorrow in maths x]]
omg, lunch was so fun. we ditched everyone else, suren, ceci, emily & me went down to "the edge of society" which happens to be the road down to the farm [down the hill].
& we took tonnes of self timers, most of which were fail. we did photos on the wall, suren climbed a tree & couldn't get down, sex & the city poses & then our self timer hsm one failed so we had to get robyn to take it for us :). ty robyn !
but we saw george in yr7 & we were about to ask him to take a photo for us like & I QUOTE >:)

suren & ceci: "george, please please please take a photo for us ?"
me/emily [can't remember who]: "oh no ye-ye-yes, omgosh, i got the self timer to work !"
-now since nobody needs george to take the photo-
suren: "bye bye, you can go suck your own dick :)"
ceci: "seriously like,, take a hint, f*** off"

hahaha, it sounds so mean but i swear it was funny at the time. & poor george was so confused.
will upload the pics once suren does because it's her camera.
we watched this retarded satirical video in history which was kind of funny but what-the-crappishable [monty python]
double eng was like bludge, me & suren stocked up on like 5 books for the holidays. & now sarah is reading "finding cassie crazy" which was something i read before but i wanted to borrow it again x3

we watched a tiny bit of "barbie & the island princess" [one of the movies we borrowed]
gosh i'm obsessed with barbie movies, & yeah, everyone finds me embarrassing but that's beside the point x]] hehe
i ran & watched rainbow romance at the same time but i watched more than i run
& dad just came back from orange with a box of cherries ;D
so now i've given up & sarah is running on the treadmill instead of me.
the end.

yesterday [which happened to be the only normal day where we weren't all wasted after camp was tuesday].
tbh , i don't remember what happened.
school was blah as usual. no, scratch that. it was pretty good.
we did secret santa in focus but i forgot to bring a prezzie for michelle so suren gave me some of her present [which was supposed to be ceci's] to me so i could give it to michelle. ty suren x3
but then i was like 'thank youu' & she was like 'whatever, ceci's loss'
psssh haha, so typical.
yeah but it was really great because michelle [one of our focus leaders] printed out the focus sheets in COLOUR about how media & music is so against Christianity.
so me & angela talked a little about it but we got kind of distracted so we went to join ceci, suren, celia & michelle. but as soon as we sat down & they started eating my pretzels, jess & catherine called me to talk about jess changing classes from A to L. & then after school, we went to mckenzie to talk about it & i think it's kind of definite. idk ? =/
but i really like my class for next yr :)

ohh & today was the 'tsunami relief concert' & mufti day where whoever bothered performed basically x]]

i only remembered the yr7 singing group who sang 'how to save a life' by the fray, the yr10 dance group, chi-wai's multitasking ~playing the guitar, singing & drums at the same time, amelia's contemporary ballet & dev's awesome michael jackson song ,
he was like seriously the highlight, i swear & he's only yr7 @____@
but he was fully mj obsessed
& at the end he was like 'long live the king of pop, may his legacy live on forever'

ohh & veejay's [ruse guy who graduated in 'o8] played with his band 'road to canaan' like they played at houseparty. the drummer guy was crazy, like you couldn't even see his drumsticks. it was pretty cool & he let us stand up on the chairs which was just about the best bit.
but then the prefects [yeah like jack & edward] kept calling the band 'road to cay-naarn' & we were like secretly 'it's CANAAN'
ugh, get a hint hahah, just kidding but it was kind of annoying.

afterwards, me & emily ran to 7/11 to get slushi/slurpies, the whole time screaming 'if chris doesn't hold the bus up for us, he is one dumped boy'
haha & ofc we almost missed it [come on, i was running in heels =/ but emily was running in converse] but emily didn't dump chris because we were full of slushi sugar haha :)
then at home, sarah watched the parts of 'THE JOY LUCK CLUB' she'd missed the day before.
when we were eating & sarah was at college, mum & i watched "because i said so" which has mandy moore in it. it wasn't SUCH a good movie but i guess it was alright.

when sarah came home, she got fully angry at mum & me. i don't remember why but she was pissed at me because i lost her place in "THE JOY LUCK CLUB". stupid arguement, i know. & she got mad at mum for some other reason.

so sarah was hiding in her pouting place, the space between the sofa & huge flower pot, & crying because she was mad at mum. so i put on the dvd to make her come out which she did in like 2 seconds. she eventually got over whatever she was mad at.

then i ran a bit & watched 'bring it on: in it to win it' which ranks like 2nd on my 'list of worst ever made movies' list but i watched it anyways.
the only good part was when the goth goes '...mutant turtles gnawing on human flesh. oh, they ate the unicorn'

hahahah, okay i'll stop ;)

omgosh, watched joy luck club ;
not as sad as mum said it would be but such a good movie .
like the part where the girl smashes the glass pearls at the funeral, when the mother leaves her twins on the side of the rode with her jewels & note & everything & the happy ending at the end are the saddest scenes.

when she's like 'i'm here instead of mom' or something at end, it made me cry for no reason. & the rape part was depressinger. now i have a sudden urge to commentate on every scene of the movie. i make no sense . but yeah, i loved it.

far out, i will never disrespect or laugh at random little asian mums with funny accents ever again even though it's like a lifetime hobby.

ohh & EFF, the main girl [without the mother] is the voice for mulan;
i'm amazed. @_____@
i'm too easily impressed but still, that's pretty interesting.
ohh & i also rant like everyday how asians are never pretty/hot in caucasian movies [e.g. mao's last dancer, shanghai kiss, sunny from neighbours & the asian girl in glee].
they have talent yeah, but still, so ugly.


but afterwards i fully gave my mum a bookmark tag thing & i kind of imitated the movie like 'with this, carries all my good intentions' & she was like 'wtf; go away' but still laughing.

list of top movies so far
joy luck club, [all depressing but meaningful stories & morals & whatever] cried twice when it wasn't even sad.
titanic [not so much but whatever; btw rose should've died, not jack. we all loved jack],
herb, [so sad, but sweet in a retarded way, cried like ten billion times]
forest gump, [good at the time]
curious case of benjamin button, [tad confusing but i still like it]
hitch, [best romantic comedy]
august rush, [i think i just like the music]
500 days of summer, [sweet]
maybe even princess bride even though it sucks. [so funny even when they're serious]

list of worst movies
romeo & juliet [1996; the one with leonardo dicaprio in it,] gayest movie ever.
seriously, even the 1968 made it look craap.



when someone judges you & you didn't even know they were ? i'm a little too chicken to say what it was but it hurt but i'm slowly learning to not care what other people think of me. yeahhhhh, how hardcore is that ? ;)
'i don't care what anyone thinks of me, it's me. take it or leave it'
yeah um, i doubt i'll ever say that but i'm still trying.
everyone watched titanic on saturday night when we were at houseparty.

i'll make a 'diary' entry after dinner for yesterday & today .

i don't care anymore what people think of me. i won't care anymore what people think of me. i just can't anymore.

i want to stop listing everything special that happens & making it stop being special. i want to live in the moment. i want to be someone that tells the truth. i want to be someone who is sick of lying to themself. i want to shout what God's done for the world. i want to save someone. i want to stop worrying.

because a lifetime is nothing compared to eternity.

why should i care what happens everyday or why should i cover myself with lies to make me feel better & why should i hold back & just not care about anyone ?

i want to do something. God should hate me. i adore his creations. i totally reject him. ii think that my family & friends' opinions matter more than the God who created them.

the thoughts i have are sometimes so dark that it hurts me to think them. i hurt God. i hurt others. i hurt myself. i can't seem to stop. i just add to everything that's wrong with the world. i should hate myself but, instead, i love myself. i'm selfish & i love God's gifts but i even forget they're his & i'm his.

i feel crazily exposed because i just realised that everything i think and do, God sees. my creator sees.
he sees when i cringe away from telling someone what i think.
he sees when i fall & pretend i never did.
he sees when i reject & hate others- my own brothers & sisters around me.
he sees when i hate him even though i can't even see it in myself.

i want to, not just say, but do. act. & i say this all the time but i really need to do something now. i might just be gabbling on again; i might not understand what i'm saying. & i might be telling the truth. i need to believe & stop worrying about a tiny scrap of time called life & look at eternity.

