Sarah, Dad & I swam- trying to play mermaids LOL [childhood memories] & clinging onto each other, pretending to drown. So hot today.
We watched korean drama, Study Master, & ate ramen. Simple, normal end of 2010, ayeeee (:
3 hours & a bit till 2011; excited but it's not like anything will happen or change. Being out in the city near the harbour bridge or whatever would be way more exciting but if I had too many moments like that, they would seem less special. So spending it at home & enjoying the moments before 2010 closes- maybe another year, I'll go out.
Watching fireworks on tv is better because you can see more anyways.
Have a good few hours until the new year.

~ See you next year x3

ANOTHER YEAR & FREAKING OUT.

Today, dad made me throw out stuff from my room which I am hopelessly attached to & I fully screamed at him to get out because I didn't want to clean & throw stuff out. Ever since, we made the new study room in our house, dad's been crazy about rearranging furniture, cleaning out rooms for a more "mature, highschool look" especially since Sarah's going to hs next year.

Sarah was completely obedient & helped in cleaning stuff out of her room so now, apart from a few pretty things, it's practically empty [she took out all her barbie dolls, xylophone, other junk] while I refused, clinging onto the smallest keychains & pretty boxes, cards, old stories I wrote. I guess it says stuff about a person. Maybe I'm not ready for a new year. We brought a shelf down from my room for the new studyroom [which has now replaced the TV] & so there's this weird empty space in my room. In the end, I threw out creative writing pieces, artworks [which are sort of bad because they were from way back in primary school] & a couple of random pens & morningglory things that I thought were pretty at the time.


We went to campsie buffet again because mum loves that place; she can eat a whole plate of prawns by herself. It's a wonder she still stays slim LOL. I wish I had that gene. Regardless, we all stacked our plates up with korean food [meat, meat, meat, chicken, meat, noodles, meat, meat]. There was this senile grandpa that kept yelling to a group of grandmas next to us & it was weird. I don't know. I don't think really old people care about how they look or act in public, after all, everyone around them must look like children to them. I scooped ice cream for Sarah & she was grinning the whole time eating it & she also finished a whole plate of prawns on top of her meal. Mum tried to beat her by finishing hers [which was a little more than Sarah's]. My mouth dropped at how much they could eat but dad just knowingly shook his head & smiled. It was so delish as usual. We eat out way too much but it's not something you can say no to, it's fun spending time eating...with family ofc (:

Laters, we went to Auburn to buy a dressing table for my room [where the weird empty space is]. I love furniture shopping, they're so pretty & new. It's the same feeling when looking for a new house, everything perfect & clean. Not much to say on it though, Sarah & I just fantisized about having the really expensive pieces in our house but we bought a simple, pretty white one in the end. I'm happy with it like I'm usually happy after buying something. Car conversations, chewing gum, laughing, talking about marrying doctors instead of becoming one. Because really, I want to be a doctor but there was this lady at church who told mum that I should just marry a doctor instead of becoming one. Which is like following in my mum's footsteps instead of my dad's. It was just a funny thought. This might sound weird but seeing my parents or my sister laugh, especially making them laugh, makes me happy. It makes the conversation more fun, like friends which just come naturally. It's not that I overdose on family time but I really love it.

I said I'd do resolutions but not going to post on epicgee because I don't want to do it so everyone can read it & no one actually cares. WITH A NEW YEAR; COMES NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS. I don't see the point because no one ever sticks to them but it's fun & I believe that's why new year exists. So you can at least have a hope that everything will be different, that everything will change. So yeah, doing it for the fun of it, to imagine what it would be like if I stuck to them.


RESOLUTIONS.

1) Obvious ruse one- study harder, better. Become more organized, learn because you want to & because it interests you. I want to be more passionate & involved. I want to be focused & ready, LOL TIME MANAGEMENT.


2) Better organizational time skills which means all the extracurriculars & things that should be first in my life such as God, family, friends.

3) Get off the computer. Self explanatory.


4) BECOME BUFF. JK. but yeah, not to that extent but healthy would be nice.

5) Read more, oldfashioned but yeah, get other hobbies & things that I really want to do- e.g. writing. Proper hobbies.

6) Talk to my grandparents more. I feel so bad because I know they won't be around forever.

7) I had something extremely negative- a long rant about how "whatever, none of these will work out" but I accidentally deleted it & so I figured that would dampen my good mood seeing as I'm usually in this happy state, I should at least be grateful & sound like it on the internet as well.

2010 has been AMAZING. INCREDIBLE. MINDBLOWING. BREATH TAKING. FUN LIKE HELL.

I love everyone who's been a part of it so thank you ^ ^

I hope you have a year just as good or far better than this one.

New life. New start. New good times.



BUT FIREWORKS ARE USELESS & MONEY CONSUMING. thank you.

HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY ESTHER; party was fun but lazy as usual, I'll post later, just to remind myself to post.

Yesterday was pretty fun too but I don't remember much except campsie buffet & rice cake shop & realising there was no st vinnies. The furniture fully changed as well.

My dad just taught me 2 life lessons- so original d&ms from the fathers in movies.

1) Never, what ever you do, pee in the amazon
2) Diligently write complain letters to companies. Only then, do you get a free phone cards.

LOL words of wisdom indeed.

I'll explain laters, good night.

Grandparents left after we ate zebra cake & blew out candles & sang happy birthday for Jesus.
Now Sarah & I are watching the only Christmas movie we haven't watched recently so yeaaaaaaaah, barbie & christmas carols (; LOL
Dad just composed his variation of "Silent Night" which surprised us because it was in a fancy cover & he has no idea about music or anything so he just showed us.
& it's all rests. Like all the bars are filled with rests :L It's a lame joke because it's "silent" night, hahahaha. I'm going to treasure it as a memory of this Christmas. I pretended to play it on the piano & we both acted like it was some huge masterpiece & we liked closed our eyes & pretended to relish the beauty of the music [all silent ofc since I didn't touch the keys].

OK, FINAL POST ON CHRISTMAS until tomorrow.

Good night ; !

I think as we get older, it feels less & less like Christmas & probably 10-20 years from now, we'll be acting as the santa claus which takes all the magic away. A lot of people have said that they wished they still believed in santa claus, was a little kid again, all of that. I get it too. I wish Christmas felt like Christmas. I think it all depends on who you spend it with & how you use that time together. I'll kick myself if I waste too much time here blogging about it or taking photos rather than spending that time with my family.

I have a very korean Christmas this year. My grandparents [mum's side] are here & we just had wollamsam, listening to Christmas carols. Sarah & I had grape juice in the lightingup wine glasses we got from watching the musical "Wicked". It's also korean so I actually feel sort of headachey right now. Wollamsam was delicious as always & just being part of family conversations is fun- grandma brought zebra cake [my favourite (:] & a card which I have yet to open. Grandma was excited to make me open the card, going in korean, "I wrote it very carefully & beautifully -laughs- actually it's sort of wobbly since I was so happy & laughing when writing it". Her words made me think & touched me. I love those moments when you feel special as if someone wants to impress you or make you happy, GMH, yeah ?

Grandpa is quiet as always, I think he's been more quiet ever since he's moved to Sydney but mum & dad just say he's that type. Dad bought mum a "marriage/romance" book for her birthday where it talks about 2 main types of people- the dead sea [the listener] & the babbling brook [the talker]. Dad says I'm the biggest babbling brook because I literally can't shut up, & that mum's the dead sea while he's the deader sea. And my grandma's quite a babbling brook so I think my mum inherits the deadseaness from my grandpa although mum usually talks a lot too. I don't know.

