laa more maths this morning while procrastinating, & me & sarah kept listening to the songs. sarah loves the most popular song right now "just the way you are" bruno mars & i like "gallery" by mario something-i-cbb-to-spell.
after some intense procrastination, we were planning on going to the library but we skipped that part & went to towers.
we had subway, hot chocolate, first time to try a subway cookie (:
then we went to myers, valleygirl to look for sarah's yr6 farewell dress. i ended up buying a dress instead LOL, how did that work out .. afterwards, sarah was tired because she's got no endurance as a shopper so we had to sit down again so she could eat sushi. then long time tradition, UNCLE PETE'S. yes i am too old now & it's not like it interests me anymore but it's kind of a place we have to visit. ohh & then mum bought oysters & prawns, the guy who works there [looks about highschool] is pretty fail at his job so we just keep glaring at him impatiently. it's was funny but i felt sorry for him LOL, i think he remembers our impatience last time as well.
then spontaneously, [when i she ever not spontaneous ??], mum let us borrow videos from video ezy in the midst of my yearly studying. so we came home & then dad came home, so we all ate oysters & prawns & watched datenight. SO FUNNY, it wasn't as deep as it was meant to be but it felt great to watch it & it made me laugh. "f you", "did you just say 'f you? f YOU", "no, f you, you motherfer". ok, this makes me sound like a swearer now but if you've watched it, you'd get it dw (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m7tr8CAZLrs&feature=related

then i felt guilty so i got another hour of maths in. now i'm blogging while youtubing. ohh & lame as it was, i was listening to 1.O65 love song dedications & even though everything they say is sweet & the annoying host dude like richard mercer is always encouraging, i just can't bring myself to believe in it. i mean there was a gay couple & girl who said that it was love after 3 months & this guy that dedicated a song to his gf yesterday but then today he called up to tell the radio that they were in a fight. it's all such a mess; what's the point ? i'm not a cynic but i don't believe in love where you can confirm it by calling up a radio station & dedicating a song. it's so much less perfect & simple than that. it made me roll my eyes & scoff every 2 minutes which would've seemed really stupid to whoever was watching me but i couldn't help it. somehow, it was addictive though.

like the radio, all of today, i've been doubting what i believe in & realised everything is less simple, little by little. for instance, i really want to become a doctor one day but if i ever do get into med [that means studying min 5 yrs then working my entire life], where do i get the time for the rest of my life ? i'm not changing my mind, just taking in the consequences, the impact & everything i might have to give up. it's tough to think about it. so for now, just going to enjoy not being old LOL & wait for what comes.

uhhm yeah that sounds really hippie 'go with the flow', whatevs, it's already been done, might as well go the whole way. peace out x.

today was a peaceful [like didn't go anywhere] but a great day. i holed in & did some maths ! (;
eww who uses winks for maths ? @______@ but then again, winks look freaky after anything ahaha. back to the point, yeah i got distracted many times but i finished a chapter of the maths book so i feel rather accomplished. the thought of want i want to be keeps me going i guess (:

still very sick, & i'm still in pjs, blowing my nose every two seconds. gross. i woke up, ate toast. i forced myself to sleep in & still couldn't stay in bed after 7:30. LOL i'm like the opposite of a sleep-craving teen, if i sleep early, i have to wake up early. i function on a set amount of sleep. why am i elaborating so much on my sleeping pattern ?? yeah so then mum & sarah woke up & i felt like eating porridge with them so i did (:

the day was kind of hazy after that, just the constant wandering around the house, eating kitkats, banging my head against the table trying to get maths done. it wasn't even heavy study sessions so i feel sort of undiligent. lunch was disjointed & makeshift; salami, cheese, biscuits, udong. & we rewatched don juan because sarah woke up too late yesterday to see most of it. I NEVER REALISED IT WAS JOHNNY DEPP UNTIL AFTER THE MOVIE; i am so fail. when mum & sarah left to go to her piano, i felt kind of a dreaded feeling. i'm not scared of being home alone but my confession is that i'm scared of what can happen to my family when they're out of the house. car accidents scare me to death. because it's too real and too common. so as soon as the clock struck the time they were supposed to be home, i used my jittery hands to call my mum.