God made me. God made eternity. God made me see this. God made everything i worship more than him. i need to stop editing my thoughts and words & ask God to use me to speak truthfully.

i have to stop lying to myself about everything. like everything everything. i have to see through all the crap in the media & in others. the world is more messed up than anyone knows. the thoughts i have that maybe i really don't trust in GOd, people scream out loud & are proud of themselves for it. some people worship themselves. everything about 'believing in ourselves' & 'needing others to love you' are the diguises for selfishness & neediness.

only God knows. it's so hard for us to even tell the truth to ourselves. especially me. it's so hard for us to see the fault in ourselves. God knew who we were going to be, how we were going to act, what we were going to go through, before he even created the world. his plan was that big. his plan wasn't an impromptu thing just because God was bored. God will judge us for everything that's ever happened in us. the secrets nobody else knows will be flooded out in front of him.

the truth is that i deserve worse than hell. literally. i don't even deserve hell. i can't even believe that i respected & thought about what the world thought about me. i can't believe that i was that blind & stupid. & subconciously, maybe i even thought God could forgive me simply because he was God & God is merciful or i was okay enough to be forgiven. but God is angry at me.
he hates my sin. he hates my thoughts. he hates my words. he hates my actions. he loves me.
& if you take all that away, i might be absolutely nothing.
but he loves me. he died for me. he created me. i was bought for the highest price- God's own blood. the blood that should be mine. so i am valuable.

i look at the people around me & laugh at them when they say this but don't follow it. they think they are special because they know something exclusive & are trusted by someone. they think they are special because they have a talent. they think they are special because they have something no one else does. & then i realise i'm exactly like the people around me; everyone in the world.

what God did for me doesn't even begin to cover it. he made me special. i can't cover it. i'm human. but i know i'm saved. 100%. without a doubt. no arguement. period. end of story. i am GOD's. i'm a Christian.

much too scared to watch passion of the Christ so i'll stick with video clips ; i think i'm chicken, i admit it yeah.



hahaha like minutes before i go to houseparty so i'll say more later
but today, we harvested our vegetables
sarah to mum -financially well; NOT RICH :S

more later.
cbb now.
even though i'm probably the most loserish person i know, i'm not loserish enough to fully blog about everything that happened at RAP camp so i'll sum it up later,

it's like just before camp now & i'm chewing extra [for kids] gum which makes fantastic bubble gum btw;

;) RAP CAMP

just came back from school; ok not just but i was just sort of going on random sites for the past 20mins so i think that counts.
i just realised i lie a lot but not the type of lie that matters, like tonnes & tonnes of white lies. do white lies add up to real ones ? @____@
we took a few luvos at school at double bludge period for pe & we were just cheering on the yr7s & i tried to drink my soy drink [ughh why did i buy a whole pack ?] & lotte waffles.
there were some yr7 groups who were pro & pretty much won every game & others that just plain sucked; no offence :)
anyways, we won overall so it's good.
mckenzie called us in for a grade meeting at the end of the day [period 7] & rambled on about grade sport [we had to fill in a form to tick which sport we wanted to do] & camp [which is tomorrow].
we heard the yr7s cheer somewhere in the middle which meant ruse beat cumbo for gala day like 6 yrs in a row now so naturally, the yr8s all cheered too.
i reckon today was a pretty good day. i chose netball ofc but i'm probably not going to get in, i haven't played it out of school for like 2 yrs & also because everyone chose it.
whatever, i'm going to have to settle for rec sport x]]
omgosh it's camp tomorrow. i think everyone was all excited & already packed but i cbb now. like sarah was talking about bringing a dvd player [portable] & spare batteries;
but it's only 1 night so i'm looking forward to iscf houseparty way more which is straight after camp;
jeez, 5 STRAIGHT DAYS OF CAMP 8) but i'm looking forward to it even though i'm going to be dead after.
i can't log in to my email which means i won't be able to send around emails to yr8 at church [our hw is to send emails to everyone in yr8 bible study group each week]. i think some of us are giving up.
anyways, CAMP tomorrow so friday will be the only day i go to school & i'll go to iscf houseparty at camp kedron like at friday evening.
happpppy :)

at dinner, we went out yet to ANOTHER viet restaurant ; this time at like parramatta i think ? :S i don't remember the name but we all had the usual except mum who didn't eat [sarah- beef soup/noodles, me-crispy chicken & tomato rice & dad had these rice paper rolls @____@]
i just finished packing for camp & remembered my socks but i'll probably forget about them & not have socks at camp.
i think i packed a little too much. haha x3

it's so hard to be all nostalgic over this year because so much has happened to be nostalgic about.
so i when i want to remember more about 'o9 i'll just stalk everyone else's blogs.
but it's a fresh new decade so my biggest new year resolution is to have fresh new start.
i mean, a lot, & i mean a LOT of great, fun & amazing things have happened over the year but there's also been a few ups & downs & yeah, in-between crap.
so, i just want to start anew with no past judgements/grudges/whatever.
i hear the fireworks starting already but i'm at home [not at a korean hotel like in 'o8] & i still love it.
last year, i prayed that 'o9 would be fufilling & great & that i'd have a lot of great times.
more than what i asked for came true & i really want to give all i've done in the past year to God & just thank him for it.
if he can see my heart, then he can see my blog , :)
we went to manly beach today & it was so peaceful & beautiful. so much more than gary beach even though that was a tonne of fun. 8)
now outside this room, sarah, james & heesoo are watching 'mary poppins' & heesoo [who's 4, from korea & doesn't know eng] is asking sarah & james about it every 5 seconds.
i'm hoping to stay up till midnight & FULLY blog about everything i remember in 'o9 & wish for in '1o. so fingers crossed that i can keep awake till then.

x.

hahaha direct, factory, outlet ♥♥
yessss it's lame but it was fun.
but as soon as we got there, we hit the food court & by the time, we got to the actual shopping, well yeaah i wanted to go straight to every shop but then sarah said that she wanted to go to the bathroom so i had to PAINFULLY walk past every shop & ignore it until we reached the restrooms. torture much.
& then we looked around in a random cutlery shop because mum & grandma wanted to.
but it was fun all the same.
malcolm in the middle & james's house
heesoo reading her learning-korean book & me feeling accomplished because i had the korean vocab of at least over a 4yr old even though i'm 10yrs older [?], alice in wonderland, sashimi, sarah thinking potato was onion, heesoo & me building blocks, sarah on wii & COMPLETELY distracted, basketballbasketballbasketball, james throwing a tennis ball to china practically, james = dave7

love the beach :)
we stopped after like 1 & a half hours of driving on this amazing cliff place & we watched parachutes/hang gliders & i took 257074305704732875827658962 photos. haha :)
we finally got to go to the actual beach which was the nice warm type of beach with a heap of sand & blue waters with no grey sky & no rock pools.
it wasn't that crowded so mum, dad & heesoo's parents set up the chairs & umbrellas while me, sarah & heesoo ran on the sand & played.
grandma & grandpa came with a huge parasol, more chairs, sandwiches [the ONLY sandwiches i think are yuuum] & watermelon.
we just sat on deck chairs, me & sarah were dripping & covered in sand while heesoo was still playing in the sand at our feet.
for drinks, we had water, water, water, lemon, lime & bitters, water, water, coke, water, water. haha.
everyone ate, talked & laughed. a really fun time.

then we went to strathfield for dinner with heesoo's family. gam-ja tang [heesoo's dad's favourite], bosum [my favourite], soon-deh [it was chilli & soooo nice]. i forgot what the restaurant was called but it was the typical korean place with NIIICE food. we bumped into a few people from church eating there, they'd come back from church camp [miriam's family & hee-jin's family].
then we went to "hello happy" which was sarah's absolute favourite cake shop. she bought her usual strawberry start & i bought sweet potato cake even though i don't eat it. i just bought it because it was a minicake in the shape of a bear's head; so damn cuuuuute 8)
then heesoo's mum bought heesoo strawberry ice cream [her fave] from this place called "gelatissimo". me & sarah were amazed, like absolutely amazed, that there was a flavour called "popcorn ice cream". hehe. & there were pretty cakes & biscuits in the shape of ice creams.

such a great day. x3

just had dinner [sarah's beside me eating purple grapes]
so anyway, i want to dedicate this whole post to darling dinner.
dinner was so freaking niceeeeee ! it was at home but it was so so so delicious [maybe even better than the restaurants we've been to].
okay, sarah's pestering me to type up what we ate. ohh & she's laughing hysterically & DROPPED A GRAPE [good, she picked it up].
okay. well when we went out to eastwood, mum & me went to the fish shop to buy sashimi [we bought kingfish & salmon].
so we had that [with soy sauce & chilli sauce] but it was so gourmet with the lemon [which i bought with dad at woolworths] & everything.
mum cooked up udong which [as sarah says] is japanese noodles.
now she just screamed at me that udong sounds like dugong & everyone will think we're weird people who eat dugongs. yuck, she spit in my face.
anyways, back to the point.
so that was the japanese part of dinner.
now for the greek part. dad bought delicious red leicester cheese [yes, i was just loserish enough to look up the name on google] from woolworths & mum put jatz [yeah sorry, i put 'jets' before & sarah was just like "IT'S JATZ, IT'S JATZ; what're you doing?!?!?! IT'S JATZ!"] biscuits with it.
mum also put a massive sidedish of purple grapes.
me & sarah had yet another stupid arguement before dinner which involved her pegging a chess piece at my face & me threatening to whip her with her denim vest [it's $30 !!; $30 for a sleeveless half vest !!! but it's awesome ; according to sarah].
anyway, the point is that we wouldn't speak to each other so we didn't end up choosing a dvd to watch during dinner which MEANT that this dinner was special because there wasn't a tv blaring in the background & the food was full exotic/gourmet.
lalalala, sarah was crazy a few minutes ago but she's quiet,, wait, i think she's still kind of drunk now [once she saw this part, she started singing a weird drunk song]. & she's still singing now.
the end. hehe, shut up sarah.