Sarah finished early to come down & play piano next to me so I'm here blogging about my simple Christmas eve. Grandpa just came down & talked a little about the big family photo which was nice but sort of awkward- I'll try to make conversation because I love my grandpa, I just don't talk to him enough.

There's no decoration, no Christmas tree by choice but I suppose I get the replacement camera I lost & it's still light [sunset summer], nothing like Christmas but I'm waiting for there to be that special Christmassy festive feeling- like magic, as if it's snowing or the carols start singing. A year ago, we spent it at home I think but we spent a lot of the time with our family friends from Korea [Dad's friend, his wife & their daughter Heesoo], we watched "Miracle on 34th street" & it felt sort of simple Christmas but really nice because we went out to the city often. The year before was incredible, fully winter wonderland on one of the top storeys in a 5star hotel in Korea. I wonder what this year will be like...I really hope you have a great Christmas & I wish you the best New Years day followed by a whole bunch of great moments that make up the next year, 2011. (:

Merry Christmas.






DOT POINTSS

19/12/10
- Sea world, stood in line for ages to get our photo taken for VIP passes, completely wet [rain & most of the rides I liked as a kid closed down :(], jet skiiers show which i took videos of, we walked around in plastic bags [$5 each :oo] for raincoats, sting ray touching was probably the best because we all got wet & the tidal pool was fun when the stingrays swam past & we like chased after them touching them, sarah loved it, polar bear but it didn't really do much, the car was infested by little antmoth bugs [we had to return the car into the airport hertz car rentals for a new one], buying dinner & the 3daysfoodworth of supplies from convenience store. We survived on the GPS pretty much & only i knew how to work it but from the backseat, sarah kept going "I LOVE YOU GPS" in this really cute baby voice that made grandma laugh so many times. the hotel was really the only good part of the day because at first we were like, "4 star ?yuckk" because whenever we go on holidays, it's always 5 star so we noticed a difference in the reception & service & everything [LOL we're so stuckup] but then the room was humongous. i took so many photos of it, it was apartment-style with a living room & kitchen. & great tv channels [like those shows "Guiliana and Bill" & "How do I look?"] & so we just chilled.

20/12/10
- AMAZING wet&wild, incredible slides, mum getting into a swimsuit [first i'd ever seen in my life], on the river in floaties where mum tried to sit on the floaty & ended up turning over into the water LOL, edward & william on like all the scary slides & even mum went on the mammoth [we climbed up all the stairs- me, sarah, edward, william, mum, simone & william's mum & auntie] mum kept going "let me go down, I don't think i can do this" but we kept prodding on going "going back down the stairs is scarier than going on the ride which was true]. neptune's seafood platter which was chat [little seafood, full of chips] so sarah & i bought chicken cabonara pasta which was way nicer, grandma in a swimsuit as well on the river, wave pool, full splashing with auntie, mum & simone's mum, william's water guns which we kept stealing from him, edward overturning everyone from under the water, amazing time on the 8racer, THE TORNADO [which sarah pouted on because it hurt; like a huge deep funnel], incredibly fun, sunset times, water splashing, mum & grandma kept waiting for me & sarah to come back so we could go in the wave pool & less scary rides, yvonne, ellie & simone on the scariest dry ride [which i was too chicken to go on], heaps of line waiting, burning feet, lots & lots of photos, the river had tonnes of stops & whirling so cool & nice, i loved when mum & grandma came with us when they were clinging to me & sarah even though the depth was 0.8m xP

LATER
Dinner at the LEGENDS seafood chinese place which was,, alright. haha, chicken, beef, springrolls, usual chinese food. Mum, grandma, sarah & i were isolated from the big table because we came late so we just ate our own food & sarah & i visited the tourist shop which was australian so we pretended to be asian tourists. Afterwards, we walked out on the street where it was still warm & light & beachy, tonnes of lights & ice cream shops, we went to time zone where sarah & i raced around playing tonnes of games, trying to get tokens for tiny prizes. I went on one of those car driving rides where I crashed many times- I don't think i should be allowed near a car later in life (: then sarah started driving so I made mum sit next to her & they both fully cracked up & smiled, mum made surprised faces each time sarah crashed because the carstimulator kept jerking & moving, I took a video of it, blaring lights & mum's laughing watching sarah trying to drive. & there was this easy game that sarah & i were so happy we found because it gave us heaps of points. we met up with edward, william, simone, yvonnne & ellie [who i didn't talk to for the whole holiday] a couple of times but mostly sarah & i went on the hammering animals popping up thing [kind of like whack-a-mole]. It was amazing fun, crazy & flustered running up & down, pretend gambling while grandma rested on the massage chair. sarah & i went in the photo booth & took a couple, decorating & being random. Afterwards, I lost the camera. It was really sad because it had a hundred of the holidays photos & i fully broke down trying to look form it & ended up going to the hotel all depressed because i lost all the memories. i don't give a crap about losing the camera though,, My grandma kept trying to comfort me saying that the camera meant nothing but then I couldn't really say anything back,


21/12/10
still depressed in the morning over camera & begging mum to go back to timezone to look for it, movie world, charlie & the chocolate factory [rocky road], china town, baby rollercoaster with mum trying to convince us out of, snowcones, daffy duck shows, wildwest setting with huge waterfall which mum would never let us go on, almost watched polar express 4d, left to SURFER'S PARADISE, eating at seafood restaurant [garlic bread, pasta, risotto], looking at timezone again [we thought we lost sarah there & i went frantic panic again & realised the camera really did mean nothing because what's more important ? the photos or the actual person ? it made me realise & i felt better about it for a while. i was so relieved to find sarah] , buying clothes from ICE, browsing a seashell decoration shop, drinking passion mango boost, buying silver heels for $30 which made me so happy, mum's the best, grandma was laughing telling me to get smaller heels, sarah got grumpy because the converses she wanted were over $100 & went into buildabear. we walked out & went to the airport, bought 4 pineapple fritters, cried in the airplane over the lost camera, met dad, told him everything, hilarious car conversations because sarah was hyper, ate at beauty & the beast restaurant [egg, chilli chicken, seafood pancake yuuuuuumm], we kept piling food on grandma's plate because she wouldn't eat enough [it was like 10pm & we were eating dinner at strathfield, it was so nice & fun]; went home. SO TIRED !

22/12/10
Yesterday - we lounged about most of the morning, had hungry jacks for lunch & went to eastwood [the chinese part :OO]. sarah & i kept making jokes about it; like "omg, we're in their territory !" because there's the korean part & chinese part (: i hope no one thought we were retarded. the main reason we went there was to buy series of korean dramas from this shop & it was so cheap. i was like mind blown because in korea, a drama costed like $100 at least but in that shop, it was $8 & that was crazy. so we bought like 5 series & mum tried to haggle prices because she mentioned before to us that she couldn't do it so it kind of went like this.

Mum- "Could we get a little discount? We'll bring lots of friends!"
Woman- -obvious awkward silence-
Sarah & I- -facepalm-
-More awkward silence-
Mum- "ok, -gives $40- bye..." :(

Then we just walked around, exploring the unknown territory haha. we went to a bread shop where we made the lady working there angry so we just bought the bread & left. We went into clothing stores without buying anything at which point mum said that she thought her haggling was pretty good & at which point, sarah & i facepalmed once again. she doesn't seem to understand haha  but i love her, my mum & sister are my lifelong best friends, obviously different to school friends but still, so close. we spent a lot of the day watching the dramas & i think we ate something simple only i don't remember. ohh wait, we went to grandma's house because edward & yvonne were leaving. there was something sad about it. edward & us are as close as ever when he comes, just a supersmart, slightly nerdy cousin who's pretty cool to hang out with & play card games with because we still act like kids but yvonne seems sort of detached [maybe because she's an adult now ?]. i don't know, it's sort of sad. i think years ago, when she was like 13, she was really fun to hang with & we were close but ever since, she seems too grown up. mum said that we wouldn't see them again for another 3 years at least which is depressing because they only live in Perth...which is far away i guess LOL the next time i see them, yvonne will be old & edward will be heaps taller & probably have a deep voice, that's so weird.