yeah that's right i've got a paranoid disorder, i'm sort of a loser. wonderful things to say because on a blog, i'm supposed to make myself sound cooler than i really am but i fail even at that :L ahah i'm not bashing myself, just being truthful. if that's not enough, i also spent some of my time reading twilight & watching wongfu production videos on youtube. LOL FULL TIME LOSER xP THAT'S ME (:

after dinner, sarah, being the darling sister she is, made me play barbies with her. which would've been kind of sweet if it weren't for that fact that she's going to highschool [ruse as a matter of fact] next year. yeah that's right, i'm spilling all her secrets & making her sound retarded before she even reaches high school. LOL jokess, BARBIES WAS SO FUN. i played with her because i wanted to be a good sister at first, even though i was a little grumpy from maths, but then i got really into it. by the end, we were literally rofling :L because we included the dumbest asian jokes. i probably shouldn't go into the details because they're all "you had to be there" moments.

but just for memory's sake, i'll write them down.
there was this asian mum barbie doll & this asian myscene doll..
& this blonde ken dude, & i made him go "where's france ? is that like in antarctica ? china ?" O_______o
& my sister was like facepalming but then i made the asian mum pop up & go "insult to the asian community ! dishonour upon your ancestors".
then sarah popped up the asian daughter doll & went "mamaa" & then she voiced for the asian mother going, "LINGGGG". yeah see ? it's lame when i type it but trust me, it was hilarious.
then we had tonnes of inside jokes because sarah's kind of short for her age, mum says that she might have to have chinese medicine to make her grow & sarah's always wailing that she doesn't want chinese medicine. seriously, she's the funniest person i know, what a cheesy ruse person already (:
afterwards. i paid sarah $2 to clean up the barbie dolls cos i'm scared of them at night, ahh i could not get cooler. & then i realised i didn't have $2 so i paid a deposit of $1. but sarah's a tough businesswoman & she spotted an indian coin i had in my cupboard & she demanded that it counts for like 5c of the $2. & i was like "NOOOO SIF IT'S WORTH THAT", but she kept wailing going "I WANT MY RUPEE". LOL i didn't even know that was the name for indian money so she kept going until i just gave it to her in exchange for the left over $1. she just grinned smugly & left then returned to show off her foreign coin collection consisting of a korean coin, denmark coin, indian coin, & american note. LOL she's so cute.

we told our adventures to mum, ahaha i feel like she's 5 & i'm still 8 again. can't believe we're getting old. i can't imagine a time we're both in uni & able to act actually like friends [because then we'll be the same height]. hehe maybe, she might have to get a start with that chinese medicine. but i'm forcing her to drink milk every day now.

i think this is a long enough post. mum& sarah are watching kimtakgu; this korean drama that i first watched & cbb to keep up with from the 2nd episode so yeah, they watch that & gumiho [ninetailed fox girl] right now. i'm too busy doing maths. well i got distracted from maths & now i'm blogging but i used to.

WELL ANYWAYS, i think this post is long enough. i've had no epiphanies so i'll leave it here. hope you didn't make it to the end of this & i hope you didn't realise the total extent of my loserishness. (:

byee, will include pictures later maybe. it looks a little plain ~

seriously i can't believe i stopped blogging before my 100th post; that's a stupid thing to do.
anyways, what have i been up to ? LOL not like anyone really cares but basically, procrastinating, trying to do maths, eating out with family every week, drlee tutoring [yes why is that one of the tops ?] & STALKING OTHER PEOPLE'S BLOGS. but then i just realised how i'm losing all my personality and all my memories. i stopped blogging because i thought it was a waste of time but then i realised i'm doing anything better with it.

so yeah, my posts will be kind of random and sporadic. YET i will not let this blog die. maybe not until like yr12 (: so this is how it will go; my recount of my day [if anything at all eventful happens], my random thoughts & a note to someone [who will not always be the same person but maybe i just have to get something off my chest ?] yeah; so hmm.

first weekend of holidays i went hiking. IT WAS EPIC; like actually, there were so many things i did on the hike that i'd never done before. many of which include trekking up a mountain with a 15kg pack, climbing, falling [yeah i do that a lot but this time it was a serious matter where i could've died], SHARED CUTLERY [thanks for that jo], sang at the top of my lungs the WHAT ABOUT ME song [thanks for that elaine] & argued about ozil/british men [thanks for that brittany]. ahahah too much to talk about. the fire was nice, it was the first time trying mooncake [as i'm left out of the chinese culture; being korean] & roasting marshmellows mmmm.. then me & jo crashed elaine & brittany's tent where many discussions of guys, failed prankcalls & horror stories were shared. all in all, it felt great to climb the so-called mountain. like it was backbreaking climbing up but when we got to the top, collapsed & looked out at the view, i realised how much i could accomplish without knowing it. i also had many metaphoric epiphanies, relating climbing a mountain to living life. corny but i just couldn't help but think of it. it was wonderful & i cannot believe i survived. thank you to everyone who went & it was awesome .