sarah went to her friend, nicole's, house for the whole day so i could pretty much do anything i wanted.
haha which meant i did nothing. absolutely nothing. i read a little but i got so bored, because you know, i just happen to get bored of boring stuff.
at around 1, me, mum & dad went to eastwood & it was another great day. like i always feel so lucky when i go out with my family; hahaha lasting childhood memories; check!
we went to torin which is a sushi restaurant & it was really nice.
i had a sashimi set, mum had sushi+udong & dad had al-tung [korean spelling sucks].
dad was about to hedo-bab [again sucky koren spelling] but we had to share everything so apparently, as dad says, he made a 'sacrifice'.
it was yummy with the potato salad as a side dish & the chilli soup for the al-tung was so delicious.
we were going to go to the cafe but we were all full & it was crowded so we went to the korean grocery store & stocked up on everything [ingredients for noodles for sarah; momilgugsu].
mum bought her usual 호두 ice cream but she made me carry it because she said that it was embarrassing for a grown woman to walk around the streets eating ice cream. so funny, but we walked around & i threatened to eat it & pointed out that dad goes around eating rum&raisin ice cream & chocolate & everything. hehe.
we went to the fish shop to buy sashimi for dinner & it was fully empty but the decorations were cute like fishnets with plastic crabs, sharps & prawns caught in them.
we went back home & i fbed for like an hour. then me & dad went to woolworths & we bought so much stuff we didn't need [like lemon, lime & bitters, leicester red cheese, hand sanitiser ; hehe]. it was pretty fun grocery shopping because dad said the only way to make mum not ask him to go grocery shopping again was to buy everything we didn't need & mum didn't want.
but dad made me carry the heavy bags #_____# hehe but it was very fun 8)
when we got home, mum was out picking sarah up from nicole's house so we watched 'scent of a woman'. dad said it was a really good movie & the main actor was his favourite.
it was a fantastic movie but not like the best but it might go on my top movies list :)
the main character [colonel slade] was so awesome, like he kept yelling but he was kind of wise in a way. he acted really rich but he lived in like a cabin.
the other guy was pretty good too but fully like pale private school random.

church was fun, like all the kids joined the adult sermon so we just listened to the translations on the radio because we all suck at korean :)
then people graduated & I MEAN graduated; like from kindy to yr12
the kindies moved up to yu-nyon-bu [baaah, fail korean], yr3s moved up to cho-dong-bu [failER korean], yr6s move up to huk-seng-bu [omg, not even going to say anything] & yr12s either went up to chong-nyon-bu or adult service. whatever.
the kids were cute but the yr12s were all like wearing suits & so damn serious, hehe but that's ok.
after church, i skipped violin & we went to the koala wildlife park in castle hill with heesoo & her family. i stalked everyone with my camera [which is pink, gosh so high] & we fed kangaroos & acted like wannabe bindi-irwins, so lame but it was pretty fun.
mum didn't go but she went to castle towers for the sales but only ended up buying towels.
we went back home & just ate jjs, watched happily never after II with heesoo & went through ALL the videos & photos i took over the past few days.
it's so hard to keep a four yr old girl who can only speak korean entertained; i mean it was shockingly difficult to make her sit still or be quiet. but she was pretty funny.
for dinner, we went to milone's [across the road from baulkham hills stockland mall] for like 5 meals [all italian, i loveeee risotto] & creme brulee & chocolate cake. yummmm 8)
it was so nice but the creme brulee was like way too creamy but i guess that's kind of the point.
& heesoo didn't even get to start the chocolate cake [which was like fully huge & full of icing] because she was so busy eating the ice cream [which was only a side dish]. she was punished by her mum before so she was like crying but then got better after eating a few scoops of vanilla ice cream, haha.
i forgot to bring my camera but i borrowed their camera & took some anyway.
now me & sarah just ran [her, 2km & me, 3km].

i'll post pics up soon; mum, dad, sarah, auntie, james, heesoo's family & me went to darling harbour.
mum, auntie & heesoo's mum went to the boxing day sales while the rest of us roamed around the shopping centre.
sarah chose these dangly cross earrings for $6 in this amazing asian jewellry shop [i love jewellry shops] .



before that we stopped at a news agency for no particular reason & there were these name tag definition things that themed dinosaurs. e.g. i was gracerotops & apparently i have the nicest spikes in town ;)
there was like jamesosaurus & other pretty dinosaur names [uhh yeaaah,, pretty]
& we stopped by at a cafe to have drinks [fruit punch, iced tea, coffee, juice & lemon lime bitter which is dad's favourite, he had it last time].
somewhere along the way, we visited the british lolly shop & spanish doll shop (Y)
i kept stalking everyone with a camera & they all got annoyed at me, hehe :)
but like i said, i need to PRESERVE THE MEMORY. in otherwords, follow everyone around with a camera.



we met up with mum, auntie & heesoo's mum to have lunch in china town. it was so crowded but we managed to get a table & i was the only one who didn't have noodle soup,,yeaaaaaah, crispy chicken ftw x3 baah, i'm such a loser.
we let heesoo's family & auntie ride in the monorail & me, mum, dad, sarah & james walked to the centre of darling harbour. hahaha we still got there first.
so we waited for them. i started taking luvos with mum & sarah & james were watching this guy who juggles swords, has a whip & a toy koala/dog. he's always there everyday but he always says like "when i was in LA or america or france or blahblahblah" as if he's been to all those places.
i pointed this out & mum was just like "he's just a show off" very loudly & matter-of-factly.
we took MARIO HAT luvos all car trip back home.



we had barbeque for dinner & grandpa [he had eye surgery so he was wearing sunglasses the whole time], grandma, auntie, uncle, james, heesoo & her family all came.
we watched cinderella III to keep heesoo entertained but she got bored so we watched alvin & the chipmunks during dinner & james was explaining everything that was happening the whole time. he had to basically translate all the english into korean for heesoo because i suck at korean.
we just played games & ate cake :)
james & heesoo were playing a card game where you had to find 2 cards & match them together. james let heesoo win & was fully like "heesoo no-mo-jal-ha-neh!" & she was giggling the whole time,
hehe so naturally, me & sarah are planning their wedding despite the 5yr age difference & heesoo's still practically a baby.
auntie made heesoo call james 'mo-tchin song-jin obaah' ; so cuteeeeee 8)
but afterwards, we got kind of tired so we just ran a bit while watching click [which was MAJORLY BORING] @____@
we joined mum who was watching tv upstairs.
then mum flicked to a random channel on tv & it was a spanish movie with penelope cruz [her boyfriend tries to rape her daughter & he gets killed but then penelope like stashes away the body & crap]. we only watched 10 min of it & sarah got scared so we stopped watching; but i think foreign movies/dramas are WAY better than aussie ones. please; i mean bold & the beautiful ? =/ hahahah so funny.
damn, i loveee the city. ♥



everyone went on fb & managed to say merry christmas to EVERYONE; crazy people
heesoo & her family came from korea in the morning. she's grown so much since the last time i saw her in korea [she was 3 & we were staying at their house].
we'd seen her parents before in like 2004 when heesoo wasn't even born yet.
then again in 2007 where heesoo was like 2 & could barely talk.
then again at christmas last year [2008/2009] where she was 3.
we went to botanical gardens which was fun but then me & sarah got into this massive arguement that started with me saying that my feet hurt.
we just walked around & i took a billion photos around the harbour. we walked up & down the opera house & around the streets to look for something to eat but everything was either closed or too expensive.
we walked to mcdonalds because pretty much everything was closed for the public holiday & dad made me order the food.
but i was stupid & ordered everything as a meal so we ended up with a few burgers, chicken nuggets & a tonne tonne tonne of chips. mum & sarah both had chicken nuggets, dad & heesoo's dad both had big macs, heesoo's mum had a quarter pounder, heesoo just ate whatever & i had a fillet'o' fish [?] burger.
we didn't finish the chips ofc but we managed.
mum & dad went to get the 2 cars from the botanic gardens carpark so the rest of us waited in the lobby of the four seasons hotel. me & sarah argued like way more there & i ignored her & looked at the christmas ornaments set up. so pretty; like there was a whole village of gingerbread houses covered in white icing [snow].
on the car trip on the way home, heesoo's mum gave me a bracelet & sarah a diary with a treasure chest picture which can open up & there are coloured beads under the flap as treasure.

mum & dad came & we visited syndey uni [the uni my dad went to] for no particular reason & it looked like a castle. but there wasn't much to do EXCEPT think that it looked like a castle but dad pointed out where he used to do his exams & it hit me that people like SUFFER there.
then we visited ruse for no particular reason either & my dad was about to show everyone around & i was like "uhh no, i go here everyday, i don't need to know. spare me;" so i stayed in the car with mum & sarah & heesoo sleeping on my lap. they came back after a few minutes because there wasn't much to see.
for dinner watched the wild because it was pretty much the only korean kids movie i had & cinderella III [which wasn't korean but it was alright] to keep heesoo interested. ofc she got bored & we played with barbies & littlest pet shop [all sarah's toys, i swear]. :)







now the carols are on on dad's record player, the light is dim,
dad is showing photos of when he was young & talking about how he used to go carol singing when it was snowing in korea & how he had a crush on this girl who played mary in his church play & how HE played herod; haha, mum is talking to him while sitting up on the sofa & sarah is sitting there with a towel wrapped around her head. it just finally feels like Christmas.
i love my family.
dad has a choir solo for church & so now mum is trying to convince sarah to play it on the piano.
i'm going to go join in now, in Christmas with my family.
merry christmas, happy birthday Jesus ! :)