Grandma made her famous cold noodles [so yuum] while we played cardgames [cheat because we didn't have enough people for mafia]. Then I had violin lessons, not much to be said about that. (: sarah & i treadmilled while watching boys before flowers. so happy.

23/12/10
Today, ran in the morning while watching "boys before flowers", ate ramen for lunch, read a little of "The White Queen", tried to study & failed, dad came home early, went out to eastwood for dinner [Myung Ga or something] & had korean bbq <33 So heaps of meat, chilli monkfish, chilli tofu soup as usual, eating out like every day lately. We went to Office Works where dad bought a replacement camera for the one i lost/was stolen for Christmas. Thank you, I love my parents. i couldn't be more grateful for them, seriously. Sarah & I walked around, making fun of the peole who worked there & kept being retarded. In the car, we started dancing idiotically [publicising my humiliating moments] to Hot & Cold & sarah kept making me put my legs up & down to the "you're up & you're down" lyrics. & she kept yelling "can't you go higher, i mean seriously, -puts her leg up blocking dad from seeing from the rearview mirror- I can put my leg higher & i need to pee!". LOL, she kept screaming while sometimes doing an indian accent & we were just laughing the whole car ride again.

the end.

ohh btw, just to let you know, you don't have to read all that. This isn't for entertainment purposes but just so i can better organise recounts/diaries so I'll remember them. Just letting you know, not to read all these because they're also sort of personal ^  ^

IT WAS INCREDIBLE

TBC.

Again, at the end of a wonderful day, I am too tired & happy to blog about it LOL.
But while it's fresh in my mind & you probably don't want to read it, I shall blog about it :DD
Mum, sarah & i went to grandma's house where edward & yvonne are staying & we just hung, playing card games & talking about maths like good little nerds (;
Afterthewoods, edward went with his other cousins to mueseum so mum, grandma, sarah, yvonne & i went to parra to shop where we spent most of our money buying food [namely thai, chinese, swiss cheese pretzel, easyway].
we bought a few clothes & me & yvonne spent some time trying on ridiculously high high heels (: then we interrogated her on her boyfriend [she's 20, he's 23] so we were kind of bugging her on when she can get married/if he's nice to her/rich/whatever koreans care about in general about a couple.
We met edward & their other cousins [simone & william who are about sarah's age] at epping bbq. & the 3 families ate until we exploded practically. it was like. meat. meat.meat. jjighe. meat. meat. meat. i couldn't eat but the rest of them just kept going :oo i still taste the meat hahaha, the smoke was making sarah & simone's eyes water so i kept taking them outside for fresh air which wasn't bad since everyone came & we did aerobics in the middle of the street.
haha it's funny because when I go to dr. lees i always pass that place & smell the meat & look longingly into the window looking like a pov hobo but there i am, in there for once, & i can't eat anymore LOL. i demonstrated to sarah, edward, yvonne & pretty much anyone who was in the restaurant what i look like when i pass looking wistfully into the shop so i ran outside & started walking slowly across, clinging to the window. sarah couldn't stop laughing at my douchiness & the waiter dude was like shaking his head, laughing again at my retardedness. =/

yeah but good timessss. then edward said as a joke that he wants to kareoke but we ended up there, like all the kids [plus yvonne who technically isn't a kid anymore] & we just went crazy . haha, "WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME". it mainly consisted of yvonne & sarah belting out randomly, simone singing the songs she liked [everytime by brittany spears xP], william sulking in the corner & sometimes burping/yelling into the microphone & edward & i hogging it & singing retardedly. It was a nice room with comfy brown sofas [yeah i pay attention to that stuff] & a huge teddy bear which i ended up calling my husband by the end of the night 8) all the songs went from like barbie girl to lady gaga to gee by snsd to puff the magic dragon & lemon tree [dad's favourites]. ohh & yellow submarine, basically either the really popular but old or just loser songs. LOL THEN WE DARED EDWARD TO DO DANCING QUEEN which he was more than happy to do. we used to call him 'dancer' because years ago when he came, he randomly started showing us his dance routine in front of mum by black eyed peas & it was sort of embarrassing that he was related to us. :L but he's a hilarious, a weird freaky genius guy who likes to dance & being better than everyone. yeah that's probably the best description of him (: naah he's cool.
somewhere in the middle, i did the acceptance speech "i'd like to thank my fans, my family, my friends if i have any but most of all my husband, the teddy bear" & sarah did the bonquiqui impression [youtube it ;D]. william got mad at edward in the middle & raged, calling him a faggot or something so edward had to make it up to him like a good older cousin & got him doritos .
simone's mum, yvonne & edward's mum & my mum & dad came to join us where we sang all the old songs & we sort of quietened because we couldn't be all crazy with the parents around but stil fun.
when we passed the street, singing still & flustered a bit, we saw this group of like korean uni kids who were so drunk & vomited on the street. that's so gross but they apologised while we gave them dirties. it sort of reminded me of the korean movies where people get drunk & vomit on the street... yeah that's about it. LOL great way to end this; & on the street we saw the police pushing this guy near a party. it was just sort of weird to see even though i know it's so common. i hope no one i know ever gets into that stuff- drinking too much, losing pride on the street or whatever.
i'm so tired, my voice hurts & i'm so full. but yeah, it was a fuuuun night/day or whatever & i can't be bothered to post photos. so it's amazing if you got through all this.



Met auntie & yvonne this morning; kind of awkward LOL. but hopefully it'll be fun. anyways, more video spam. i love disney but think taylor swift sucks but yeah, together, i thought the video was cute & clever



i'll just list whatever happened because i can't blog in detail too often.

like always, yesterday, we went out to dinner eastwood & had korean barbeque; yuuuum. then we discovered the new korean grocery shop in baulko which is good because mum doesn't always have to go to eastwood to stock up.

TODAY, LAST DAY; definitely not big or dramatic or emotional. we had to MULCH during pe but other than that, nothing too bad except mrs. doyle's crazy "THE JOY OF MATHEMATICS" VIDEO LOL LOL, her idea of a party :DD

reports- meh, could've done better, could've done worse. i'm in R which i'm happy with but after knowing results, it wasn't too surprising so yeah but i'm still happy with it. (:

after school, volunteered at st.vinnies & then had a easyway which i had to recite the order for since i don't remember [green apple green tea with grape & green apple jelly] just in case 10 years from now, i want easyway again & i can't remember it.

haha, the rest was just yeaah, we ate meat again. LOL, like we cooked wagyu & watched ever after[which sarah & i love because it's yum & ever after, because it really is a beautiful movie] & i ran 4km which was just because i barely moved for the past few months & felt guilty basically. yeah, great stuff to realise & post on the internet haha, the stuff of genius. xP i feel so deep & meaningful right now [sarcasmsarcasmsarcasm].i don't know, i don't talk to anyone properly nowadays. i practically survive on the internet. GLUCK to the yr12s tomorrow & congratulations to some nerd legendsss, i am jealous, no kidding.

i formspringed everyone wishing them a merry christmas [in year 9] because other grades are way too much LOL, i'm very sorry if i missed you & i'll give you a million christmas good wishes & messages if i have. happy & safe holidays to everyone.

