I prayed for a long time yesterday. Out of need and out of guilt and really out of everything. I don't deserve any of this but He blesses me with everything so I guess I prayed to put everything into perspective. Thank you to all the friends who were so sensitive and nice to me this week but I really just need to get over myself. These exams mean nothing.

I feel a lot better today and yeah, just been really happy this morning after 4u that is.Ate lunch at Little Rock Cafe with Mum & just been lazing since.

Anyways, look, hahahaha.






Oh wow. So yesterday my mum told us the story of how my grandparents [on my dad's side] met & married. It's legitimately like a kdrama- the social class differences, the disapproving parents, the almost eloping- which is polar opposite to my parents' boring love story [pretty much a blind date lol]. I'll post about my grandparents later; it's pretty amazing :L

I think it's in the future.

So, despite exams & all, I've been happy.. somewhat. My family are actually amazing & I've just been really blessed that they're the way they are & have faith in me even when I have pretty much none for myself. It's been kind of tough this week but I think I've got no one to blame but myself this time.

Well, on Sunday, I got confirmed &.. seeing as I don't have fb, I don't even have pictures haha but they're on Yadha's blog so all's good. I would attempt something d&m right now but I can't bring myself to do it. It's a confirmation. It's amazing in itself. I also had my first taste of wine at Holy Communion as a result & yuck, do not see the appeal in being an alcoholic. Anyway, this is it for today :D BYE KIDS

Is it better to pretend to be overconfident or just accept your lack of it?

More & more self-doubt recently, I feel like giving up already which is really terrible when we're really privileged to be learning & having opportunities like this to begin with. Why do we say we're screwed when there's nothing bad about it at all? I need an attitude change & I've been such a retard to my family recently; yesterday, my sister called me out on it & called me a bitch & quite deservedly I think. It's good to have people to keep you on track sometimes.

Oh my gosh. Was in the car with my Mum, stressing & talking about my very bleak future hahah. But really, I was just in this state of confusion & sadness when I thought that this is real & do I even have security in what I thought I wanted blahblahblah.

So kind of wistfully I said, "What would it be like to be an English lecturer?"
Mum- "Hmm maybe, that's not really my style".
Me- "What's your style then?"
Mum- hmm.. omma, GANGNAM STYLE. 8)

Wow, that just brightened my day lol.

I prayed for a long time yesterday. Out of need and out of guilt and really out of everything. I don't deserve any of this but He blesses me with everything so I guess I prayed to put everything into perspective. Thank you to all the friends who were so sensitive and nice to me this week but I really just need to get over myself. These exams mean nothing.

I feel a lot better today and yeah, just been really happy this morning after 4u that is.Ate lunch at Little Rock Cafe with Mum & just been lazing since.

Anyways, look, hahahaha.






Oh wow. So yesterday my mum told us the story of how my grandparents [on my dad's side] met & married. It's legitimately like a kdrama- the social class differences, the disapproving parents, the almost eloping- which is polar opposite to my parents' boring love story [pretty much a blind date lol]. I'll post about my grandparents later; it's pretty amazing :L

I think it's in the future.

So, despite exams & all, I've been happy.. somewhat. My family are actually amazing & I've just been really blessed that they're the way they are & have faith in me even when I have pretty much none for myself. It's been kind of tough this week but I think I've got no one to blame but myself this time.

Well, on Sunday, I got confirmed &.. seeing as I don't have fb, I don't even have pictures haha but they're on Yadha's blog so all's good. I would attempt something d&m right now but I can't bring myself to do it. It's a confirmation. It's amazing in itself. I also had my first taste of wine at Holy Communion as a result & yuck, do not see the appeal in being an alcoholic. Anyway, this is it for today :D BYE KIDS

Is it better to pretend to be overconfident or just accept your lack of it?

More & more self-doubt recently, I feel like giving up already which is really terrible when we're really privileged to be learning & having opportunities like this to begin with. Why do we say we're screwed when there's nothing bad about it at all? I need an attitude change & I've been such a retard to my family recently; yesterday, my sister called me out on it & called me a bitch & quite deservedly I think. It's good to have people to keep you on track sometimes.

Oh my gosh. Was in the car with my Mum, stressing & talking about my very bleak future hahah. But really, I was just in this state of confusion & sadness when I thought that this is real & do I even have security in what I thought I wanted blahblahblah.

So kind of wistfully I said, "What would it be like to be an English lecturer?"
Mum- "Hmm maybe, that's not really my style".
Me- "What's your style then?"
Mum- hmm.. omma, GANGNAM STYLE. 8)

Wow, that just brightened my day lol.