MIRACLE ON 34TH STREET; my first time watching it . it's sweet.

at lunch, sarah got this random craving to watch a sad movie so we turned to titanic.
i'm so sick of people dying while sad violin music plays & rich people get saved. i mean, like, it happens all the time. nah, jokes. it's a pretty good movie.
then we went to castle towers at 3-3:30 ish because the cleaners were coming to clean our house & we had to go out.
but mum just went to hcf & me & sarah were majorly bored so we just kind of went around diva but we didn't buy anything.
then we went to video ezy & the cheesecake shop .
from video ezy, we borrowed penelope, barbie diaries [omg such a bad movie, disgraces barbie hahaha], click, relative strangers, happily never after II & children of the silk road [mum's choice]. we bought zebra cake.
we went home & rested, i had some cake & we all watched penelope.
then for dinner [rice, egg, chilli squid], we watched barbie diaries which was, tbh, terrible.
i didn't run but sarah did & we were all trying to get into the christmas-eve spirit. :)

christmas carols on dad's record player, i was reading 'my big birkett', christmas tree lit up, sarah taking a shower from running 2km, dad rearranged the sofa chairs,
mum was enjoying the fan & she put it my way but then she was like "just until i get back". haha, that's so mum ;)
HEE SOO COMING FROM KOREA TOMORROW :)

i swear i was fully determined to hardcore study this holidays but nothing's happened; like i don't do anything all day & my parents aren't even forcing me.
good thing or bad ? :S

anyway, grandma & grandpa picked me & sarah up at 2:30 to take us to towers for christmas shopping. hehe we all went crazy, who knew shopping with grandparents could be that much fun ?
grandpa left because, i don't know, he usually doesn't join in whenever we do any outings.
so as soon as we got on the 2nd floor at towers, we saw a stand selling jewellry.
like the shop keeper was asian & she tried to speak korean but she wasn't korean. there were so many sets of necklaces & earrings.
i'd seen so much in korea last christmas so whenever i see jewellry, i'm less excited, like immune =/
but they were really pretty. sarah chose a stone/marble cross on string as a necklace.
i chose kind of the same only it was a pink/black heart with earrings on string & the second one i chose was a detailed flower on sterling silver chain set with earrings.
it was $10 for 3 sets so it was a good price, gosh i felt so asian thinking that.
but i swear that was only the first 10 min of it.
whenever we go shopping with mum, she usually judges/thinks really carefully before buying but grandpa bought whatever she wanted. she spent so much on us.
we went to valleygirl & sarah bought a $30 denim vest & i bought $15 shirt, we kept looking around still while grandma was at the counter.
then sarah just had to get hungry so we went to sushi world as always but i wasn't that hungry so i just stole half her water. :)
then we went to giordano's & the girl who worked there knew my grandma which was sort of strange but it's prob because she goes there a lot. grandpa turned up, probably because grandma hadn't answered his calls like 3 times.
i chose a grey-white striped singlet; but it took ages to try them on. it's not my fault, who knew i was size small ? :S
oh my gosh, then sarah got hungry AGAIN. so we went back to the food court & had chinese food teehee x3
this time i ate. sarah had a few springrolls, i had 4 currypuffs & grandma & grandpa both had cheeseburger meals from maccas. it just hit me that it's usually the other way around, like the kids are supposed to want burgers but the curry puffs were yummy.
grandpa was suddenly impulsive & was like "let's watch a movie!"
ofc, he meant like another day but i was naturally more impulsive, & i just assumed he meant like now.
so i raced off to the cinemas to check the times & avatar was on at 5:45 [half an hour later] so it was a pretty good time.
i didn't exactly want to watch avatar [not exactly the type of movie that interests me] but sarah had seen the previews & she was desperate, i swear, like even to the point of bribing me.
but then grandma called mum & dad to check if it was alright but dad said to watch it next week as a family & that we had to go out to eat so we couldn't. i'm definitely looking forward to watch it now because we NEVER watch movies as a family because dad has to work a lot but he's got 2 weeks of holidays when christmas starts.
so instead, we shopped. we went to uncle petes & bought 2 tiny figure plastic dogs which were so cute, me & sarah got one each. & grandma kept talking about how they had beautiful faces so she bought them for us. $5 each.
we got home & got ready for dinner. dad was watching a tampoline/basketball game called slamball. hahaha so funny, whoever invented had no life.
then we went to bonga in eastwood. we ate bosum & soondooboojighe;
me & sarah ran a little. it was funnnn day.

pathetic tv shows. swimming. massive fight over a paper hat. ned kelly's the reason. nothing ever makes sense.
end of story.

mum, sarah & i went to castle towers but we cbb to park so we parked at castle mall & walked to la colonial [omg, viet food again ㅠ____ㅠ]
it was nice though, like mum just shared off our plates, sarah had beef soup & i had crispy chicken & tomato rice. so normal.
we went in & tried to buy stuff but we go out to the shops way too much so we didn't have much to buy. i bought 3 pairs of diva earrings, 2 studs [x3] & 1 pair of hoops.
we went to pots avenue to buy a present for sarah's piano teacher & her tutor [danny]. they just bought sweet smelling scent diffusers which pretty much make the room smell like lavender & roses. it was like a jar of perfume with sticks in them which spread the scent.
i loved this scent called 'bamboo & white tea", sooo nice :)
so we bought 2 big ones for the piano teacher & tutor, & a small one for ourselves.
i was so tired afterwards; we went home & just hung out i think.
i was watching the last episode [47th ] of rainbow romance.
i always get sad when i get to the end of tv series or whatever, it makes me depressed that it's over but then again, i'm pretty stupid to think that these things last forever.

dad found this site where you have to write in 25 words or less which penelope cruz movie you like best & why. if you win, you get 2 tickets to spain. mum tried to write something but then gave up & bribed me to write it for her.
i was like laughing the whole time & trying to be serious but in the end, i just wrote random crap. like sahara was adventurous & mysterious -blahblahblah- TAKE ME WITH YOU TO SPAIN PENELOPE!!!
hahaha, mum was like 'uhhm, great job' but she was laughing then she submitted it but then regretted the last part a bit. x3
i just ran a bit more & watched the VERY last part of rainbow romance.

i don't think i'm that optimistic but i have a lot of happy things in my life i should be & am grateful for.
the christmas celebrations at church were today & it all went awesome, magical, pretty,, whatever, fill in the blanks.
we practised a bit for the hiphop dance,
& then put on the gold bands on our wrists, gold crown in our hair, gold lightening bolt thing on our trackpants & gold wings on our shoes. so much gold :)
we straightened our hair but i hate my hair out, it gets in the way like all the time.
so i tied it to the side very subtly [but i wasn't so good at being subtle so everyone figured it out]
i had to be mary at the same time so i just put a purplish cloth over & took it off when i had to dance.

so it's basically like this.

1st wise man comes & gives the gift of gold
-hiphop dance comes on-
2nd wise man gives gift of frankincense
-rap comes on- [so gangsta or wannabe gangsta 8)]
3rd wise man gives gift of myrrh
-everyone comes up & sings 'so you would come' & 'Jesus Messiah'-

the little kids were so cute when they did their dance/play/song; i have to find videos of them sometime.
but we were last to go on so as soon as we finished, the pastor got a cake & then everyone sang "noelle" & happy birthday for Jesus.

everyone [like the whole church, with adults & everyone] went down to eat.

yeah then a few people started teasing me because i dropped the babyborn doll [who was supposed to be Jesus] on stage & i almost lost the doll before. i'd be such a good mother, haha.
but the doll was kind of freaky, it has one pink eye & one purple eye [it totally has my eyes pssh :)].
it was christine's doll & lisa wrapped it up in a taekwondo shirt.

the barbeque after was funny,
my sister, james & lisa all shook my coke because they were being annoying
& then sarah shook it again..WHEN IT WAS OPEN ; so i was like half mad at her but half laughing because she spilt it all over herself.
she looked so confused and surprised & her face expression was hilarious.
then daebii started scaring everyone [especially the yr6 & yr5s] by going "when you get to high school, it's magical with magical creatures. there's spy code on this leaf; i'm actually a spy" & then he acted all drunk.
sarah, april & ashley just called insults.
then we started speculating on how similar ara & duri look [they're cousins] because they've got the same dirty look [haha grimace].
i tried to do it but then it didn't work out, & a bunch of people tried to do it but same result. the grimace must be genetic, @____@
we went to strathfield so that adorable cake shop "hello happy" because my sister [being the younger one] went all grumpy after church & said "I WANT A STRAWBERRY TART >("
& my mum & dad never want to disappoint so we drove out all the way to strathfield, bought a fruit tart for me & a strawberry one for sarah, bought a $30 wine to give to this really old caucasian doctor [someone my dad knows].
watched rainbow romance & i cbb to run so i just got bored & ate my fruit tart. x3

woke up, breakfast feasted on biscuits, ham, grapes & cheese.
sarah went to college [james an] & then we picked her up for yum cha
afterwards we went to eastwood to get an eye check up.
my eyes were pretty much the same because my growth is slowing down but sarah's got a little bit worse. so i just kept my glasses but contact lenses & sarah's getting new lenses into her old frames.
we went home & just kind of hung out, being bored, playing games :)
then dad picked us up, dropped mum & sarah off at a funeral/memorial service & dropped me off at church at 5 [because JD told us to meet early].
but most of the leaders were still in service so we just played mafia. so funny.
like the first game, i put my head up to ask a question & then saw the mafia accidentally hehe so i died.
then the second game, i was mafia & got out because of judy's awesome reason 8)
hehe apparently i was "chewing gum sussly"
so we practised the dance on the grass & then got bored so we stretched & took photos instead.
then jdsn & junhee came & we practised properly a little bit but then we all out kimbab [probably not spelt properly] & a few people had ramen. esther & christine were both too sick/tired to eat anything. esther can't eat seaweed & christine had a headache. not so sure.