GOD BLESS;

xx

ohh my cousins, edward & yvonne, are coming tomorrow. YAY, will have fun.

I AM SO SICK OF OPRAH; she is human, she can't solve her own problems

SHE IS SUCCESSFUL & GLAMAROUS YEAH

BUT SHE ISN'T AN IDOL; STOP TREATING HER LIKE A GODDESS LOL



IS SHE SERIOUS ?



My church youth group will be performing a dance for Christmas next weekend [where i won't be there but the song is beautiful i reckon] (:
Please watch, let's celebrate Christmas properly by celebrating our lives & our whole eternity being saved. That's a pretty big day; way bigger than a few sales & turkey on a table. Look at the bigger picture.



After school, yeah well i'm not in the blogging mood LOL
but yeah, will elaborate on this too & i'm not just saying it this time (:

OKAY PROMISED ELABORATION:

I won't go into the details of everything but basically I'm like clueless when it comes to public transport so I depended on samuel to get me to eastwood which I admit was a dumb thing to do but eventually we got there LOL. we found esther, cissy, joohwan & lincoln there [also jess choi & tommy who both didn't stay; tsk tsk ryde people >,>]/

I swear whenever I try to get a train ticket, I'm staring confusedly into the ticket machine going "O_______o". afterwards, lincoln ditched us & we made it to Burwood. YAY, we saw james hong being a yr7 gangster LOL & a couple of other ruse people. We got to the westfield & stayed at the foodcourts for a while on joohwan's mac, writing messages on our own walls about how awesome we were (:

Then joseph, jay, tiffany & martin came. I think we got tickets & went back to foodcourt to eat. all the guys had maccas except the teachers [martin & later, howard] who had asian noodles. hahaha esther & i had subway while cissy & tiff had more asian food [which tiff could barely start so cissy had to eat it all]

Howard was in an outrage because the lady at the noodle store had just "assumed" he could use chopsticks [which he can ;D] & apparently that's racist seeing as she asked the caucasian guy before him if he could use them. LOL BUT IT'S SO OBVIOUS HE CAN, he's asiannn. but apparently, apparently, apparently, it's racist.

the girls went to the only open store [kmart] & tried on ridiculously high heels without any money haha & i think the guys went to woolworths to stock up on food. we came back & got into the movies pretty much.

ohh wait, esther & i bought "air popped caramel popcorn" & we bought that tiny packet for like $5 which was such a ripoff but we thought it was worth it because it said "the best it can get" or something like that. i was like "omg omg, we have to buy it" haha.

then joseph just shook his head, facepalmed then asked if we took commerce [where false advertising was involved]. but the thing is, i suck at commerce & i love caramel popcorn. [we didn't end up finishing it].

Now to the point,,

Narnia was extremely Christian. You couldn't see the analogies & signs if you didn't understand what living for God was like but it really was. Lucy & Edmond have sort of forgotten Narnia but they come back & there's all those noble people fighting for what's right; "For Narnia!".

They fight against temptation & evil- they try to be honourable & good. but it's not just one climax war, it's a constant battle within themselves. For Lucy, it's vanity & envy, being jealous of her older sister's beauty which makes her tempted to become Susan & forget Narnia. For Edmond, it's power & trying to better than others, not being the second one, that drives him.

In a way, I think I realised that there is ALWAYS a battle within ourselves in the real world although not obvious as the green mist which means we have to be even more careful. Careful of feeling jealousy, careful of wanting to hurt or gossip about people, careful of immorality. We have to fight for God's Narnia, God's kingdom. It's not fighting against evil people but the evil within us. & I think there is always a little evil within us.

Near the end though I was reminded, as Aslan said "I am always with you" or something along those lines, that we are never fighting this battle alone. He is always in our hearts, fighting our battles for us, & has already won. We need to remain in him & trust in him. He has another name in our world. There is no way weak humans, we are practically animals, can fight against a supernatural evil power. God is always with us. Satan is nowhere equal or an opponent to God- he was created by God & all he can do is lead us astray to our own destructions.

At the end, "Aslan's land" is a mysterious & peaceful place of eternity- a place you can never return from. This represents heaven & only the most worthy & good hearted warriors of Narnia can enter- Prince Caspian decided not to enter even to find out if his deceased father was there because he thought that it would not make his father proud if he were to just give up on life, on this battle. It's so obvious to see the evil around the main characters in a movie but not the evil around us. Anything can distract us from praying or reading the Bible. At the beginning of the movie, Eustace was bratty & annoying, disbelieving of Narnia, & in the end he changes completely. We have so many friends who are ignorant of God, so similar to him.

Which side are we fighting for? Are we resisting our own temptations or are we welcoming them? Are we walking into the green mist willingly or fighting it off, struggling but with God's strength on our side? Will we even be brave enough to come near to "Aslan's land"? Aslan represents Jesus, just as God came in the form of a human, Aslan came in the form of a mere lion. Who are we fighting for? For Narnia? Or for ourselves? Try & figure it out.

I know this sounds corny but I encourage you to watch the movie with the right understanding of it. We are actual warriors in a world that takes nothing seriously. If I didn't get this, I don't think I would've gotten anything out of the movie, I would've just thought "oh good effects, good vs. evil, cool, bye".

but it's more than that, it takes a committment & a love for God to live in a way that is getting somewhere. Seriously, watch the movie, it contains good messages for those who want to receive them.

The song gave me the chills when it came on the credits; it speaks the life & certain hopes of a Christian. After we're done climbing the mountain, after we've finished the journey, there's a place for us.

We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe,
it's written in the stars that shine above



sarah's graduation which was surprisingly so sad when i wasn't even sad at my own yr6 graduation, it was just sort of happy & calm, whereas sarah's was emotional for me. i don't know, maybe it's because mrs. faulkner said goodbye to all the families departing matthew pearce & i realised it'd be the last time i'd have an excuse to set foot in my primary school. she used the same speech which reminded me of 3 years ago again, about "surrounding myself with friends that are good for me". she was basically urging us to make the right choices and pursue our dreams which i'm sure a lot of matthew peace class of 2007's forgot to do; it was pretty depressing but memorable. i was still so tired from hike so i skipped school to go to the graduation. When sarah took photos with her friends, it was so so strangely similar to mine, it isn't funny. i'll post a comparison photo.
Then mum & i went to eat at baulkham hills little rock cafe where we shared tiger prawn risotto & spinach fetuccini pasta, yummmmm (:
we had a mother in law argument after dinner where i seriously didn't meant to offend her but we did & it started with asking mum to get optifree contact lens cleaning fluid. long story. will explain later.
today, i was really too tired to do much & it feels like eternity since the hike & school. i miss it all, i feel like i haven't been alive for a few days, seriously. i love my family to bits but i don't think i can spend 6 weeks holiday [although i can't wait] doing nothing. i'll just feel completely useless. way too tired to say much, i will do it tomorrow maybe.

ohh & i'm reading harry potter 3 at the moment where i keep getting distracted. i might half do a bible thoughts thing here on this blog too soon. !

I realised today that it's not just me. We're all more complicated than we look, except for those who wear their heart on their sleeve. But I think deep inside, no one really knows anyone that well. This really isn't supposed to be a depressing post but it's just a thought. No one actually understands exactly what another person is going through, no matter how much we want it to be so, no one can perfectly fill your shoes. That's what makes someone unique and lonely. There's a lot more to everyone than what we first think or see. No one's actually shallow. No one's actually simple. Half the fun of life is figuring out what a person is like beneath it all, right ?

HECTIC. will elaborate.