i should get a move on with the bronze test hike though LOL

after hike, i took the much-needed shower & then my family went to eastwood to eat at bonga, yummm.
i also watched a korean movie with the actor my mum thinks is hot xP hehe, something about two people being dumped & making a revenge plan. wasn't that great but i was too tired.

yesterday, i watched the rest of that movie & attempted to study maths. i think that's about it; ate subway for dinner. ohh & HAPPY BIRTHDAY TREVOR.

today, did a few hours of maths in the morning & watched don juan [LOL THAT'S A GOOD MOVIE ^_____^]. then i went out with family & grandparents to eat at eastwood, sakae. delicious as usual. but it was quite tense because i was sitting between mum & grandma [on my dad's side] & there was the usual pressure for some reason. they kept loading meat onto my plate as if it were a competiton & i was quite happy to eat it but i'm way too full now. ohh then green tea icecream yeaaaah x3 afterwards, grandma have me a jar of shrimp & told me that i had to hold it carefully because it'll spill. so naturally i guarded it with my life, mum & i were joking the whole way, yelling randomly BE CAREFUL & I THINK I'M GOING TO DROP IT. i kept glaring at randoms strangers as if they were planning to steal the jar (:

i think sarah facepalmed many many times. we went to get sarah's hair cut afterwards, with me still clinging onto the jar. it's much shorter now & neater. very pretty ; now we're home & i just cut my own hair because i can't trust hairdressers anymore. nah just cut a few split ends & now i'm blogging.

RECOUNT DONE.

thought box now. maths. maths. maths. that's seriously all i worry about now. i want to be a doctor one day [& i'm really always like 'yeah sif i'll ever be one] & i know maths isn't crucial in the grand scheme of things but somehow it's all that clouds my mind. i really need to get a move on. i guess i have motivation and zero determination if that makes sense. i'm being a personality-lacking dork, i must fix that, yeaah. but sometimes i just think i haven't got my priorities sorted. where do i fit God into my life ? how do i learn to trust him ? i'm so happy with what i've got but sometimes i just feel lost, i can't even begin to imagine what i'll be like when i'm hit with bigger troubles. i just know what i want to do & what i want to become but i have no idea how to handle what i'm doing now. hopefully through this blog, i'll maybe realise.

i never know how to end a post.

how about.. LATERS, or TBC or THE END.

any one of them will do !

the songs that mean something to me right now;

laa more maths this morning while procrastinating, & me & sarah kept listening to the songs. sarah loves the most popular song right now "just the way you are" bruno mars & i like "gallery" by mario something-i-cbb-to-spell.
after some intense procrastination, we were planning on going to the library but we skipped that part & went to towers.
we had subway, hot chocolate, first time to try a subway cookie (:
then we went to myers, valleygirl to look for sarah's yr6 farewell dress. i ended up buying a dress instead LOL, how did that work out .. afterwards, sarah was tired because she's got no endurance as a shopper so we had to sit down again so she could eat sushi. then long time tradition, UNCLE PETE'S. yes i am too old now & it's not like it interests me anymore but it's kind of a place we have to visit. ohh & then mum bought oysters & prawns, the guy who works there [looks about highschool] is pretty fail at his job so we just keep glaring at him impatiently. it's was funny but i felt sorry for him LOL, i think he remembers our impatience last time as well.
then spontaneously, [when i she ever not spontaneous ??], mum let us borrow videos from video ezy in the midst of my yearly studying. so we came home & then dad came home, so we all ate oysters & prawns & watched datenight. SO FUNNY, it wasn't as deep as it was meant to be but it felt great to watch it & it made me laugh. "f you", "did you just say 'f you? f YOU", "no, f you, you motherfer". ok, this makes me sound like a swearer now but if you've watched it, you'd get it dw (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m7tr8CAZLrs&feature=related

then i felt guilty so i got another hour of maths in. now i'm blogging while youtubing. ohh & lame as it was, i was listening to 1.O65 love song dedications & even though everything they say is sweet & the annoying host dude like richard mercer is always encouraging, i just can't bring myself to believe in it. i mean there was a gay couple & girl who said that it was love after 3 months & this guy that dedicated a song to his gf yesterday but then today he called up to tell the radio that they were in a fight. it's all such a mess; what's the point ? i'm not a cynic but i don't believe in love where you can confirm it by calling up a radio station & dedicating a song. it's so much less perfect & simple than that. it made me roll my eyes & scoff every 2 minutes which would've seemed really stupid to whoever was watching me but i couldn't help it. somehow, it was addictive though.