we did a huge group practise & mum came to watch at around 8 because she came from the funeral.
we saw the kindergarten/preschool's skit & song, primary [years 1-3]'s dance, primary [years 4-6] song, primary [years 1-6] dance to 'joyful, joyful' & then the high school's skit, dance, rap & song.
i think that was all. but it was fun.

problem was that it was so distracting from work which is actually good for me, but i don't know, i need to catch up these holidays.

yeah so yr8 [church] went to watch paranormal activity at parramatta.
when we were eating lunch [me & esther had 4 springrolls each, the guys had like 10 plates each], celia & emily bumped into us.
then we went in at 1 & watched it.
it was pretty much like this.
joohwan wasn't scared at all, samuel was hiding behind joohwan most of the movie, jay & tommy were half scared, daebii was holding onto tommy's leg & esther & me were covering our eyes with our jackets. dammit, my jacket was see through #____#
anyway, it was like a home/horror video & it didn't get scary till the very end but still alright
like when katie was possessed by the demon, it was pretty freaky.
but most of it was quite dodgy. hahah & angela [i know this by facebook] thought that when katie through micah's body at the camera, she was throwing a pillow. LOL :)
but mostly, it was a pretty ok day. x]]

afterwards, i met them all again at church for christmas celebration practice.
we were all pretty confused [especially me because i started learning the dance last sunday & the rappers because they'd only started practising too]. it went pretty well though. so tired.

loved the morning. slept in & mum got us maccas for breakfast :)
but sarah had this major tantrum & kept yelling that she hated mum & me
but then everything was ok i guess.
i majorly cleaned up my room, stuffed up my diary with silver/gold marker & fixed it with bling & black permanent marker. :)
i love the feeling of getting everything i don't need chucked out & making everything neat & organised.
perfectionist; guilty.
but it's usually just me making a big deal out of everything & fussing over them without actually fixing them up properly. yeah, nowhere near perfect actually.
i finished reading "feeling sorry for celia" & helped my sister clean up her room which was so messy because she doesn't clean it up every month but like every millenium.
we had omelette for dinner & watched "because i said so" [really not a good movie but it's alright; kind of boring tbh].
both sarah & i ran a bit. the end.

far out; what a long title.

anyway, today was the last day. sad.sad.sad.
but it didn't really feel like the last day because it was pretty ordinary, like any other day.
it wasn't special. it wasn't anything.
first assembly where mr khoury [dressed up in a dodgy santa costume] came on the john deere tractor & gave presents to whoever's name was called out from a draw. priceless. hahaha.
we had carol services first period, the songs were OK but the sermon was like 5 minutes because people who weren't Christian were there & we had to respect all religions or something.
then pe which was fun because we pretty much bludged & could do whatever we wanted. so we played basketball & one bounce [as in me, suren, emily, ceci, rachel & robyn] while margaret & joyce took photos randomly. :)
maths was alright but we weren't allowed to gatecrash 8K's party even though they crashed ours. it's because alder is mega strict 8) ok, not really. but he doesn't usually let us do much.
so we played a game.
& you would think it would be a fun game because it's the last day & all that but,,
NO, it's a lame maths game. i was bored. like really bored. but people fully got a kick out of it because they're true rusians.
alder wrote a table full of random numbers & then he wrote the rule "(first number) x (second number) + or - (third number) = (whatever number he chooses)". so he wrote a number & we had to find 3 numbers in a row [across, down, backward, forwards, diagonally] that resulted in the number he wrote.
ofc, i never got the answer because i wasn't even paying attention. but a whole bunch of people were enthusiastic & getting it like every time. ughh.
eng was even bludgier. mcfadyen didn't even turn up so, as a sub, we got chewer [ok, that's definitely NOT how you spell the name but it's not like i stalk his fb or anything so aka. the guy shaped like a pear that no one likes].
we watched this movie called "big fish"
which reminded me of the "big fish, little fish, box, box, push, push" dance thing that works to any song.
so me & suren were like "big fish, little fish, box, box, push, push" to the song from titanic, "my heart will go on". kind of lame but like you can expect any better ? seriously !
lunch, we had focus party, so we combined with the guys focus group & had a huge game of mafia while eating chips & sour worms. funn 8)
pssh but we only got through 1 game because celia was a really confused police/investigator, jess & angela [who were both civ] always looked like a mafia for some reason..
we had a period of science with khoury who got one of those word puzzles from the newspaper & wrote it on the board. there were 9 letters [3 by 3] & we had to make words [of more than 4 letters] from them. we had to find 27 of them.
& we also had to make a big word out of all 9 letters. we came up with 'gladiator' as the big word & then we came up tonnes of 4-letter ones. we missed quite a few but whatever; we're accomplished. :)

the last period was reports & everyone was hyperventilating.
i'm actually pretty pleased with my report, like not as bad as a i thought.
i'll run through the stuff i remember because i'm not sad enough to get my report from upstairs & record all the ranks here.

eng- 11/120 [i really don't know how i got that @___@]
math- 47/120
sci- 13/120 [dammit, i was aiming for top 10]
history- 33/120
geo- 11/30
tec- 87/120 [HAHAHA; like i expect any better]
va- 4/20
ag- 30/120 [? not sure, i think somewhere around there]
french- 9/30 [so proud of myself; i suck at french]
music- 28/120 [whatever]

oh my gosh, but it turns out.. i'm sad enough to remember my ranks anyway. #___#

after school, i went with sarah to watch new moon & everyone's watched it already. but she had orthodontist [across the road from castle towers] so i walked to the movies & met georgia [yr7] there.
so we uhhm PATIENTLY waited for sarah [ok, tbh, we were like complaining every 5 sec & calling her every 3 sec] hehe.
but then we were geniuses right, so we just told the ticket guy that an asian girl called sarah was coming so we went in first.
the previews hadn't finished anyway & i saw my mum & my sister on the other side of the cinema which was kind of funny.

but before the movie even started, georgia like killed her coke can by twisting the little uhhm, lid corkscrew thing & then i killed it even more by pulling it off. hahah so funny. so it ended up being me jabbing scissors into the metal but we got it in the end & georgia didn't die of thirst. :)

then sarah finally came after like the first scene where bella was a grandma in her mirror which i got kind of confused at but then i got it because i remember reading the book.
yeah so somewhere in the middle, sarah & georgia kept arguing about whether jacob & bella were going to kiss.
& whenever they came near to kissing [which was like 5 times], sarah was like "omg, omg, they're going to kiss"
& georgia was like "no, they don't, they don't"
sarah kept getting owned because they didn't kiss but came close to it a few times [like when the phone rang]. hehe sarah's so funny.
when edward was about to leave bella, bella was like "i'm coming"
& sarah fully jumped to it & practically yelled "that's what she said"
yeah. well, i was kind of slow but i got it before georgia !

ok, the actual movie wasn't that bad. but i'm not like a twilight junkie.

i just don't see why people are like "twilight sucks, it sucks, edward's gay, jacob's gay, bella's gay, they're all gay. they should all go die in their gayness & while they're gay they-,,blahblahblah-"
i mean, like i get so sick of it.
but i also get sick of people who go all "omgosh, did you see that split millisecond where jacob looked at bella, SO CUTE. team edward, team jacob. bella should die so i can have a chance with edward. i wish i was alice,,-blahblahblah-"

so yeah, my tiny rant over the fans & haters.

then sarah came over to my house to watch the rest of mean girls which she didn't watch for the whole year since my party. SHAMEFUL. hehe, dw, she finished it in the end & even started a bit of 'devil wears prada' while eating chicken & feta pizza [my favourite x3]
then she left.
then i went & threw out most of my books from this year so i could get more organised for next year & i cleaned up parts of my room.

then it hit me that it was end of yr8 but i still felt sort of empty.
what's wrong with me ?
it feels like i haven't had any proper emotion for like months now.

i'll probably do everything i can to improve myself [especially in the academic part] over the holidays & fail miserably.

like i'll make a list of new year resolutions when new year comes but most of it has something to do with me being more organised, prepared, less stressed, collected & less crazy .