Sarah, Dad & I swam- trying to play mermaids LOL [childhood memories] & clinging onto each other, pretending to drown. So hot today.
We watched korean drama, Study Master, & ate ramen. Simple, normal end of 2010, ayeeee (:
3 hours & a bit till 2011; excited but it's not like anything will happen or change. Being out in the city near the harbour bridge or whatever would be way more exciting but if I had too many moments like that, they would seem less special. So spending it at home & enjoying the moments before 2010 closes- maybe another year, I'll go out.
Watching fireworks on tv is better because you can see more anyways.
Have a good few hours until the new year.

~ See you next year x3

ANOTHER YEAR & FREAKING OUT.

Today, dad made me throw out stuff from my room which I am hopelessly attached to & I fully screamed at him to get out because I didn't want to clean & throw stuff out. Ever since, we made the new study room in our house, dad's been crazy about rearranging furniture, cleaning out rooms for a more "mature, highschool look" especially since Sarah's going to hs next year.

Sarah was completely obedient & helped in cleaning stuff out of her room so now, apart from a few pretty things, it's practically empty [she took out all her barbie dolls, xylophone, other junk] while I refused, clinging onto the smallest keychains & pretty boxes, cards, old stories I wrote. I guess it says stuff about a person. Maybe I'm not ready for a new year. We brought a shelf down from my room for the new studyroom [which has now replaced the TV] & so there's this weird empty space in my room. In the end, I threw out creative writing pieces, artworks [which are sort of bad because they were from way back in primary school] & a couple of random pens & morningglory things that I thought were pretty at the time.


We went to campsie buffet again because mum loves that place; she can eat a whole plate of prawns by herself. It's a wonder she still stays slim LOL. I wish I had that gene. Regardless, we all stacked our plates up with korean food [meat, meat, meat, chicken, meat, noodles, meat, meat]. There was this senile grandpa that kept yelling to a group of grandmas next to us & it was weird. I don't know. I don't think really old people care about how they look or act in public, after all, everyone around them must look like children to them. I scooped ice cream for Sarah & she was grinning the whole time eating it & she also finished a whole plate of prawns on top of her meal. Mum tried to beat her by finishing hers [which was a little more than Sarah's]. My mouth dropped at how much they could eat but dad just knowingly shook his head & smiled. It was so delish as usual. We eat out way too much but it's not something you can say no to, it's fun spending time eating...with family ofc (:

Laters, we went to Auburn to buy a dressing table for my room [where the weird empty space is]. I love furniture shopping, they're so pretty & new. It's the same feeling when looking for a new house, everything perfect & clean. Not much to say on it though, Sarah & I just fantisized about having the really expensive pieces in our house but we bought a simple, pretty white one in the end. I'm happy with it like I'm usually happy after buying something. Car conversations, chewing gum, laughing, talking about marrying doctors instead of becoming one. Because really, I want to be a doctor but there was this lady at church who told mum that I should just marry a doctor instead of becoming one. Which is like following in my mum's footsteps instead of my dad's. It was just a funny thought. This might sound weird but seeing my parents or my sister laugh, especially making them laugh, makes me happy. It makes the conversation more fun, like friends which just come naturally. It's not that I overdose on family time but I really love it.

I said I'd do resolutions but not going to post on epicgee because I don't want to do it so everyone can read it & no one actually cares. WITH A NEW YEAR; COMES NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS. I don't see the point because no one ever sticks to them but it's fun & I believe that's why new year exists. So you can at least have a hope that everything will be different, that everything will change. So yeah, doing it for the fun of it, to imagine what it would be like if I stuck to them.


RESOLUTIONS.

1) Obvious ruse one- study harder, better. Become more organized, learn because you want to & because it interests you. I want to be more passionate & involved. I want to be focused & ready, LOL TIME MANAGEMENT.


2) Better organizational time skills which means all the extracurriculars & things that should be first in my life such as God, family, friends.

3) Get off the computer. Self explanatory.


4) BECOME BUFF. JK. but yeah, not to that extent but healthy would be nice.

5) Read more, oldfashioned but yeah, get other hobbies & things that I really want to do- e.g. writing. Proper hobbies.

6) Talk to my grandparents more. I feel so bad because I know they won't be around forever.

7) I had something extremely negative- a long rant about how "whatever, none of these will work out" but I accidentally deleted it & so I figured that would dampen my good mood seeing as I'm usually in this happy state, I should at least be grateful & sound like it on the internet as well.

2010 has been AMAZING. INCREDIBLE. MINDBLOWING. BREATH TAKING. FUN LIKE HELL.

I love everyone who's been a part of it so thank you ^ ^

I hope you have a year just as good or far better than this one.

New life. New start. New good times.



BUT FIREWORKS ARE USELESS & MONEY CONSUMING. thank you.

HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY ESTHER; party was fun but lazy as usual, I'll post later, just to remind myself to post.

Yesterday was pretty fun too but I don't remember much except campsie buffet & rice cake shop & realising there was no st vinnies. The furniture fully changed as well.

My dad just taught me 2 life lessons- so original d&ms from the fathers in movies.

1) Never, what ever you do, pee in the amazon
2) Diligently write complain letters to companies. Only then, do you get a free phone cards.

LOL words of wisdom indeed.

I'll explain laters, good night.

Grandparents left after we ate zebra cake & blew out candles & sang happy birthday for Jesus.
Now Sarah & I are watching the only Christmas movie we haven't watched recently so yeaaaaaaaah, barbie & christmas carols (; LOL
Dad just composed his variation of "Silent Night" which surprised us because it was in a fancy cover & he has no idea about music or anything so he just showed us.
& it's all rests. Like all the bars are filled with rests :L It's a lame joke because it's "silent" night, hahahaha. I'm going to treasure it as a memory of this Christmas. I pretended to play it on the piano & we both acted like it was some huge masterpiece & we liked closed our eyes & pretended to relish the beauty of the music [all silent ofc since I didn't touch the keys].

OK, FINAL POST ON CHRISTMAS until tomorrow.

Good night ; !

I think as we get older, it feels less & less like Christmas & probably 10-20 years from now, we'll be acting as the santa claus which takes all the magic away. A lot of people have said that they wished they still believed in santa claus, was a little kid again, all of that. I get it too. I wish Christmas felt like Christmas. I think it all depends on who you spend it with & how you use that time together. I'll kick myself if I waste too much time here blogging about it or taking photos rather than spending that time with my family.

I have a very korean Christmas this year. My grandparents [mum's side] are here & we just had wollamsam, listening to Christmas carols. Sarah & I had grape juice in the lightingup wine glasses we got from watching the musical "Wicked". It's also korean so I actually feel sort of headachey right now. Wollamsam was delicious as always & just being part of family conversations is fun- grandma brought zebra cake [my favourite (:] & a card which I have yet to open. Grandma was excited to make me open the card, going in korean, "I wrote it very carefully & beautifully -laughs- actually it's sort of wobbly since I was so happy & laughing when writing it". Her words made me think & touched me. I love those moments when you feel special as if someone wants to impress you or make you happy, GMH, yeah ?

Grandpa is quiet as always, I think he's been more quiet ever since he's moved to Sydney but mum & dad just say he's that type. Dad bought mum a "marriage/romance" book for her birthday where it talks about 2 main types of people- the dead sea [the listener] & the babbling brook [the talker]. Dad says I'm the biggest babbling brook because I literally can't shut up, & that mum's the dead sea while he's the deader sea. And my grandma's quite a babbling brook so I think my mum inherits the deadseaness from my grandpa although mum usually talks a lot too. I don't know.