like the radio, all of today, i've been doubting what i believe in & realised everything is less simple, little by little. for instance, i really want to become a doctor one day but if i ever do get into med [that means studying min 5 yrs then working my entire life], where do i get the time for the rest of my life ? i'm not changing my mind, just taking in the consequences, the impact & everything i might have to give up. it's tough to think about it. so for now, just going to enjoy not being old LOL & wait for what comes.

uhhm yeah that sounds really hippie 'go with the flow', whatevs, it's already been done, might as well go the whole way. peace out x.

today was a peaceful [like didn't go anywhere] but a great day. i holed in & did some maths ! (;
eww who uses winks for maths ? @______@ but then again, winks look freaky after anything ahaha. back to the point, yeah i got distracted many times but i finished a chapter of the maths book so i feel rather accomplished. the thought of want i want to be keeps me going i guess (:

still very sick, & i'm still in pjs, blowing my nose every two seconds. gross. i woke up, ate toast. i forced myself to sleep in & still couldn't stay in bed after 7:30. LOL i'm like the opposite of a sleep-craving teen, if i sleep early, i have to wake up early. i function on a set amount of sleep. why am i elaborating so much on my sleeping pattern ?? yeah so then mum & sarah woke up & i felt like eating porridge with them so i did (:

the day was kind of hazy after that, just the constant wandering around the house, eating kitkats, banging my head against the table trying to get maths done. it wasn't even heavy study sessions so i feel sort of undiligent. lunch was disjointed & makeshift; salami, cheese, biscuits, udong. & we rewatched don juan because sarah woke up too late yesterday to see most of it. I NEVER REALISED IT WAS JOHNNY DEPP UNTIL AFTER THE MOVIE; i am so fail. when mum & sarah left to go to her piano, i felt kind of a dreaded feeling. i'm not scared of being home alone but my confession is that i'm scared of what can happen to my family when they're out of the house. car accidents scare me to death. because it's too real and too common. so as soon as the clock struck the time they were supposed to be home, i used my jittery hands to call my mum.

yeah that's right i've got a paranoid disorder, i'm sort of a loser. wonderful things to say because on a blog, i'm supposed to make myself sound cooler than i really am but i fail even at that :L ahah i'm not bashing myself, just being truthful. if that's not enough, i also spent some of my time reading twilight & watching wongfu production videos on youtube. LOL FULL TIME LOSER xP THAT'S ME (:

after dinner, sarah, being the darling sister she is, made me play barbies with her. which would've been kind of sweet if it weren't for that fact that she's going to highschool [ruse as a matter of fact] next year. yeah that's right, i'm spilling all her secrets & making her sound retarded before she even reaches high school. LOL jokess, BARBIES WAS SO FUN. i played with her because i wanted to be a good sister at first, even though i was a little grumpy from maths, but then i got really into it. by the end, we were literally rofling :L because we included the dumbest asian jokes. i probably shouldn't go into the details because they're all "you had to be there" moments.

but just for memory's sake, i'll write them down.
there was this asian mum barbie doll & this asian myscene doll..
& this blonde ken dude, & i made him go "where's france ? is that like in antarctica ? china ?" O_______o
& my sister was like facepalming but then i made the asian mum pop up & go "insult to the asian community ! dishonour upon your ancestors".
then sarah popped up the asian daughter doll & went "mamaa" & then she voiced for the asian mother going, "LINGGGG". yeah see ? it's lame when i type it but trust me, it was hilarious.
then we had tonnes of inside jokes because sarah's kind of short for her age, mum says that she might have to have chinese medicine to make her grow & sarah's always wailing that she doesn't want chinese medicine. seriously, she's the funniest person i know, what a cheesy ruse person already (:
afterwards. i paid sarah $2 to clean up the barbie dolls cos i'm scared of them at night, ahh i could not get cooler. & then i realised i didn't have $2 so i paid a deposit of $1. but sarah's a tough businesswoman & she spotted an indian coin i had in my cupboard & she demanded that it counts for like 5c of the $2. & i was like "NOOOO SIF IT'S WORTH THAT", but she kept wailing going "I WANT MY RUPEE". LOL i didn't even know that was the name for indian money so she kept going until i just gave it to her in exchange for the left over $1. she just grinned smugly & left then returned to show off her foreign coin collection consisting of a korean coin, denmark coin, indian coin, & american note. LOL she's so cute.

we told our adventures to mum, ahaha i feel like she's 5 & i'm still 8 again. can't believe we're getting old. i can't imagine a time we're both in uni & able to act actually like friends [because then we'll be the same height]. hehe maybe, she might have to get a start with that chinese medicine. but i'm forcing her to drink milk every day now.

i think this is a long enough post. mum& sarah are watching kimtakgu; this korean drama that i first watched & cbb to keep up with from the 2nd episode so yeah, they watch that & gumiho [ninetailed fox girl] right now. i'm too busy doing maths. well i got distracted from maths & now i'm blogging but i used to.