sand was everywhere. salty water was everywhere.
i like looking at the ocean but not being knocked over by the waves every few seconds.
i was fully shivering & then we went into the lagoon which was so warm & calm & nice
& i was just enjoying it & sleeping on the board when it was my turn to paddle it.
catherine [who couldn't swim, suck xP] found some seaweed/algae thing & told emily that if she ate it, she could breathe underwater. hahahah; inspired by barbie fairytopia ofc :)
so emily kind of ate it, not sure, but i'm pretty sure she put it to her mouth. so gullible.
i hated. repeat. HATED the changerooms. it was like an indoor beach, there was sand & dirty water everywhere [even on the benches where we were supposed to put our clothes].
the showers like shot cold water at us so it stung our skin & there were no doors anywhere.
but everyone eventually came out alive & changed & a little less sandy or salty.
& then we all started complaining about the changerooms & showers.
ofc, we had to complain to the guys because they were especially ignorant of the TRIALS & SUFFERING we had to go through .

but it pretty much went like this.

us-oh my gosh, there was so much water & mould
guys- we didn't get change rooms, we had to change OUTSIDE
us- & the showers didn't have doors & our clothes kept falling so everything's wet
guys- WE didn't get change rooms
us- & there's sand everywhere, ew
guys- WE DIDN'T GET CHANGEROOMS

& it went on like for quite a while, haha sorry ? :)

i never began a post with the title beginning with the letter q so here it is :)
james was awake apparently ages before me & sarah so dad came to wake up sarah so james wouldn't be so bored.
but i was like 'meh' & just kind of tried to fall back asleep while not really.
then we had breakfast which was so big because usually, we don't eat that much for breakfast.
like we had prawns, oysters & auntie [james's mum] came to give us fried chicken.
so it was like massive. & during breakfast, sarah & james teamed up against me in chess but i still won despite mum giving me bad advice [that made me lose like 3 royals]. haha; love you, mum.
sarah, james & dad left for church earlier because sarah has choir & james wants to play at church with his friends.
as usual, mum & me left later because we take ages to get ready, plus we're slow so we don't really want to go church early for no good reason.
yeah & we went to church [it was bible sunday] & when i got there, nayomi & esther were like 'hi, mary' & i was like 'wtf, my name isn't mary,,'
but then it turned out that while i was at iscf houseparty & missed church, people were organising the skit/play for the church christmas celebrations & ofc nobody volunteered or wanted to be mary so naturally, i got dumped with it.
haha but i'm not complaining, i don't really care but seriously, that was really like "since when ? when did this happen ? why am i sudddenly Jesus's mother ?" like.
jdsn was interviewed & it was so sweet when he talked about his wife [junhee songseng; my teacher last year].
because they're going to korea next year & it was kind of like a half-goodbye interview/prayer.
after that, we went to bible study & daebii brought the time capsule [which was actually a container for storing food] & we're going to open in 4 years which is kind of a scary thought because, tbh, i don't want to be that old.
i wish i could just sort of stay in the present, where i am now but somehow, everything becomes the past. that sucks.
i just wrote a kind of simple corny note, saying not to give up no matter what & turn to God when things get tough. i also wrote about loving your family [bros & sisters in Christ included].
it got kind of late but we made it to the main room where everyone was & we practised 2 songs that we were going to do ["so you would come" & "Jesus Messiah"].
we went up to church to eat lunch, only i didn't eat because i don't really like the meals at church. i saw my grandparents & then my mum to ask if i could skip violin to practise the dance for hiphop dance for christmas celebrations.
then some of us went back to telopea public school [which is the main room the youth group uses] to practise the dance & rap.
maddie & me had to learn the dance off nayomi. we were so lost because neither of us were there last week. we're doing the dance to "You are good" & it's part of the skit so i have to change from the mary costume into white shirt & trackpants as soon as the song goes on. ughh, i'm too lazy for that =/
but we took a rest & ate ice blocks.
& i asked a kind of stupid question, . ok, i asked a really stupid question. i asked if ice blocks melt.
which, at the time, seemed like a reasonable thing to ask. because, honestly, how many people have seen blocks of ice melt that quickly ? sure, ice cream melts but that's because it's already kind of sloppy & messy. but ice blocks are fully, like, hard to bite on & they're frozen 8)
so, i asked it.
& everyone was like "omg, are you serious ?" as if i asked something as stupid as "do ice creams melt ?".
seriously, in my opinion, ice blocks & ice creams are vastly different, thank you very much.
one melts & the other doesn't. i'm positive.
yeah so we just kind of sat there, eating our non-meltable invincible ice blocks, & watched the rappers. which had all the guys & judy & joanne.
i'm not sure what the rap is because we didn't get to hear it but i think it's a parody for "run this town" by rihanna, kanye west & jayZ. they were trying to be all gangsta & everything & failed. but they were pretty funny to watch; their gangsta poses & hardcore hand movements were quite awesome.
but they ended up sitting in a circle & reading out the rap slowly so they could get the hang of it. because when they tried to do it altogether & people had to rap, everyone got confused.
while they were all being confused, me & maddie tried to run through the dance again & got even more confused than the rappers. @___@
anyway, that was church.
then we came home & dad was random again & said "let's go out for mocktails !" :)
at dinner, we watched this korean movie [can't remember the name; something like "crazy something"] about this guy who likes a girl in high school but she gets cancer & dies. & then it goes back to the future where he's engaged to someone like 10yrs younger who was the little girl delivering the love notes between the guy & the girl. which is a bit pedo-ish but i guess age difference is better when you're older ? still, 10 yrs is kind of a lot.
haha anyway, so after dinner, we went to this restaurant/bar in baulkham hills but it was too loud & mum had a migraine so we left.
then we went to a bar in a hotel in norwest [like near the sydney ice arena] but they said we had to drink/eat outside the bar because me & sarah are under 18 yrs. but the chairs outside the bar didn't have tables so we left again.
we just kind of went on a drive, looking at the christmas lights on people's houses.
then when we came home, sarah made us all mocktails by mixing pineapple & apple juice together. she even put a cherry & grape on the side of the cup. it was so nice. probably better than if we had gone out for it. i even took photos of them, haha.
so it was a good night anyway. i had to pack for the beach [deewhy/long reef] tomorrow.

went to castle towers with mum & dad. bought a valleygirl diary, a pretty but professional looking 2010 diary and kind of went like everywhere i think.
we picked sarah up from college & went to morning glory at castle mall to buy 2 gift packages [one was $10 & the other $15]
sarah wanted viet food [la coloniel] as usual but i got so sick of it that i practically begged her to eat at GPK & in return, i owe her a week of slavery. as in, i have to be her slave until next saturday.
it was so annoying when we were there, because she kept going "hold your tongue, let go, hold your tongue, let go. pick this up. don't eat yet. eat. don't eat. eat".
& i know i'm not supposed to return her immaturity but i couldn't help it & tried arguing myself out of slavery. i mean, slavery's illegal, right ? it's morally indecent for me to be my little sister's slave.
so we got home & we both pretty much forgot about the deal. i wanted to watch 'miss gold digger' [korean movie] & sarah wanted to watch anything else but what i wanted. in the end, dad chose 'the bucket list' which is about 2 old men who are about to die who make this list of crazy things they want to do before they die [which is in like 6-12 months]. we only watched halfway until we all got bored of it & ditched it.
for dinner, we had a christmas party with church gooyok [haha pretty sure that's not how you spell it but whatever] people & we just watched TV [the first time i watched the show, WIPEOUT].
it was kind of funny in a totally lame & unfunny way. basically, people just try to do this water obstacle course & fall over, get bashed up, slip & embarrass themselves to try & win $50,000. there was this guy & he was fully like "i'm doing this for my son, maximus to show him never to give up...the tough gets going...", & ofc he failed & gave up which would've been WAY embarrassing for him & his son.
the whole time, lisa kept confusing people by saying she was school captain & then saying she wasn't. [even though we're not all entirely sure, i'm pretty sure she's 1 of the 6 school captains for jasper road ps]. congrats lisa x3
we had lots of great food & we all watched jason & ian play chess while we ate cherries & watermelon. ian won while grace [his sister] tried to help both of them at the same time.
it was time for presents so esther's dad dressed up as santa & april dressed as santa's little helper/elf/whatever you call it. & they just gave presents out to everyone.
when it was time for the parents to give the kids presents, my auntie couldn't make it but james came anyway.
james [my cousin] got so pissed when he got 3 science encyclopedias & was fully like "this is a nightmare". such a drama queen. haha but a funny one.
then ashley, april & sarah [basically sarah & her friends] made people zombies by making us close our eyes & count to twenty. then they'd shake our arms & make us count to 10. then they'd shake our arms & make us count to 5. & they did this like 20, 10, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. after that you had to keep saying "come to my grave & kill me" repetitively. your arms automatically go up slowly like a zombie. & it worked ! try it ;)
james didn't want to go back home so he slept over at our house. sarah & him played chess while i ignored both of them & read "feeling sorry for celia" by jaclyn moriarty. it's pretty good but i think i like "finding cassie crazy better". & ofc, i like sarah dessen's books better.
yeah so i had to clean up my room so sarah could sleep with me because james had to sleep in sarah's room even though he kept complaining. such a hyperactive kid. but personally, i think he's just scared of the dark so he kept taking any excuse to come in. anyway, he settled down eventually.
pretty good day .
:)