Sarah finished early to come down & play piano next to me so I'm here blogging about my simple Christmas eve. Grandpa just came down & talked a little about the big family photo which was nice but sort of awkward- I'll try to make conversation because I love my grandpa, I just don't talk to him enough.

There's no decoration, no Christmas tree by choice but I suppose I get the replacement camera I lost & it's still light [sunset summer], nothing like Christmas but I'm waiting for there to be that special Christmassy festive feeling- like magic, as if it's snowing or the carols start singing. A year ago, we spent it at home I think but we spent a lot of the time with our family friends from Korea [Dad's friend, his wife & their daughter Heesoo], we watched "Miracle on 34th street" & it felt sort of simple Christmas but really nice because we went out to the city often. The year before was incredible, fully winter wonderland on one of the top storeys in a 5star hotel in Korea. I wonder what this year will be like...I really hope you have a great Christmas & I wish you the best New Years day followed by a whole bunch of great moments that make up the next year, 2011. (:

Merry Christmas.






DOT POINTSS

19/12/10
- Sea world, stood in line for ages to get our photo taken for VIP passes, completely wet [rain & most of the rides I liked as a kid closed down :(], jet skiiers show which i took videos of, we walked around in plastic bags [$5 each :oo] for raincoats, sting ray touching was probably the best because we all got wet & the tidal pool was fun when the stingrays swam past & we like chased after them touching them, sarah loved it, polar bear but it didn't really do much, the car was infested by little antmoth bugs [we had to return the car into the airport hertz car rentals for a new one], buying dinner & the 3daysfoodworth of supplies from convenience store. We survived on the GPS pretty much & only i knew how to work it but from the backseat, sarah kept going "I LOVE YOU GPS" in this really cute baby voice that made grandma laugh so many times. the hotel was really the only good part of the day because at first we were like, "4 star ?yuckk" because whenever we go on holidays, it's always 5 star so we noticed a difference in the reception & service & everything [LOL we're so stuckup] but then the room was humongous. i took so many photos of it, it was apartment-style with a living room & kitchen. & great tv channels [like those shows "Guiliana and Bill" & "How do I look?"] & so we just chilled.

20/12/10
- AMAZING wet&wild, incredible slides, mum getting into a swimsuit [first i'd ever seen in my life], on the river in floaties where mum tried to sit on the floaty & ended up turning over into the water LOL, edward & william on like all the scary slides & even mum went on the mammoth [we climbed up all the stairs- me, sarah, edward, william, mum, simone & william's mum & auntie] mum kept going "let me go down, I don't think i can do this" but we kept prodding on going "going back down the stairs is scarier than going on the ride which was true]. neptune's seafood platter which was chat [little seafood, full of chips] so sarah & i bought chicken cabonara pasta which was way nicer, grandma in a swimsuit as well on the river, wave pool, full splashing with auntie, mum & simone's mum, william's water guns which we kept stealing from him, edward overturning everyone from under the water, amazing time on the 8racer, THE TORNADO [which sarah pouted on because it hurt; like a huge deep funnel], incredibly fun, sunset times, water splashing, mum & grandma kept waiting for me & sarah to come back so we could go in the wave pool & less scary rides, yvonne, ellie & simone on the scariest dry ride [which i was too chicken to go on], heaps of line waiting, burning feet, lots & lots of photos, the river had tonnes of stops & whirling so cool & nice, i loved when mum & grandma came with us when they were clinging to me & sarah even though the depth was 0.8m xP

LATER
Dinner at the LEGENDS seafood chinese place which was,, alright. haha, chicken, beef, springrolls, usual chinese food. Mum, grandma, sarah & i were isolated from the big table because we came late so we just ate our own food & sarah & i visited the tourist shop which was australian so we pretended to be asian tourists. Afterwards, we walked out on the street where it was still warm & light & beachy, tonnes of lights & ice cream shops, we went to time zone where sarah & i raced around playing tonnes of games, trying to get tokens for tiny prizes. I went on one of those car driving rides where I crashed many times- I don't think i should be allowed near a car later in life (: then sarah started driving so I made mum sit next to her & they both fully cracked up & smiled, mum made surprised faces each time sarah crashed because the carstimulator kept jerking & moving, I took a video of it, blaring lights & mum's laughing watching sarah trying to drive. & there was this easy game that sarah & i were so happy we found because it gave us heaps of points. we met up with edward, william, simone, yvonnne & ellie [who i didn't talk to for the whole holiday] a couple of times but mostly sarah & i went on the hammering animals popping up thing [kind of like whack-a-mole]. It was amazing fun, crazy & flustered running up & down, pretend gambling while grandma rested on the massage chair. sarah & i went in the photo booth & took a couple, decorating & being random. Afterwards, I lost the camera. It was really sad because it had a hundred of the holidays photos & i fully broke down trying to look form it & ended up going to the hotel all depressed because i lost all the memories. i don't give a crap about losing the camera though,, My grandma kept trying to comfort me saying that the camera meant nothing but then I couldn't really say anything back,


21/12/10
still depressed in the morning over camera & begging mum to go back to timezone to look for it, movie world, charlie & the chocolate factory [rocky road], china town, baby rollercoaster with mum trying to convince us out of, snowcones, daffy duck shows, wildwest setting with huge waterfall which mum would never let us go on, almost watched polar express 4d, left to SURFER'S PARADISE, eating at seafood restaurant [garlic bread, pasta, risotto], looking at timezone again [we thought we lost sarah there & i went frantic panic again & realised the camera really did mean nothing because what's more important ? the photos or the actual person ? it made me realise & i felt better about it for a while. i was so relieved to find sarah] , buying clothes from ICE, browsing a seashell decoration shop, drinking passion mango boost, buying silver heels for $30 which made me so happy, mum's the best, grandma was laughing telling me to get smaller heels, sarah got grumpy because the converses she wanted were over $100 & went into buildabear. we walked out & went to the airport, bought 4 pineapple fritters, cried in the airplane over the lost camera, met dad, told him everything, hilarious car conversations because sarah was hyper, ate at beauty & the beast restaurant [egg, chilli chicken, seafood pancake yuuuuuumm], we kept piling food on grandma's plate because she wouldn't eat enough [it was like 10pm & we were eating dinner at strathfield, it was so nice & fun]; went home. SO TIRED !

22/12/10
Yesterday - we lounged about most of the morning, had hungry jacks for lunch & went to eastwood [the chinese part :OO]. sarah & i kept making jokes about it; like "omg, we're in their territory !" because there's the korean part & chinese part (: i hope no one thought we were retarded. the main reason we went there was to buy series of korean dramas from this shop & it was so cheap. i was like mind blown because in korea, a drama costed like $100 at least but in that shop, it was $8 & that was crazy. so we bought like 5 series & mum tried to haggle prices because she mentioned before to us that she couldn't do it so it kind of went like this.

Mum- "Could we get a little discount? We'll bring lots of friends!"
Woman- -obvious awkward silence-
Sarah & I- -facepalm-
-More awkward silence-
Mum- "ok, -gives $40- bye..." :(

Then we just walked around, exploring the unknown territory haha. we went to a bread shop where we made the lady working there angry so we just bought the bread & left. We went into clothing stores without buying anything at which point mum said that she thought her haggling was pretty good & at which point, sarah & i facepalmed once again. she doesn't seem to understand haha  but i love her, my mum & sister are my lifelong best friends, obviously different to school friends but still, so close. we spent a lot of the day watching the dramas & i think we ate something simple only i don't remember. ohh wait, we went to grandma's house because edward & yvonne were leaving. there was something sad about it. edward & us are as close as ever when he comes, just a supersmart, slightly nerdy cousin who's pretty cool to hang out with & play card games with because we still act like kids but yvonne seems sort of detached [maybe because she's an adult now ?]. i don't know, it's sort of sad. i think years ago, when she was like 13, she was really fun to hang with & we were close but ever since, she seems too grown up. mum said that we wouldn't see them again for another 3 years at least which is depressing because they only live in Perth...which is far away i guess LOL the next time i see them, yvonne will be old & edward will be heaps taller & probably have a deep voice, that's so weird.