WELL ANYWAYS, i think this post is long enough. i've had no epiphanies so i'll leave it here. hope you didn't make it to the end of this & i hope you didn't realise the total extent of my loserishness. (:

byee, will include pictures later maybe. it looks a little plain ~

seriously i can't believe i stopped blogging before my 100th post; that's a stupid thing to do.
anyways, what have i been up to ? LOL not like anyone really cares but basically, procrastinating, trying to do maths, eating out with family every week, drlee tutoring [yes why is that one of the tops ?] & STALKING OTHER PEOPLE'S BLOGS. but then i just realised how i'm losing all my personality and all my memories. i stopped blogging because i thought it was a waste of time but then i realised i'm doing anything better with it.

so yeah, my posts will be kind of random and sporadic. YET i will not let this blog die. maybe not until like yr12 (: so this is how it will go; my recount of my day [if anything at all eventful happens], my random thoughts & a note to someone [who will not always be the same person but maybe i just have to get something off my chest ?] yeah; so hmm.

first weekend of holidays i went hiking. IT WAS EPIC; like actually, there were so many things i did on the hike that i'd never done before. many of which include trekking up a mountain with a 15kg pack, climbing, falling [yeah i do that a lot but this time it was a serious matter where i could've died], SHARED CUTLERY [thanks for that jo], sang at the top of my lungs the WHAT ABOUT ME song [thanks for that elaine] & argued about ozil/british men [thanks for that brittany]. ahahah too much to talk about. the fire was nice, it was the first time trying mooncake [as i'm left out of the chinese culture; being korean] & roasting marshmellows mmmm.. then me & jo crashed elaine & brittany's tent where many discussions of guys, failed prankcalls & horror stories were shared. all in all, it felt great to climb the so-called mountain. like it was backbreaking climbing up but when we got to the top, collapsed & looked out at the view, i realised how much i could accomplish without knowing it. i also had many metaphoric epiphanies, relating climbing a mountain to living life. corny but i just couldn't help but think of it. it was wonderful & i cannot believe i survived. thank you to everyone who went & it was awesome .

i should get a move on with the bronze test hike though LOL

after hike, i took the much-needed shower & then my family went to eastwood to eat at bonga, yummm.
i also watched a korean movie with the actor my mum thinks is hot xP hehe, something about two people being dumped & making a revenge plan. wasn't that great but i was too tired.

yesterday, i watched the rest of that movie & attempted to study maths. i think that's about it; ate subway for dinner. ohh & HAPPY BIRTHDAY TREVOR.

today, did a few hours of maths in the morning & watched don juan [LOL THAT'S A GOOD MOVIE ^_____^]. then i went out with family & grandparents to eat at eastwood, sakae. delicious as usual. but it was quite tense because i was sitting between mum & grandma [on my dad's side] & there was the usual pressure for some reason. they kept loading meat onto my plate as if it were a competiton & i was quite happy to eat it but i'm way too full now. ohh then green tea icecream yeaaaah x3 afterwards, grandma have me a jar of shrimp & told me that i had to hold it carefully because it'll spill. so naturally i guarded it with my life, mum & i were joking the whole way, yelling randomly BE CAREFUL & I THINK I'M GOING TO DROP IT. i kept glaring at randoms strangers as if they were planning to steal the jar (:

i think sarah facepalmed many many times. we went to get sarah's hair cut afterwards, with me still clinging onto the jar. it's much shorter now & neater. very pretty ; now we're home & i just cut my own hair because i can't trust hairdressers anymore. nah just cut a few split ends & now i'm blogging.

RECOUNT DONE.

thought box now. maths. maths. maths. that's seriously all i worry about now. i want to be a doctor one day [& i'm really always like 'yeah sif i'll ever be one] & i know maths isn't crucial in the grand scheme of things but somehow it's all that clouds my mind. i really need to get a move on. i guess i have motivation and zero determination if that makes sense. i'm being a personality-lacking dork, i must fix that, yeaah. but sometimes i just think i haven't got my priorities sorted. where do i fit God into my life ? how do i learn to trust him ? i'm so happy with what i've got but sometimes i just feel lost, i can't even begin to imagine what i'll be like when i'm hit with bigger troubles. i just know what i want to do & what i want to become but i have no idea how to handle what i'm doing now. hopefully through this blog, i'll maybe realise.

i never know how to end a post.

how about.. LATERS, or TBC or THE END.

any one of them will do !

the songs that mean something to me right now;