yesterday; we went to the bandalism concert [yeah, they'd only be learning for like 2 terms so they pretty much sucked but they were alright]
& guitar people [us] did nothing except watch & try not to laugh, hehe x3
because everyone else can't laugh at us failing guitar since they don't get to listen to us paly.
we practised 'fabulous' at recess because mr wong screamed at us at music.
cbb to rant about it.
but he kept going on about how he was 'not pleased at all, blahblahblah. you were bludging when you KNEW what you were supposed to do. see me all at lunch. i'll be taking the roll then. you had 4 WEEKS to practise & you did nothing. blahblahblah. i can't do anything about 8K but i'll own 8A. blahblahblah'.
yeah so all the girls got together [while angela came along to be the audience] & we worked out the fail singing & choreo for like the first verse & chorus.
then we did it at lunch, major embarrassment. a few frontlawn girls & yr7s [thanks jayne & brendan] came to watch when it was clearly going to scar them for life.
but we got off because the guys [who were supposed to sing 'bet on it'] hummed tunelessly to it & even shouted when they weren't supposed to sing anyway [tang]. :) hahaha ty, for making us look good.
after school, i had no life so i trailed mum to strathfield for her dentist appointment. we dropped sarah off at pre-uni/cs education & it took us like 45 min to get to strathfield.
i was so bored. there wasn't even anyone interesting to talk to.
there was a girl about 10 who was carrying a baby & like taking care of it & all that. [her mum came out & only paid attention to the baby instead of the girl; maybe it's her stepmum?]
then there was a caucasian dude [like maybe 30 yrs?] who looked really uncomfortable in a fully asian dentist place.
so i ended up reading. & not even a magazine. a book. a real book. @___@ finding cassie crazy.
mum came out after about half an hour & we roamed around doing nothing, we considered going into like a billion shops & a restaurant ["beauty & the beast"] but we just cbb.
then we came home.
that's the most interesting thing that happened. wonderful. really.
i went to my mum's dentist appointment.
crazy.
ohh & we got hungry jacks on the way home.
the first time i had the whopper instead of the junior whopper. but after the burger, i was so full. i think i should just stick with the junior one, it's smaller.
but i reckon i just get full really easily.
i don't remember anything else. ohh except when i made a fully blown list of everything exciting i was going to do in the holidays [& stuff i wanted mum to do for me ofc.]
tbh, none of them are that exciting & there are only like 5 stuff but meh, good enough ;)

#1 shopping [like for everything]
#2 clean up everything for next year
#3 hairdressers, desperately
#4 watch a billion movies & get fat with tonnes of food
#5 try & not die of boredom

i'll probably do everything except #5 x3

alright, because i get so caught up in talking about every tiny thing that happened in my day [& i usually leave out details anyway],
i need to make a list of 10 things to rant about.
a LOT of people rant in their blogs &, personally, i think they do it too much so i thought i'd leave it up to them but then i thought of myself in like a billion years [aka, when i'm like 20 or 30 or something] & i wonder "what the hell pissed me off ? & why was i such an annoying kid with no problems ?".
so yeah, to avoid me thinking that, i'm going to make a list of 10 things.
even though i probably won't come up with 10 & i'll probably get offtrack by the time i reach #3 or something, i'll try to rant hehe :).

okaaaaaay.
10 THINGS THAT ANNOY/IRRITATE/INFURIATE/EXASPERATE/AGGRAVATE/
UPSET/BOTHER/ANGER/FRUSTRATE/DISPLEASE/PROVOKE/
INCENSE/NARK/CRAZILY DRIVE ME CRAZY

[& yeah, i didn't think up all those words, i looked it up on the online thesaurus to make the title more interesting than '10 THINGS THAT PISS ME OFF'. which, now, that i think about it, would make a WAY more simpler title,,]

#1 - annoyingly pro people with big egos or annoyingly unpro people with bigger egos [yeah, big egos in general]
#2 - public bathrooms/showers
#3 - hypocrites [even though i am one]
#4 - agriculture; & everything about it
#5 - dickheads, fakes, ignorant retards, boring people & sluts [haha self explanatory]
#6 - people who make a big deal out of almost everything [yeah, i'm a hypocrite]
#7 - so-corny-that-it-hurts movie endings
#8 - when i spend like 3 days on something [yeah like a certain essay] & i accidentally delete it
#9 - when i can't finish something i say i'll start [like this list for instance]
#10 - anything that sucks pretty much & i haven't covered :)

when me & catherine argued about whether 'x3' was a face/smilie or a heart, i was convinced it was a smilie.
& i still am, btw, but since i'm lazy & it's convenient, i'll use it as a heart.
so yeah, loved todaaay.
8L & 8T ditched us & went to deewhy beach while we were stuck & waiting to go for next monday.
i thought it would be a crap day since it's thursday b & thursday b's pretty much suck tbh.
i'm like dying for holidays to come, so uhhm let's see :)
first 2 periods of ag were beyond gay, like we went down to the farm while pronger showed us hay baling machines & it was so hot.
then we had to walk through the fields which had long itchy grass which was fine for the guys who had trousers but for us, i mean we were wearing dresses ! so they were laughing at us while we were dying from itchiness, heat & the effort in not trying to step in cow/sheep poo.
yeah so after we had scripture where phil kind of didn't turn up so we joined the non-scripture people in the library & did nothing but read WHO mags ;D
maths & french was all like, blahblahblah. i mean, we watched 'mr bean's holiday' in FRENCH & we made a list of 'top movies' & planned a party for tomorrow in maths x]]
omg, lunch was so fun. we ditched everyone else, suren, ceci, emily & me went down to "the edge of society" which happens to be the road down to the farm [down the hill].
& we took tonnes of self timers, most of which were fail. we did photos on the wall, suren climbed a tree & couldn't get down, sex & the city poses & then our self timer hsm one failed so we had to get robyn to take it for us :). ty robyn !
but we saw george in yr7 & we were about to ask him to take a photo for us like & I QUOTE >:)

suren & ceci: "george, please please please take a photo for us ?"
me/emily [can't remember who]: "oh no ye-ye-yes, omgosh, i got the self timer to work !"
-now since nobody needs george to take the photo-
suren: "bye bye, you can go suck your own dick :)"
ceci: "seriously like,, take a hint, f*** off"

hahaha, it sounds so mean but i swear it was funny at the time. & poor george was so confused.
will upload the pics once suren does because it's her camera.
we watched this retarded satirical video in history which was kind of funny but what-the-crappishable [monty python]
double eng was like bludge, me & suren stocked up on like 5 books for the holidays. & now sarah is reading "finding cassie crazy" which was something i read before but i wanted to borrow it again x3

we watched a tiny bit of "barbie & the island princess" [one of the movies we borrowed]
gosh i'm obsessed with barbie movies, & yeah, everyone finds me embarrassing but that's beside the point x]] hehe
i ran & watched rainbow romance at the same time but i watched more than i run
& dad just came back from orange with a box of cherries ;D
so now i've given up & sarah is running on the treadmill instead of me.
the end.

yesterday [which happened to be the only normal day where we weren't all wasted after camp was tuesday].
tbh , i don't remember what happened.
school was blah as usual. no, scratch that. it was pretty good.
we did secret santa in focus but i forgot to bring a prezzie for michelle so suren gave me some of her present [which was supposed to be ceci's] to me so i could give it to michelle. ty suren x3
but then i was like 'thank youu' & she was like 'whatever, ceci's loss'
psssh haha, so typical.
yeah but it was really great because michelle [one of our focus leaders] printed out the focus sheets in COLOUR about how media & music is so against Christianity.
so me & angela talked a little about it but we got kind of distracted so we went to join ceci, suren, celia & michelle. but as soon as we sat down & they started eating my pretzels, jess & catherine called me to talk about jess changing classes from A to L. & then after school, we went to mckenzie to talk about it & i think it's kind of definite. idk ? =/
but i really like my class for next yr :)

ohh & today was the 'tsunami relief concert' & mufti day where whoever bothered performed basically x]]

i only remembered the yr7 singing group who sang 'how to save a life' by the fray, the yr10 dance group, chi-wai's multitasking ~playing the guitar, singing & drums at the same time, amelia's contemporary ballet & dev's awesome michael jackson song ,
he was like seriously the highlight, i swear & he's only yr7 @____@
but he was fully mj obsessed
& at the end he was like 'long live the king of pop, may his legacy live on forever'

ohh & veejay's [ruse guy who graduated in 'o8] played with his band 'road to canaan' like they played at houseparty. the drummer guy was crazy, like you couldn't even see his drumsticks. it was pretty cool & he let us stand up on the chairs which was just about the best bit.
but then the prefects [yeah like jack & edward] kept calling the band 'road to cay-naarn' & we were like secretly 'it's CANAAN'
ugh, get a hint hahah, just kidding but it was kind of annoying.