Grandma made her famous cold noodles [so yuum] while we played cardgames [cheat because we didn't have enough people for mafia]. Then I had violin lessons, not much to be said about that. (: sarah & i treadmilled while watching boys before flowers. so happy.

23/12/10
Today, ran in the morning while watching "boys before flowers", ate ramen for lunch, read a little of "The White Queen", tried to study & failed, dad came home early, went out to eastwood for dinner [Myung Ga or something] & had korean bbq <33 So heaps of meat, chilli monkfish, chilli tofu soup as usual, eating out like every day lately. We went to Office Works where dad bought a replacement camera for the one i lost/was stolen for Christmas. Thank you, I love my parents. i couldn't be more grateful for them, seriously. Sarah & I walked around, making fun of the peole who worked there & kept being retarded. In the car, we started dancing idiotically [publicising my humiliating moments] to Hot & Cold & sarah kept making me put my legs up & down to the "you're up & you're down" lyrics. & she kept yelling "can't you go higher, i mean seriously, -puts her leg up blocking dad from seeing from the rearview mirror- I can put my leg higher & i need to pee!". LOL, she kept screaming while sometimes doing an indian accent & we were just laughing the whole car ride again.

the end.

ohh btw, just to let you know, you don't have to read all that. This isn't for entertainment purposes but just so i can better organise recounts/diaries so I'll remember them. Just letting you know, not to read all these because they're also sort of personal ^  ^

IT WAS INCREDIBLE

TBC.

Again, at the end of a wonderful day, I am too tired & happy to blog about it LOL.
But while it's fresh in my mind & you probably don't want to read it, I shall blog about it :DD
Mum, sarah & i went to grandma's house where edward & yvonne are staying & we just hung, playing card games & talking about maths like good little nerds (;
Afterthewoods, edward went with his other cousins to mueseum so mum, grandma, sarah, yvonne & i went to parra to shop where we spent most of our money buying food [namely thai, chinese, swiss cheese pretzel, easyway].
we bought a few clothes & me & yvonne spent some time trying on ridiculously high high heels (: then we interrogated her on her boyfriend [she's 20, he's 23] so we were kind of bugging her on when she can get married/if he's nice to her/rich/whatever koreans care about in general about a couple.
We met edward & their other cousins [simone & william who are about sarah's age] at epping bbq. & the 3 families ate until we exploded practically. it was like. meat. meat.meat. jjighe. meat. meat. meat. i couldn't eat but the rest of them just kept going :oo i still taste the meat hahaha, the smoke was making sarah & simone's eyes water so i kept taking them outside for fresh air which wasn't bad since everyone came & we did aerobics in the middle of the street.
haha it's funny because when I go to dr. lees i always pass that place & smell the meat & look longingly into the window looking like a pov hobo but there i am, in there for once, & i can't eat anymore LOL. i demonstrated to sarah, edward, yvonne & pretty much anyone who was in the restaurant what i look like when i pass looking wistfully into the shop so i ran outside & started walking slowly across, clinging to the window. sarah couldn't stop laughing at my douchiness & the waiter dude was like shaking his head, laughing again at my retardedness. =/

yeah but good timessss. then edward said as a joke that he wants to kareoke but we ended up there, like all the kids [plus yvonne who technically isn't a kid anymore] & we just went crazy . haha, "WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME". it mainly consisted of yvonne & sarah belting out randomly, simone singing the songs she liked [everytime by brittany spears xP], william sulking in the corner & sometimes burping/yelling into the microphone & edward & i hogging it & singing retardedly. It was a nice room with comfy brown sofas [yeah i pay attention to that stuff] & a huge teddy bear which i ended up calling my husband by the end of the night 8) all the songs went from like barbie girl to lady gaga to gee by snsd to puff the magic dragon & lemon tree [dad's favourites]. ohh & yellow submarine, basically either the really popular but old or just loser songs. LOL THEN WE DARED EDWARD TO DO DANCING QUEEN which he was more than happy to do. we used to call him 'dancer' because years ago when he came, he randomly started showing us his dance routine in front of mum by black eyed peas & it was sort of embarrassing that he was related to us. :L but he's a hilarious, a weird freaky genius guy who likes to dance & being better than everyone. yeah that's probably the best description of him (: naah he's cool.
somewhere in the middle, i did the acceptance speech "i'd like to thank my fans, my family, my friends if i have any but most of all my husband, the teddy bear" & sarah did the bonquiqui impression [youtube it ;D]. william got mad at edward in the middle & raged, calling him a faggot or something so edward had to make it up to him like a good older cousin & got him doritos .
simone's mum, yvonne & edward's mum & my mum & dad came to join us where we sang all the old songs & we sort of quietened because we couldn't be all crazy with the parents around but stil fun.
when we passed the street, singing still & flustered a bit, we saw this group of like korean uni kids who were so drunk & vomited on the street. that's so gross but they apologised while we gave them dirties. it sort of reminded me of the korean movies where people get drunk & vomit on the street... yeah that's about it. LOL great way to end this; & on the street we saw the police pushing this guy near a party. it was just sort of weird to see even though i know it's so common. i hope no one i know ever gets into that stuff- drinking too much, losing pride on the street or whatever.
i'm so tired, my voice hurts & i'm so full. but yeah, it was a fuuuun night/day or whatever & i can't be bothered to post photos. so it's amazing if you got through all this.



Met auntie & yvonne this morning; kind of awkward LOL. but hopefully it'll be fun. anyways, more video spam. i love disney but think taylor swift sucks but yeah, together, i thought the video was cute & clever



i'll just list whatever happened because i can't blog in detail too often.

like always, yesterday, we went out to dinner eastwood & had korean barbeque; yuuuum. then we discovered the new korean grocery shop in baulko which is good because mum doesn't always have to go to eastwood to stock up.

TODAY, LAST DAY; definitely not big or dramatic or emotional. we had to MULCH during pe but other than that, nothing too bad except mrs. doyle's crazy "THE JOY OF MATHEMATICS" VIDEO LOL LOL, her idea of a party :DD

reports- meh, could've done better, could've done worse. i'm in R which i'm happy with but after knowing results, it wasn't too surprising so yeah but i'm still happy with it. (:

after school, volunteered at st.vinnies & then had a easyway which i had to recite the order for since i don't remember [green apple green tea with grape & green apple jelly] just in case 10 years from now, i want easyway again & i can't remember it.

haha, the rest was just yeaah, we ate meat again. LOL, like we cooked wagyu & watched ever after[which sarah & i love because it's yum & ever after, because it really is a beautiful movie] & i ran 4km which was just because i barely moved for the past few months & felt guilty basically. yeah, great stuff to realise & post on the internet haha, the stuff of genius. xP i feel so deep & meaningful right now [sarcasmsarcasmsarcasm].i don't know, i don't talk to anyone properly nowadays. i practically survive on the internet. GLUCK to the yr12s tomorrow & congratulations to some nerd legendsss, i am jealous, no kidding.

i formspringed everyone wishing them a merry christmas [in year 9] because other grades are way too much LOL, i'm very sorry if i missed you & i'll give you a million christmas good wishes & messages if i have. happy & safe holidays to everyone.