afterwards, me & emily ran to 7/11 to get slushi/slurpies, the whole time screaming 'if chris doesn't hold the bus up for us, he is one dumped boy'
haha & ofc we almost missed it [come on, i was running in heels =/ but emily was running in converse] but emily didn't dump chris because we were full of slushi sugar haha :)
then at home, sarah watched the parts of 'THE JOY LUCK CLUB' she'd missed the day before.
when we were eating & sarah was at college, mum & i watched "because i said so" which has mandy moore in it. it wasn't SUCH a good movie but i guess it was alright.

when sarah came home, she got fully angry at mum & me. i don't remember why but she was pissed at me because i lost her place in "THE JOY LUCK CLUB". stupid arguement, i know. & she got mad at mum for some other reason.

so sarah was hiding in her pouting place, the space between the sofa & huge flower pot, & crying because she was mad at mum. so i put on the dvd to make her come out which she did in like 2 seconds. she eventually got over whatever she was mad at.

then i ran a bit & watched 'bring it on: in it to win it' which ranks like 2nd on my 'list of worst ever made movies' list but i watched it anyways.
the only good part was when the goth goes '...mutant turtles gnawing on human flesh. oh, they ate the unicorn'

hahahah, okay i'll stop ;)

omgosh, watched joy luck club ;
not as sad as mum said it would be but such a good movie .
like the part where the girl smashes the glass pearls at the funeral, when the mother leaves her twins on the side of the rode with her jewels & note & everything & the happy ending at the end are the saddest scenes.

when she's like 'i'm here instead of mom' or something at end, it made me cry for no reason. & the rape part was depressinger. now i have a sudden urge to commentate on every scene of the movie. i make no sense . but yeah, i loved it.

far out, i will never disrespect or laugh at random little asian mums with funny accents ever again even though it's like a lifetime hobby.

ohh & EFF, the main girl [without the mother] is the voice for mulan;
i'm amazed. @_____@
i'm too easily impressed but still, that's pretty interesting.
ohh & i also rant like everyday how asians are never pretty/hot in caucasian movies [e.g. mao's last dancer, shanghai kiss, sunny from neighbours & the asian girl in glee].
they have talent yeah, but still, so ugly.


but afterwards i fully gave my mum a bookmark tag thing & i kind of imitated the movie like 'with this, carries all my good intentions' & she was like 'wtf; go away' but still laughing.

list of top movies so far
joy luck club, [all depressing but meaningful stories & morals & whatever] cried twice when it wasn't even sad.
titanic [not so much but whatever; btw rose should've died, not jack. we all loved jack],
herb, [so sad, but sweet in a retarded way, cried like ten billion times]
forest gump, [good at the time]
curious case of benjamin button, [tad confusing but i still like it]
hitch, [best romantic comedy]
august rush, [i think i just like the music]
500 days of summer, [sweet]
maybe even princess bride even though it sucks. [so funny even when they're serious]

list of worst movies
romeo & juliet [1996; the one with leonardo dicaprio in it,] gayest movie ever.
seriously, even the 1968 made it look craap.



when someone judges you & you didn't even know they were ? i'm a little too chicken to say what it was but it hurt but i'm slowly learning to not care what other people think of me. yeahhhhh, how hardcore is that ? ;)
'i don't care what anyone thinks of me, it's me. take it or leave it'
yeah um, i doubt i'll ever say that but i'm still trying.
everyone watched titanic on saturday night when we were at houseparty.

i'll make a 'diary' entry after dinner for yesterday & today .

i don't care anymore what people think of me. i won't care anymore what people think of me. i just can't anymore.

i want to stop listing everything special that happens & making it stop being special. i want to live in the moment. i want to be someone that tells the truth. i want to be someone who is sick of lying to themself. i want to shout what God's done for the world. i want to save someone. i want to stop worrying.

because a lifetime is nothing compared to eternity.

why should i care what happens everyday or why should i cover myself with lies to make me feel better & why should i hold back & just not care about anyone ?

i want to do something. God should hate me. i adore his creations. i totally reject him. ii think that my family & friends' opinions matter more than the God who created them.

the thoughts i have are sometimes so dark that it hurts me to think them. i hurt God. i hurt others. i hurt myself. i can't seem to stop. i just add to everything that's wrong with the world. i should hate myself but, instead, i love myself. i'm selfish & i love God's gifts but i even forget they're his & i'm his.

i feel crazily exposed because i just realised that everything i think and do, God sees. my creator sees.
he sees when i cringe away from telling someone what i think.
he sees when i fall & pretend i never did.
he sees when i reject & hate others- my own brothers & sisters around me.
he sees when i hate him even though i can't even see it in myself.

i want to, not just say, but do. act. & i say this all the time but i really need to do something now. i might just be gabbling on again; i might not understand what i'm saying. & i might be telling the truth. i need to believe & stop worrying about a tiny scrap of time called life & look at eternity.

God made me. God made eternity. God made me see this. God made everything i worship more than him. i need to stop editing my thoughts and words & ask God to use me to speak truthfully.

i have to stop lying to myself about everything. like everything everything. i have to see through all the crap in the media & in others. the world is more messed up than anyone knows. the thoughts i have that maybe i really don't trust in GOd, people scream out loud & are proud of themselves for it. some people worship themselves. everything about 'believing in ourselves' & 'needing others to love you' are the diguises for selfishness & neediness.

only God knows. it's so hard for us to even tell the truth to ourselves. especially me. it's so hard for us to see the fault in ourselves. God knew who we were going to be, how we were going to act, what we were going to go through, before he even created the world. his plan was that big. his plan wasn't an impromptu thing just because God was bored. God will judge us for everything that's ever happened in us. the secrets nobody else knows will be flooded out in front of him.

the truth is that i deserve worse than hell. literally. i don't even deserve hell. i can't even believe that i respected & thought about what the world thought about me. i can't believe that i was that blind & stupid. & subconciously, maybe i even thought God could forgive me simply because he was God & God is merciful or i was okay enough to be forgiven. but God is angry at me.
he hates my sin. he hates my thoughts. he hates my words. he hates my actions. he loves me.
& if you take all that away, i might be absolutely nothing.
but he loves me. he died for me. he created me. i was bought for the highest price- God's own blood. the blood that should be mine. so i am valuable.

i look at the people around me & laugh at them when they say this but don't follow it. they think they are special because they know something exclusive & are trusted by someone. they think they are special because they have a talent. they think they are special because they have something no one else does. & then i realise i'm exactly like the people around me; everyone in the world.

what God did for me doesn't even begin to cover it. he made me special. i can't cover it. i'm human. but i know i'm saved. 100%. without a doubt. no arguement. period. end of story. i am GOD's. i'm a Christian.

much too scared to watch passion of the Christ so i'll stick with video clips ; i think i'm chicken, i admit it yeah.



hahaha like minutes before i go to houseparty so i'll say more later
but today, we harvested our vegetables
sarah to mum -financially well; NOT RICH :S

more later.
cbb now.
even though i'm probably the most loserish person i know, i'm not loserish enough to fully blog about everything that happened at RAP camp so i'll sum it up later,

it's like just before camp now & i'm chewing extra [for kids] gum which makes fantastic bubble gum btw;

;) RAP CAMP

just came back from school; ok not just but i was just sort of going on random sites for the past 20mins so i think that counts.
i just realised i lie a lot but not the type of lie that matters, like tonnes & tonnes of white lies. do white lies add up to real ones ? @____@
we took a few luvos at school at double bludge period for pe & we were just cheering on the yr7s & i tried to drink my soy drink [ughh why did i buy a whole pack ?] & lotte waffles.
there were some yr7 groups who were pro & pretty much won every game & others that just plain sucked; no offence :)
anyways, we won overall so it's good.
mckenzie called us in for a grade meeting at the end of the day [period 7] & rambled on about grade sport [we had to fill in a form to tick which sport we wanted to do] & camp [which is tomorrow].
we heard the yr7s cheer somewhere in the middle which meant ruse beat cumbo for gala day like 6 yrs in a row now so naturally, the yr8s all cheered too.
i reckon today was a pretty good day. i chose netball ofc but i'm probably not going to get in, i haven't played it out of school for like 2 yrs & also because everyone chose it.
whatever, i'm going to have to settle for rec sport x]]
omgosh it's camp tomorrow. i think everyone was all excited & already packed but i cbb now. like sarah was talking about bringing a dvd player [portable] & spare batteries;
but it's only 1 night so i'm looking forward to iscf houseparty way more which is straight after camp;
jeez, 5 STRAIGHT DAYS OF CAMP 8) but i'm looking forward to it even though i'm going to be dead after.
i can't log in to my email which means i won't be able to send around emails to yr8 at church [our hw is to send emails to everyone in yr8 bible study group each week]. i think some of us are giving up.
anyways, CAMP tomorrow so friday will be the only day i go to school & i'll go to iscf houseparty at camp kedron like at friday evening.
happpppy :)

at dinner, we went out yet to ANOTHER viet restaurant ; this time at like parramatta i think ? :S i don't remember the name but we all had the usual except mum who didn't eat [sarah- beef soup/noodles, me-crispy chicken & tomato rice & dad had these rice paper rolls @____@]
i just finished packing for camp & remembered my socks but i'll probably forget about them & not have socks at camp.
i think i packed a little too much. haha x3