GOD BLESS;

xx

ohh my cousins, edward & yvonne, are coming tomorrow. YAY, will have fun.

I AM SO SICK OF OPRAH; she is human, she can't solve her own problems

SHE IS SUCCESSFUL & GLAMAROUS YEAH

BUT SHE ISN'T AN IDOL; STOP TREATING HER LIKE A GODDESS LOL



IS SHE SERIOUS ?



My church youth group will be performing a dance for Christmas next weekend [where i won't be there but the song is beautiful i reckon] (:
Please watch, let's celebrate Christmas properly by celebrating our lives & our whole eternity being saved. That's a pretty big day; way bigger than a few sales & turkey on a table. Look at the bigger picture.



After school, yeah well i'm not in the blogging mood LOL
but yeah, will elaborate on this too & i'm not just saying it this time (:

OKAY PROMISED ELABORATION:

I won't go into the details of everything but basically I'm like clueless when it comes to public transport so I depended on samuel to get me to eastwood which I admit was a dumb thing to do but eventually we got there LOL. we found esther, cissy, joohwan & lincoln there [also jess choi & tommy who both didn't stay; tsk tsk ryde people >,>]/

I swear whenever I try to get a train ticket, I'm staring confusedly into the ticket machine going "O_______o". afterwards, lincoln ditched us & we made it to Burwood. YAY, we saw james hong being a yr7 gangster LOL & a couple of other ruse people. We got to the westfield & stayed at the foodcourts for a while on joohwan's mac, writing messages on our own walls about how awesome we were (:

Then joseph, jay, tiffany & martin came. I think we got tickets & went back to foodcourt to eat. all the guys had maccas except the teachers [martin & later, howard] who had asian noodles. hahaha esther & i had subway while cissy & tiff had more asian food [which tiff could barely start so cissy had to eat it all]

Howard was in an outrage because the lady at the noodle store had just "assumed" he could use chopsticks [which he can ;D] & apparently that's racist seeing as she asked the caucasian guy before him if he could use them. LOL BUT IT'S SO OBVIOUS HE CAN, he's asiannn. but apparently, apparently, apparently, it's racist.

the girls went to the only open store [kmart] & tried on ridiculously high heels without any money haha & i think the guys went to woolworths to stock up on food. we came back & got into the movies pretty much.

ohh wait, esther & i bought "air popped caramel popcorn" & we bought that tiny packet for like $5 which was such a ripoff but we thought it was worth it because it said "the best it can get" or something like that. i was like "omg omg, we have to buy it" haha.

then joseph just shook his head, facepalmed then asked if we took commerce [where false advertising was involved]. but the thing is, i suck at commerce & i love caramel popcorn. [we didn't end up finishing it].

Now to the point,,

Narnia was extremely Christian. You couldn't see the analogies & signs if you didn't understand what living for God was like but it really was. Lucy & Edmond have sort of forgotten Narnia but they come back & there's all those noble people fighting for what's right; "For Narnia!".

They fight against temptation & evil- they try to be honourable & good. but it's not just one climax war, it's a constant battle within themselves. For Lucy, it's vanity & envy, being jealous of her older sister's beauty which makes her tempted to become Susan & forget Narnia. For Edmond, it's power & trying to better than others, not being the second one, that drives him.

In a way, I think I realised that there is ALWAYS a battle within ourselves in the real world although not obvious as the green mist which means we have to be even more careful. Careful of feeling jealousy, careful of wanting to hurt or gossip about people, careful of immorality. We have to fight for God's Narnia, God's kingdom. It's not fighting against evil people but the evil within us. & I think there is always a little evil within us.

Near the end though I was reminded, as Aslan said "I am always with you" or something along those lines, that we are never fighting this battle alone. He is always in our hearts, fighting our battles for us, & has already won. We need to remain in him & trust in him. He has another name in our world. There is no way weak humans, we are practically animals, can fight against a supernatural evil power. God is always with us. Satan is nowhere equal or an opponent to God- he was created by God & all he can do is lead us astray to our own destructions.

At the end, "Aslan's land" is a mysterious & peaceful place of eternity- a place you can never return from. This represents heaven & only the most worthy & good hearted warriors of Narnia can enter- Prince Caspian decided not to enter even to find out if his deceased father was there because he thought that it would not make his father proud if he were to just give up on life, on this battle. It's so obvious to see the evil around the main characters in a movie but not the evil around us. Anything can distract us from praying or reading the Bible. At the beginning of the movie, Eustace was bratty & annoying, disbelieving of Narnia, & in the end he changes completely. We have so many friends who are ignorant of God, so similar to him.

Which side are we fighting for? Are we resisting our own temptations or are we welcoming them? Are we walking into the green mist willingly or fighting it off, struggling but with God's strength on our side? Will we even be brave enough to come near to "Aslan's land"? Aslan represents Jesus, just as God came in the form of a human, Aslan came in the form of a mere lion. Who are we fighting for? For Narnia? Or for ourselves? Try & figure it out.

I know this sounds corny but I encourage you to watch the movie with the right understanding of it. We are actual warriors in a world that takes nothing seriously. If I didn't get this, I don't think I would've gotten anything out of the movie, I would've just thought "oh good effects, good vs. evil, cool, bye".

but it's more than that, it takes a committment & a love for God to live in a way that is getting somewhere. Seriously, watch the movie, it contains good messages for those who want to receive them.

The song gave me the chills when it came on the credits; it speaks the life & certain hopes of a Christian. After we're done climbing the mountain, after we've finished the journey, there's a place for us.

We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe,
it's written in the stars that shine above



sarah's graduation which was surprisingly so sad when i wasn't even sad at my own yr6 graduation, it was just sort of happy & calm, whereas sarah's was emotional for me. i don't know, maybe it's because mrs. faulkner said goodbye to all the families departing matthew pearce & i realised it'd be the last time i'd have an excuse to set foot in my primary school. she used the same speech which reminded me of 3 years ago again, about "surrounding myself with friends that are good for me". she was basically urging us to make the right choices and pursue our dreams which i'm sure a lot of matthew peace class of 2007's forgot to do; it was pretty depressing but memorable. i was still so tired from hike so i skipped school to go to the graduation. When sarah took photos with her friends, it was so so strangely similar to mine, it isn't funny. i'll post a comparison photo.
Then mum & i went to eat at baulkham hills little rock cafe where we shared tiger prawn risotto & spinach fetuccini pasta, yummmmm (:
we had a mother in law argument after dinner where i seriously didn't meant to offend her but we did & it started with asking mum to get optifree contact lens cleaning fluid. long story. will explain later.
today, i was really too tired to do much & it feels like eternity since the hike & school. i miss it all, i feel like i haven't been alive for a few days, seriously. i love my family to bits but i don't think i can spend 6 weeks holiday [although i can't wait] doing nothing. i'll just feel completely useless. way too tired to say much, i will do it tomorrow maybe.

ohh & i'm reading harry potter 3 at the moment where i keep getting distracted. i might half do a bible thoughts thing here on this blog too soon. !

I realised today that it's not just me. We're all more complicated than we look, except for those who wear their heart on their sleeve. But I think deep inside, no one really knows anyone that well. This really isn't supposed to be a depressing post but it's just a thought. No one actually understands exactly what another person is going through, no matter how much we want it to be so, no one can perfectly fill your shoes. That's what makes someone unique and lonely. There's a lot more to everyone than what we first think or see. No one's actually shallow. No one's actually simple. Half the fun of life is figuring out what a person is like beneath it all, right ?

HECTIC. will elaborate.